There is such a kind of person who is awake and asleep as if the day came to them when the light came no more.

Especially, for a person who has lost even his memory, to be alive, not knowing what the point is.

In the silence and darkness of the world, I clung to my heart, and no one could walk in.

The window is open, there should be a lake outside the window, planted with light purple water lotus, I smell the smell of flowers in the wind, as light as someone's breath.

"Xiyang-" A low and helpless sigh sounded in my ears, and the next second my body tightened, and I was included in a warm embrace, I subconsciously pushed away but was hugged tighter, and the man's tone was full of pain and helplessness, and he said in my ear over and over again:

"Xiyang, don't ...... like this" didn't say a word for a day and a night, even a word.

I bit my lip, and suddenly there was a pain in my chin, and he forced me to tear open my lower lip, which was almost bleeding, and then the strange breath suddenly approached, and the stiff stubble pierced me back, and the back of my head was suddenly pressed against his five fingers, and a not very gentle kiss washed away the slight blood stains that flowed from the chapped lips, and I beat him indiscriminately, but the tears flowed down like crazy, and the slight whimper finally slipped out of my throat uncontrollably.

He grabbed my arm and embraced me, gently caressing my back, and my shoulders trembled and I fell into his arms and cried.

"Xiyang, you remember, I am your husband, the only person you can rely on, I, Helian Yue, swear that I will never abandon you in my lifetime. ”

Helian Yue, the king of Xirong, the lord of Yuanwu.

I had no relatives, not even my only mother, they said, who had fallen off a cliff in the wake of that sudden assassination.

They told me that my name was Xiyang.

I am very unfamiliar with this name, and I have no affection, including my husband, Helian Yue.

One day, I heard the palace maids whispering, saying that Xiyang Palace was originally cold, but it was because the lord of the country led all the palace concubines to Liangshan to worship the sky when there was an accident, and the thief mistakenly hit the deputy car Mrs. Xiyang almost died before she got the mercy of the lord of the country, and a few little eunuchs also secretly gambled, betting on when Mrs. Xiyang would fall out of favor.

For an unfavored palace concubine who had been asleep in a hospital bed for three months, the immensity of the holy favor came a little unusually. Helian Yue rewarded brocade, gorgeous clothes, gold and jade, antiques and exquisite wine from time to time, so I soon became the favorite concubine in the mouths of everyone, and I was very popular.

However, the gate of Xiyang Palace never allowed other concubines to enter, and Helian Yue also exempted me from greeting other concubines and even the queen. Indeed, he has treated me very well.

One day, I don't know which slave who didn't have long eyes, actually presented a world-famous painter painting Luo Zi's beautiful Ling Botu, and when it was sent to me, I indifferently said to the maid Jinping on the side:

"Isn't it pretty? ”

I don't know what Jinping's expression is, but I heard her say with a little hesitation: "Madam, Cuiwei Palace is too deceitful, and Mrs. Yinyan doesn't know how to be proud of hanging this painting......

"It's good-looking. I waved my hand and signaled for her to stop here.

Proud? Mrs. Ginaya, whom she had never met, was said to be eighteen years old and glamorous, but now it seems that this is just the case. Sure enough, two days later, Helian Yue was furious when he found the painting, and although I couldn't see it when she knelt on the silver screen, I could still feel her trembling and fear. At that time, I only said indifferently:

"It's me who is blind, I don't mind, who can let me mind? ”

The sounds around fell silent all of a sudden, and it was early summer, and there was not even a trace of wind.

"You've changed a lot. His hand touched my face, and I knew that he must have looked into my empty eyes, for there was an unbearable pain in the voice, and I frowned slightly, not wanting to discern the true emotion in his words, and turned my face away from his touch unnaturally, and said:

"Isn't it cruel to say that she has changed to a person who has no past?"

His hand stiffened, and after a long time he got up and left, and the beautiful Limbo figure was unsurprisingly shattered. At dinner time, I heard that the little eunuch who had sent the painting had been scolded with a cane, and after the beating, his flesh and blood were blurred, and the lady of Yinya was driven to the Huanyi Bureau to be a washing maid.

Xiyang Palace is still very quiet. Although it can be expected that the outside has been turned upside down, for the sake of a painting, the balance of the harem has been completely broken.

Helian Yue still came, and like many nights, he held me in his arms and let me lean into his arms, and listened to him read to me the customs of various places. Seeing that I pursed my lips, he tried to tell me another joke about parrots, and I was indifferent, and he sighed in my ear in a low voice:

"Isn't it funny? You used to like to tell this joke to amuse me, and I haven't laughed yet, but you yourself laughed all over again, as if it wasn't to entertain others, but to entertain yourself. ”

"The ...... of the Lord"

"Call me Yue. ”

I was silent for a moment, then called softly: "Yue." ”

It seemed like something had brushed the corners of my lips, and it took a long time for me to react, it was like a kiss.

"You used to smile so brightly, as if the whole world brightened up in an instant, but unfortunately, I didn't have a chance to tell you at that time. ”

"I don't remember......," I said coldly.

"That doesn't matter. I just remember, you don't have to think about anything. Still angry about today's events?"

It really doesn't matter? A person can think of nothing unless he's dead.

"Can you spare Lady Yinya, and that little eunuch?" I said, the smell of water and incense in the bedroom came in one vein, making people drowsy.

"To be lenient with those who hurt you is to be cruel to yourself. Xiyang, I can only promise you not to hurt the lives of those people. When he saw me frowning and stroking his forehead with his right hand, he couldn't help but worry:

"What's the matter? your head hurts again?" he immediately called his close attendant Luo Cheng in, "Let the Imperial Doctor ......"

I stopped him, "No, I'm just sleepy." ”

A dreamless night.

The summer rain is very abundant, here just swept the wind across the thousands of troops to come to a trip, after a long rest, they couldn't wait to blow the window lattice, Jinping and Lan Lu hurriedly closed the Zhu window, the sound of wind and rain was stopped outside the window, even so, the hot and humid feeling in summer is still everywhere.

It's been a month since the last Limbotu incident, but it's calm, and no one else is coming to disturb you. Helian Yue still comes from time to time, but no one knows when he left, me and him, on the surface, are like glue, but in fact it is not the same thing.

After the rain stopped, I told Jinping that I wanted to go outside.

Jinping led me, and while walking, he told me what kinds of flowers were planted outside the verandah, and how the water lotus flowers in the lake bloomed, I smiled and listened to her soft voice to talk carefully, and suddenly accidentally stepped into a small puddle of water, and my shoes were wet, and I thought it should be covered with mud. Jinping snorted softly, and was about to lead me back, I shook my head and said:

"You go back and get your shoes, and I'll just sit by the lake." ”

Jinping then walked back, and I sat on a Taihu stone by the lake, quietly waiting for her to come back. But in the blink of an eye, the rain actually fell again, and I subconsciously stood up, and heard the slight footsteps behind me but no raindrops hitting the umbrella, and I couldn't help but be surprised:

"Jinping, why are you so fast?" As soon as the words fell, I didn't have time to wait for an answer, the smile on my lips gradually condensed, yes, no matter how fast Jinping is, it is impossible to run back and forth in a short period of time......