A person whose heart has been twisted and perverted must have a different concept of thinking than a normal person.

Although such people may usually look like the general public, when their inner thoughts burst out, they often seem to be crazy.

Chen Ang was in such a state at this time, crying and laughing, laughing and crying, if it weren't for his clear-thinking narrative, he wouldn't have to do a psychiatric evaluation in the future.

According to Chen Ang, he was born in a happy and prosperous family, with a beautiful and kind mother and an upright and motivated father.

"My mother's cooking is the best I've ever tasted, and whenever I come home from school at noon, my mother looks at me with such gentleness in her eyes, serving a plate of shredded potatoes and fried pork......"

Chen Ang's eyes gradually blurred, and when it came to his mother, the corners of his mouth were full of sweetness: "My mother likes to put soy sauce in fried shredded potatoes, and the shredded potatoes with soy sauce will be a little dark, but it will be very fragrant and fragrant, it is my favorite dish, it looks very ordinary, but when I eat it, it is the taste of home and the taste of my mother......"

Listening to Chen Ang's description, Xiao Ran pursed his lips, the bridge of his nose was a little sour, he still remembered that when he came home from school, he threw down his schoolbag and was about to go to the table because he was too hungry, but he was disgusted by his mother and dragged to wash his hands.

Although the mother in his memory has been counting him, his words are full of love, as for the meal, Xiao Ran only knows that it is very fragrant, but the taste has gradually faded with time.

Gritting his teeth, trying to bring his thinking back to reality, at this time Chen Ang was crying, "My mother left when I was in the third year of junior high school, it was the second semester of my junior high school, and I was about to take the entrance exam."

Soon after the Chinese New Year, my mother was diagnosed with advanced liver cancer in the hospital, but they all hid it from me and told me that she was just suffering from stomach problems, and that it would be fine to have an operation in the hospital and recuperate for a while......"

"Why am I so stupid, yes, I was stupid at reading during that time, I only cared about revision, in order to be admitted to the best high school in the city, why didn't I see my mother end up sick like that!"

Chen Ang sobbed, clutching his handcuffs and slamming the iron plate under his hands, as if he was talking, and as if he was talking to himself, "Yes, every time I go to the hospital, my mother cheers up, I naively thought that my mother was about to get better, but I didn't notice that my aunts abroad all returned to China to see my mother for the last time."

Why was I so stupid at the time, why didn't I spend more time with my mother, why did death come so quickly and took my mother away in less than four months, why did they hide it from me, why was God so unfair, why did a kind person like my mother live so shortly......"

Everyone inside and outside the interrogation room was silent, although Chen Ang was carrying three lives on his back, but he was not right about people, Chen Ang regretted it, and many people also felt the same way, after all, people are emotional animals, and the beauty of the past is always nostalgic.

"After my mom left, my dad rarely smiled, became more and more silent, his back became more and more curved, and his hair that he used to comb meticulously was gradually greasy and thin, and when I was admitted to college, my dad sent me to school, and at that time I noticed that a man in his forties had half a white hair, but his hair was too short and difficult to find. ”

Chen Ang stared at the crack in the floor in a daze, and said to himself, he just wanted to confide, "I rarely communicate with my dad, we are both people who are not good at expressing our hearts, I did wrong things when I was young, and the way he taught me was to beat me up, but I knew that he loved me, and after my mother left, I was his only hope to live."

At first I thought he was trying to forget his troubles by working, but then I realized that his heart had collapsed after my mother left, and it may be that he also felt that his time was running out, and he wanted to do his best for my future life......"

Chen Ang bit his lip, his fists trembled slightly because he was clenching too hard, "After I graduated from college, my father's body also collapsed, maybe he felt that his mission had been completed, and watching me go to work, he finally didn't have to worry about it anymore."

I was working hard that year, but I didn't know that my dad was coming to an end.

