Chapter 36: What does it feel like

At the end of September, the weather turned cooler, and the lonely late autumn quietly arrived.

Si Wei stepped out of the taxi, the cold wind poured in from the hem of her clothes wantonly, she wrapped the beige windbreaker on her body, and walked quickly to the hospital building.

A few steps from the door, the phone vibrated in his pocket.

Si Wei walked to the garden behind the building while connecting, and the editor on the phone checked the manuscript completed last night's overtime, determined a few places to be revised, and the call ended.

Putting the phone back in his pocket, Siwei went to the building, and stopped after a few steps.

She tilted her head, as if sensing something, and turned uncertainly.

Behind the jagged flowers, an old man with gray hair sat quietly.

Si Wei walked over to the other party step by step, standing in front of her.

After a while, the old man raised his head in a daze, and his pupils were not focused, looking at her blankly.

The old man in front of him, except that his face was thin and similar to Grandma Song, was completely different, and he was wrapped in a blanket and bloated.

In this situation, Si Wei felt very embarrassed, according to her consistent law of remembering and distinguishing according to the image characteristics of her facial features, her guess before coming was obviously wrong.

Also, how can a good person run outside to blow the wind.

Just thinking like this, the old man spoke: "Little girl, are you also here to wait for Ju'an?"

Siwei thought he had misheard, and looked at the person in dismay.

"Come, sit down and wait. The old man patted the edge of the flower bed.

Listen to the voice, and now there is no need to doubt it.

When Si Wei sat down, she observed the situation around her, no one was accompanied, most of them sneaked out, she sent a text message to Song Ju'an sideways, and then guarded here.

"You...... Do you still recognize me?" asked Swei tentatively.

The old man looked at her for a while, and then suddenly smiled: "Of course, I have seen you." ”

Swei wondered for a moment, and then thought about it.

Noticing the old man's bulging belly, she asked, "What do you put in your arms?"

The old man patted his stomach and smiled mysteriously: "This is for Ju'an, his leg was injured two months ago, and it will hurt when it's cold this day, and there is no condition at home, so I just want to wait for him to warm his leg after school." ”

"So...... What exactly?"

The old man opened his mouth to speak, when his gaze suddenly swept over Si Wei and cast it behind her.

Si Wei got up and looked at that gaze, Song Ju'an had already arrived.

He ran all the way, the corners of his black shirt were lifted by the wind, and his face was not much better when he stood still.

The old man stood up tremblingly, holding the thing stuffed in his arms with his hand: "Come and see Ju'an, grandma has prepared it for you..."

"It's cold outside, come in with me. In a low tone, there seemed to be restraint in something.

Song Ju'an grabbed the old man's arm as he spoke, and the old man was pulled by him, and the things on his body fell to the ground.

It's a warm water bag, there are five bags, and it should have been taken from the nurse's station as well.

The old man hurriedly leaned over to pick it up, and there were words on his lips.

Si Wei was stunned for a few seconds, and when he recovered, he went to look at Song Ju'an, only to see him standing motionless, staring at the ground with a tense expression.

——

The old man was sent back to the ward, drank a bowl of rice porridge and fell asleep again.

In the middle of the morning, Zheng Yan sent the two mahogany boxes, put them down and left.

Si Wei came back with a pot of hot water, but she didn't see Song Ju'an inside or outside, when the mobile phone rang, she took the safe passage to the stairwell, pushed open the door and went inside to talk.

is still a matter of work, Zhou Chen roughly explained the content of next week's work and reminded her to watch some relevant materials.

After hanging up the phone, Si Wei let out a long breath, and before this breath could dissipate in the air, she heard the breath of another person.

She turned and looked at the dark shadow under a few flights of stairs, the other party was facing her, and she couldn't see his face clearly.

"It's me. Knowing that she couldn't recognize her at a glance, Song Ju'an took the initiative to speak.

His voice was hoarse, because he had just smoked.

Swei walked down, stopping at the steps one step higher than him, still a little shorter.

"Smoke here?" she asked.

Song Ju'an pursed his lips and nodded, leaning against the wall next to him: "Did she tell you about the water bag?"

