Sixteen-year-old Lismu was wandering around the streets of Zug, attracted by the buzz of people, so he lifted the corner of his skirt and joined the carnival hidden behind the tranquility in an intricate lace dress that did not match the rock 'n' roll vibe.

Not many seats have already been filled, and it seems that this is a more private rock show, perhaps only for those who are destined.

Li Simu didn't feel cramped, he stood still under the tree not far away, folded his hands behind his back, distributed part of the force to the rough trunk behind him, and finally began to raise his eyes to look at the band playing on the stage.

The lead singer has a good voice, three points of hoarseness, seven points of bewitching smoke and a very tense performance easily snatch people's attention. He has medium-long hair, his upper body is naked, his hair quality doesn't seem to be very good, and even the ends of his hair are tangled, even from a distance of five or six meters, Li Simu seems to be able to see that there is no clean stubble on his face.

As if sensing this overly straightforward gaze, the lead singer turned his gaze to Li Simu.

It was a girl with a young face but a mature dress.

It was a girl who was in a hurry to grow up but couldn't hide her childishness.

Li Simu hurriedly lowered his head and withdrew his gaze.

A song has just ended, the curtain has ended, and the extremely aggressive music seems to linger in the ears.

When it was time for the band to rest, some of the small number of people in the audience got up and left.

And Li Simu still lowered his head, looking at the newly dyed blue nails on his toes.

But a voice sounded in my ears: "Hello, you are also Chinese, right? I noticed you just now." ”

"I just have a seat on my side right now, and maybe I can have you along before the second half starts?"

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Aunt Huo accompanied Li Simu to Europe... Zhou vacation, because Lin Lan and Li Simu's father was too busy with work, so it was Aunt Huo who first suggested that taking Li Simu out for a walk and changing his mood might help.

But in fact, Li Simu's heart knows very well what he is doing. It's not that she can't control her emotions, she isn't really in an uncontrollable rebellious period, she just found a way and tried to win the attention of the woman called Lin Lan in this seemingly childish way.

The result was, of course, a failure, although this result was also expected by Li Simu.

She agreed to Aunt Huo's proposal with an indifferent attitude, Aunt Huo is a forty-year-old woman, born in an eighteenth-tier city, and in a patriarchal family, her younger brother almost snatched all the resources and parental love, and almost everything she and her sister used was picked up by her younger brother. But with her own ability, she was admitted to university. And taught himself many skills when he was a student. Later, she came to Li Simu's house and became Li Simu's nanny. When Li Simu was just born, Aunt Huo was only 24 years old, and many people didn't understand why such a young and highly educated woman would come to be a private nanny for babies, and there was certainly an unknown reason behind this. This is 16 years. Li Simu and Aunt Huo have accumulated more time together than any other person, and Aunt Huo seems to be more like Li Simu's mother than Lin Lan.

In the process of taking care of Li Simu, Aunt Huo also taught herself French and Spanish. Li Simu's language talent was largely influenced by Aunt Huo.

This time in Europe: Zhou's trip, Li Simu thought that it would end in the ordinary daily like other trips, but he met Tang Qingyan, which made it all develop in an unexpected direction.

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After the band's performance that day, Tang Qingyan took Li Simu and introduced the members of the band to Li Simu one by one. Although they came from different places and spoke different native languages, everyone could have a simple daily conversation in English, and the Italian big Libes hand from Sicily did not look like the standard Italian, the whole person was thinner, and there was no signature beard, he warmly shook hands with Li Simu, saying that this was the way "Tang" said you Chinese greeted each other.

The drummer from South America was a man who looked to be twenty-seven or eighteen years old and spoke Mexican-flavored American English, as he had spent several years in the United States.

The keyboardist was a taciturn red-haired young man, and no one knew where he came from, but through his always unfazed eyes, he could tell that he had seen a big world.

Later, Li Simu and Tang Qingyan gradually became familiar with each other, and during the time they lived in Zug, they would go to see their performances when they had time. Most of the time, he was accompanied by Aunt Huo.

I still remember that on a dark and charming dusk, Tang Qingyan and Li Simu sat on a bench on the shore of Lake Zug, Tang Qingyan talked about his reason for coming here for the first time, and took the initiative to mention the past for the first time.

"Xiaomu", Li Simu always heard Tang Qingyan call himself like this, before he met him, no one had ever called himself so affectionately, and the most intimate one was the "Yuanyuan" in Shen Yinmo's mouth. It's just that now that Shen Yinmo has gone abroad, for various reasons, the contact between the two has become less.

"Little wood, you know what? I was born into a very interesting family. My mother is a real lady. It's no exaggeration to say that I've never seen her angry at anyone or speak harshly to anyone. ”

Li Simu listened quietly, the breeze on the shore of Lake Zug, and the refreshing coolness after sunset. She also thought of her mother, what kind of person was her mother? Many times Li Simu couldn't figure out, since Lin Lan didn't care about herself, why did she give birth to herself?

Tang Qingyan continued: "It's very strange, it is said that many people will suffer from 'childhood amnesia', and when they grow up, they will not be able to remember what happened when they were three or four years old, but my memory of that time is very clear, as long as I close my eyes, even the picture is vivid. “

"Why do you care so much about when you're three or four years old?"

"Because my mother was hospitalized in a car accident when I was four years old, I read the reports at the time and found that there was no detail. I tried many times to find people who knew the time, but I had no way of knowing who was responsible and how the accident happened, and every time the investigation made some progress, the clues would be broken in an inexplicable place. ”

Li Simu listened quietly, through this time of getting along, she also felt that Tang Qingyan was not a person who liked to express, and he was now willing to take the initiative to mention what he had experienced, probably not to get any response, but just to need a listener.

Whether it was out of trust or not, or considering that Pingshui would meet and not see each other in the future, it didn't matter, Li Simu felt that this feeling of being treated as a confidant and needed made her feel a lot more relieved.

"Later, my mother was admitted to the ICU, in a severe coma and with a breathing tube, but the doctor said she was still conscious, but she couldn't wake up and couldn't speak. ”

Later, her nurse, now my stepmother, announced that she was pregnant. I have an extra half-brother. ”

Tang Qingyan's face did not change, and he couldn't see his joy or anger, as if he was objectively stating something that had happened. But Li Simu noticed that the hand on his side had clenched into a fist.

At that time, Tang Qingyan's hair was very long, almost a shawl, and he usually neglected to take care of it, letting his hair fall loose, which looked a little unruly and messy.

"Xiaomu, you know what? On the day my mother died, I was still in class, and there was no one in her ward. The nurse who took care of her was accompanied by my father for a pregnancy test. ”