Chapter 7: Reconciling with the Past
A large dark cloud pressed up, the sun was obscured under the clouds, there was no daylight, replaced by the coolness rushing up from the soles of his feet, Siwei couldn't help but shiver.
After a long silent confrontation, Song Ju'an had already become terrifyingly calm, he bit his cheek, and at the same time used his hand to easily drag the person on the ground up.
The sudden action made Si Wei a little unbearable, and he couldn't find his center of gravity when he stood up and shook it twice, but fortunately, Song Ju'an's hand never let go.
When she thought it was just that, her back was violently clamped and pressed hard, her feet moved forward by inertia, and her face hit the man's chest hard.
She is usually sluggish, but now it is stupid to be confused, and immediately put her left hand up to push it away, and before she could touch it, her hands were cut back to her waist together.
The two of them were separated by training uniforms and stuck together seamlessly.
Si Wei raised his face in shock, his eyes full of defense.
Song Ju'an was not stunned, and even a little indifferent: "I'll just say it once, you listen, I recognize what you thought of me before, and now I can confess that I can't dare to have other thoughts about you." ”
Siwei had already let his guard down, his mind went blank, and he could only listen to him on instinct.
"Ten years ago, when I took the initiative to approach you, I gave you the right to look down on me, and from today onwards, I will also give you the right to choose, and it is up to you to be a friend and a passerby. ”
The moment the words fell, the confinement on her waist disappeared, and Si Wei was stunned in place, until the person outside the iron net walked away, she vaguely realized something.
However, how does it sound like she is randomly defining people, and she doesn't know what to do?
There was a muffled thunder on the horizon, and soon it started to rain, so the training was temporarily canceled.
Heavy rain washed over the glass, obscuring everything from the outside world.
Si Wei withdrew his gaze from the window, hugged the quilt to the corner of the bed, and buried his head in the crook of his arm to recall today's events.
The resistance that once arose due to certain things, when Song Juan held his hand and didn't let go, it was like a lit explosive bag, and it exploded with a "bang".
In the end, it happened too suddenly, including those words, she didn't even think about it......
In all these years, she hadn't said anything so heavy to anyone.
On this issue, Si Wei couldn't figure out who was at fault, he was the first to speak, but isn't there a saying that the first one is cheap?
Even if Song Ju'an can't be described as cheap, it's always right to flirt first, right?
Thinking of this, she raised her head thoughtfully:
"Is that flirting?"
"Oh my God, I'm back!"
The two voices were almost at the same time, and I saw Xu Heyan collecting the umbrella at the door, shaking off the rain on his clothes, and closing the door and coming in.
Si Wei quickly controlled his facial expression: "It's raining so hard, where have you been?"
Xu Heyan raised his face with a smile, and winked at her, for the deep meaning, Si Weiyi couldn't figure it out.
There was an extra bottle of bruising medicine on the quilt, which Xu Heyan put up, and she still maintained that mysterious smirk, at least in Siwei's eyes, and she didn't say a word otherwise.
Putting the medicine back on the bedside, Si Wei pulled up the quilt and shrank it in, continuing to analyze the bad thing.
The great philosopher Aristotle said that the ultimate value of life lies in the ability to awaken and think, not just to survive.
Now she is thinking and sublimating herself.
The rain came at a good time, and it lasted on and off for an afternoon, and it was time for dinner at the end.
Si Wei lifted the quilt with both hands and stared blankly at the ceiling, as if he had figured it out.
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The firefighters have developed a habit of eating one by one, leaving after sweeping, and a group of people go to the playground to cook and exercise.
When he came out of the cafeteria and saw this scene passing by, Si Wei felt even more uncomfortable.
Taking advantage of the fact that no one else was there, Xu Heyan grabbed Si Wei's arm and looked mysterious: "Weiwei, what is your relationship with Captain Song?"
Si Wei was stunned by the question, "He's an instructor, I'm a recruit, that's it." ”
"Then he also asked me to send you bruise medicine, theoretically he doesn't need to take care of this. ”
"He sent it?"
"That's right, he called me over after lunch, brought me the medicine with a black face, considered him humane, and finally gave me an umbrella. ”
Si Wei was confused, this made him more like a conscienceless person.
On the way back to the dormitory, Si Wei became more and more conflicted, and as soon as she stopped and walked back, Xu Heyan called her twice, but she was automatically blocked as if she hadn't heard it.
She was heading in the direction of the training ground, not sure if the person she wanted to see was here, but she still came with a glimmer of hope.
In the evening, there was a training session, and the training ground had been placed with various project equipment, and Si Wei found a back next to a pile of coiled hoses.
The man bypassed the obstacle, looked at the tools at his feet, and filled them out on the clipboard.
It was darker than usual on a rainy day, and the lights were lit up all around, and it was dim and yellow.
After summarizing Song Ju'an's body shape, hairstyle, and usual posture in her mind, Si Wei determined the goal, endured the awkwardness, walked up quickly, came all the way behind him, and stared at the back of the man's neck: "Captain Song, I apologize to you for today's incident." ”
The sudden sound made the man's right hand pause, and he turned to look at the little girl behind him with a slight stump.
Seeing him turn around, Si Wei didn't seem to be so nervous in her heart, she sighed silently, and her expression became more sincere: "It's me who is dizzy, I shouldn't speculate on you with malice, I will take back those words, but I don't dare to ask you for forgiveness, you don't..."
"Swei?"
It was nothing to be interrupted, but when he heard the other party's voice, Siwei's brain was as still as if it had been overpowered, and a strong panic surged in his heart.