Refers to the time in the garden.

So, Swei relayed the conversation at that time.

After a long time, Song Ju'an only said, "It turned out that she put it." There was not the slightest ripple in his tone.

The pressure was very low, and it seemed like talking to himself, but Swei still understood a little.

"I have something to tell you. Si Wei thought for a moment and spoke: "On the day grandma was sent to the hospital, she bought a ticket to Shancheng at the train station, but doesn't she live in Sichuan County?"

She moved to Sichuan County later, and her wife was buried in the mountain city. ”

After speaking, Song Ju'an chuckled in his heart.

He looked sideways, and the two of them looked at each other in unison.

Forbidden speculation, no one dared to say.

In order to avoid this topic, Song Ju'an eased his expression and said, "Let's go out first." ”

Hearing this, Si Wei helped the stairs upstairs, and after walking a few steps, he heard him say, "You go first, and I'll follow in a while." ”

The voice was wrong, and even though he tried his best to hide it, he couldn't control the trembling of his voice.

Si Wei turned to look at him, and saw Song Ju'an hunched over his right leg trembling, and the whole person was like a longbow that was about to break.

She went down to support him: "Your leg seems to be hurting a lot in the past two days, go to the doctor." ”

"No, it hurts for a while every time, and it's good to get through these few days every year. ”

Song Ju'an gasped, his body unconsciously leaned towards her, and he could feel that Si Wei was bent by him.

His face began to heat up silently, and Si Wei hurriedly said, "I'll help you up."

As soon as she stepped on the first step, she felt that the weight on her body was a little heavier, obviously helping people, but her brain produced an unprecedented feeling of vertigo.

In the next moment, her feet were unbalanced and stepped into the air, and before she could exclaim, her waist was grabbed, silently but quickly tightened, and the two of them were closer to each other.

The height difference still exists, and Si Wei can feel that Song Ju'an hugged her tighter, as if he was afraid that the two of them would fall together, and it seemed like something else.

In short, the aura around her neck that seemed to be approaching almost made her unable to think and judge normally.

"What does it feel?"

Just when she was indulging in a state of confusion and love, Song Ju'an's ruffian question came from her ears.

Swi whispered.

The safe passage was empty and quiet, and even the sounds of breathing overlapped to tell who it was.

"Actually, there is a sentence that I have always wanted to ask you. Seeing that she couldn't answer, Song Ju'an straightened his face and changed the question.

Si Wei's mind is sensitive, and any subtle changes can be felt, and he naturally senses the question he is about to hear, which is different from a joke.

She settled down, and as soon as she moved, she was hugged more tightly by him.

"If it hadn't been for that, what would be the answer you gave me?"

He asked directly, and listening to the tone was a resolute meaning that was bound to be answered.

Heart, suddenly skipped a beat.

Siwei bit her lip, her eyes staring unfocused at the dark corner of the staircase.

When he spoke, he lacked confidence: "Song Ju'an, are you chasing me?"

If not, why bring up something that now seems irrelevant?

On the dimly lit staircase, they each leaned on each other's shoulders, unable to look directly but facing each other with the most sincere attitude.

Si Weimo counted for a few seconds, felt a light touch on the top of his head, and then a loud "yes" word passed into the eardrum.

The outside world was wrapped in autumn clothes soaked in maple leaves, but at this moment, she felt the warmth of the warm spring sun.

If she refused to be led by him ten years ago, then today, after the reunion, that girl has quietly been pulled into the arms of love by that man with the hottest gesture.

Song Ju'an was called for a physical examination by phone, but in the end, not only did he not get an answer, but he was also tricked.

Si Wei returned to the ward, and the old man happened to wake up, leaning on the bedside and sighing that autumn had arrived.

Siwei peeled an orange for her, and the old man ate a petal and said, "This orange is so sweet, people can't eat it when they are old, but they love it." ”

"These fruits were specially bought for you by Captain Song, and he is very worried about you, so you should get better quickly. "Swei learned to comfort people.

The old man was skinny, but he still smiled with difficulty.