I can imagine every time he couldn't sleep at night when he was in pain, he didn't want to be distracted, he didn't want to go to the hospital, he didn't have the motivation to live. ”

"He just held on like that, and every time I called him, he said everything was fine, until he couldn't hold it anymore, vomited blood and fell into a coma, and then gradually lost his breath, and I went from the company to the hospital, sat in front of his bed, and didn't even say the last word...... The people are gone. ”

Chen Ang trembled his lips, sniffed, and wanted to cry but found that there were no tears: "I am an ominous person, the blind man who told me my fortune at the beginning said that I was a lone star, and the person who was good with me was destined to have no good end.

Now that people are not talking nonsense, my family owes him an apology.

...... My best friend in high school had a breakdown and jumped off the building, he was sitting in front of me, he was in a self-study class, we were both doing the test papers, he suddenly dropped his pen, I looked up and wanted to ask him what was going on, before he could say anything, he pulled the window and jumped down, his feet were up and down, and his usual grinning face was like a deflated inflatable doll......"

"My college buddies like to ride motorcycles in the middle of the night, and they rushed out of the mountain road, and everyone broke off, and their butts were against the back of their heads, and they were soft like a soaked rag doll......"

Chen Ang said mechanically, and suddenly raised his head, "Don't you want to ask me why I'm interested in human faces, at first I was just sad, until my girlfriend was gone, this impulse came out of my heart, the bigger it grew, the more irrepressible it became......

Chen Ang tried to raise the corners of his mouth, and his smile was so stiff, according to him, his girlfriend was the only person he could warm his heart after the family accident.

"We are classmates after the high school Chinese class, I still remember the appearance of her sitting next to me with a book from other classes, Wenwen quietly, she was a little unnatural when she first arrived, she just waved her hand when she greeted me, and nodded her head with a smile......"

"I'm a very nostalgic person, and I have to get used to every change around me for a long time, and I sat at the same table with her for a week before I said a few complete words. ”

When it comes to his ex-girlfriend, Chen Ang's smile is unprecedentedly sweet and happy, he talks about every bit of his ex-girlfriend, funny things, contradictory things, and those stupid things that make the two cry and laugh, "It seems that we have a heart, and the two of us have always been very compatible." ”

In high school, they were fighting for their ideal university, and any heretical ideas had to be suppressed, although the two felt good, but they were just good friends, until the two entered the same university, and they naturally came together.

Chen Ang said that he and his girlfriend are very emotional people, and sometimes his ex-girlfriend will take him to sit under the soapberry tree for a long time, telling him what he played under this tree in his childhood, "I later learned that the sister who loved her the most was the ...... who hanged herself on that tree"

In those years, although Chen Ang experienced various unfortunate things such as the loss of friends and the loss of his father, after the pain, at least there was a love that warmed his heart, but it was a pity that God made people, not long after Chen Ang's father died, his girlfriend suffered an accident.

"Car accident. ”

Chen Ang did not elaborate on what the situation was at that time, and what kind of mood he was in at that time.

However, only from the two words that can still make Chen Ang's heart ache after a few years, it is not difficult to get a glimpse of how desperate and helpless he was at that time.

"God just likes to play tricks on people like this, saying that the sky will descend on the people, and I am not afraid of suffering, but such the most familiar faces have disappeared from my life one by one, I can't stand it!"

Chen Ang muttered to himself, as if his soul had been drained: "Looking at her pale face in the funeral parlor, I wanted to take it down for the first time and be with me forever, but it was finally burned to ashes, and there was only a photo on the tombstone, silently telling the world the beautiful face of its owner back then......"

After such an idea appeared, it was as if a seed was planted in Chen Ang's heart, "I want to leave every beautiful face that will appear in my life from now on, and never let them leave me again!"

Outside the window, the fish belly was white.

After listening to Chen Ang's self-description, Wang Junming shook his head and sighed: "A person who lives in memories." It was sad before, hateful now!"