She tried her best to adjust herself and put on a calm look: "I'm sorry Team Zheng, the light here is too dark, I recognized the wrong person, I'll go first." ”
After that, she didn't care about the reaction of others, and ran away from the training ground.
Zheng Zhi turned his head to look at the lamp, and there was a puddle of rain at his feet, where his face was reflected.
It's not blurry in the water......
At the end of the training in the evening, Zheng Zhi mentioned it to Song Ju'an.
If you want to talk about Si Wei's face amnesia, Song Ju'an knew it when he was in school, and the "little blind man" spread in the same grade at that time, even the top students who soaked in books every day had heard of it.
When he was about to arrive at the dormitory building, Song Juan was unbuttoning his coat and replied a little perfunctorily: "What's strange about recognizing the wrong person, maybe she is short-sighted." ”
"......" Zheng Zhi said that it still didn't make sense, and couldn't help but remind when he went up the stairs: "No matter what you do to others, it's during the filming period, don't be a moth." ”
The stairwell was pitch black, and Song Ju'an's expression was difficult to distinguish, and after a while, he said in a gloomy tone: "Then you should also pay attention to the influence, don't make eye contact with the little girl." ”
Zheng Zhishi, this is the first army that was countered?
He caught up and emphasized: "Now I'm talking about you, don't pull it on me, what eyebrows are coming, it's just out of nowhere!"
Song Ju'an went up to the last step, turned around and looked at Zheng Zhi in a condescending posture, his eyes were quite meaningful.
"Isn't it that Xu Heyan hit me, can it be compared to the wind and flow debt you owe?"
I didn't expect the honest and steady Zheng Zhi to talk back, Song Ju'an licked his back molars and left.
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After a day of physical and mental exhaustion, Siwei went to bed early.
After coming to the camp, her mobile phone was confiscated, resulting in no legal alarm clock, but fortunately, her biological clock was reliable.
Early in the morning, I went for a run just after dawn.
Here, she really didn't get up early, there were already more than a dozen people running on the playground, and from time to time firefighters overtook her, which was a little embarrassing in comparison.
Why is it bad, you have to come here to find abuse......
Si Wei silently looked ahead, the picture in front of him jumped up and down with the ups and downs of his body, and there were steady and rapid footsteps approaching behind him, most of which firefighters were no longer concerned.
As a result, Song Ju'an, who kept up, slowed down significantly when he was shoulder to shoulder with her.
The sun rises from the horizon, and the bright morning light falls on the man's neck, and the neckline of the dark blue half-sleeve is soaked with sweat.
The side of his face was slightly red, his dark eyebrows were facing the direction where the light came, and his eyes were firm.
Si Wei silently retracted his afterglow, raised all his strength to speed up, but the distance he had just staggered was pulled back by him in a blink of an eye.
"Want to reconcile?" he said quickly.
Hearing this, Si Wei raised his head with great effort while running, "Do you accept it?"
"Why do you apologize?" Song Ju'an continued to stare forward without squinting.
"You're a firefighter, you shouldn't have said that. "It's something she's been thinking about for a long time.
In the place where Si Wei couldn't notice, Song Ju'an frowned, "Don't you plan to settle the accounts?"
Swaye couldn't figure out what he meant at first, but then realized that he was still angry at those words.
She turned her head and muttered, "It's one thing to settle the accounts, it's another thing for you to admit the accounts......"
"What did you say?"
"Nothing...... But it's up to you to make the choice. ”
Song Ju'an couldn't help but glance at her, realizing that someone was using power, and then thought about it, how could a big man make himself so humble?
Thinking halfway, his arm was pressed, and Song Ju'an stopped.
Si Wei put down his hand and calmly explained: "Actually, I have never hated you, but feared, and the reason should be clear." ”
Song Ju'an's eyes were cold, and he couldn't refute it.
"Now that you're better, I haven't been able to defend myself since I said goodbye, but some things haven't changed. Speaking of this, Si Wei was unusually calm and unharmed: "It's just that I don't want to have physical contact with you." ”
"Then I can say......" There was a bitterness in his throat, and he couldn't say it after all.
The sun had completely risen, but Song Ju'an's heart sank deeply, as if he had fallen into a thick darkness, and he was extremely confused.
He wanted to defend himself, but what could he say, should he deny that unbearable self and tell her that it was not the real me?
Siwei saw his emotions, and simply put all his thoughts and thoughts: "Later, I thought about it for a long time, and found that these should not be reasons to vent disgust and anger on you, the past and the present, it should not only be people who have changed, but also all attitudes towards each other." ”
"If before today, I was just a change in your personality, then from this moment on, I want to try to understand this new you. ”
A few words from hell to heaven, it seems like nothing more than that.
Song Ju'an didn't know if he should do something for a while, except for laughing and jumping in his heart, any other excessive emotional reactions should not be shown.
He forced himself to calm down, and his eyes were serious: "Is that not angry or not?"
"Hmm. ”
"Then if you are trained in the future, you are not allowed to talk about it!"
“…… I won't be trained by you!"
It was a sunny day, and they ran shoulder to shoulder in the warm morning sun, the girl next to them drowning in the light, the golden sunlight delicately outlining the corners of her face.
As if he had seen enough, Song Ju looked away with satisfaction.
With his normal pace back to the final half lap, he overtook her and ran all the way in front of her.
He could feel a shallow gaze behind him.
With the light on his back, Song Ju'an moved forward steadily, and the smile in the corner of his eyes gradually deepened.
He could really let go of that past because she chose to forgive first......
Si Wei kept the speed of a snail and followed behind, pursing her lips and smiling silently.
As the sentence goes: The most regrettable thing in life is to easily give up what should not be given up, and stubbornly insist on what should not be insisted on.
And she doesn't want to have regrets.