"Every day when I close my eyes, I dream, at first when I was young, and then when Ju'an was in high school, there were so many things that happened in my family in those three years, if it weren't for those things, he wouldn't be a firefighter now. ”

Si Wei rubbed his cold fingers and muttered for a moment: "Can you tell me about the fire?"

——

The fire brigade physical examination began at one o'clock in the afternoon, and after the blood was drawn, an electrocardiogram was done.

Zheng Zhi held the ECG drawing between his fingers, walked out of the examination room while buttoning his clothes, and bumped into Xu Heyan who was delivering the report when he looked up.

I haven't seen each other in a week since the last time I made a fuss.

Xu Heyan glanced at his serious face, his gaze slid down embarrassedly, and as a result, he landed on the chest wrapped in the vest.

A few buttons on the blue uniform hadn't been buttoned yet, just in time for her to see.

Seeing her squinting appearance, Zheng Zhi uncomfortably sped up and buckled, put down his hands standardly, and didn't hurry to leave, the posture was as good as training people.

Xu He retracted his gaze in a daze, and smiled like a fox: "Is the captain still angry with me?"

Jung Sik didn't answer, and sat down on the chair next to him, completely ignoring her presence.

Nurses walked by in the hallway from time to time, and on the other side were firefighters queuing up to check, and they didn't have a good relationship right now to be conspicuous.

Xu Heyan put the document behind him, patted his waist at once, walked next to him as if unintentionally, and stood against the wall.

"I misunderstood you, I apologize. Her tone was sincere, her eyes rolling to observe the people on either side.

Zheng Zhi glanced at her, "I forgot about this for a long time." ”

"Really?" Xu He was overjoyed, he didn't control it for a while, realized that someone was there, and pretended to be the same: "Then I want to chase you like before, you won't mind, right?"

"If you say no, I said it in the camp as early as I did. ”

Xu Heyan exploded on the spot, and stood in front of him in two steps, "I don't mind you being a firefighter, so you don't have to worry about being abandoned twice." ”

She raised her voice, and her words were amused.

Zheng Zhi leaned forward and met her unusually bright eyes, "I have no plans to get married." ”

Xu Heyan said: "It doesn't matter, this doesn't affect our relationship. ”

"......" Zheng Zhi frowned helplessly, and was thinking about what words to refuse her, Xu Heyan suddenly leaned over, completely ignoring that there were still people present, and directly touched his heart with his hand.

Zheng Zhi subconsciously avoided it, but she pushed it on the back of the chair with one hand.

Chair knock!

The anesthesiologist's hands were slender and soft, and they seemed to scratch him through the fabric.

With his fingertips sliding slightly, Xu Heyan stared at Zheng Zhi's increasingly deep eyes, and his eyes were charming: "The heart rate test result is 80 beats per minute, but I don't sound like it?"

As he spoke, five fingers scratched at his chest again.

In an instant, Qi and blood surged, and Zheng Zhi's eyes widened rarely.

Xu Heyan gave him a more flattering smile: "100...... 110…… 120. So excited, the captain said he didn't feel anything for me?"

At this time, a group of people in the distance looked stupid.

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In the ward, Swei was still listening to the old man talk about the past.

"Since the start of the new semester, Ju An has changed, every time he comes back, he can fight with his father, but he is a child, and his heart is not ruthless enough, and after a long time, he has been beaten without a good piece of land. The old man was teary-eyed.

Si Wei lowered his head and listened quietly, and the images reflected in his eyes were distorted into various shapes and melted into tears.

"I feel sorry for my children, but it's not a home anymore. The old man cried, as if to say to himself: "I must always do something, so I took advantage of the fact that night when there was no one in the compound, I set a fire at home, originally I just wanted to finish myself, and by the way, I also took away the unfinished thing, but then I ...... The fire burned so big... What a big ......."

The August 23 fire was not an accident, and it took a few seconds for Siwei to accept the unexpected truth.

The warm sun outside the window dissipated, and it was getting colder and colder.

In the corridor, the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on the door of the ward, pulling a long figure on the ground.