The body seems to have turned into air, and it seems to have turned into water, and it is amazingly light, soft and free.

"Are you awake?" a deep and solemn voice came from a distance, I followed the direction to open my eyes, but I could only see a dazzling light, I did not dare to continue, I could only twist my head to the other side, and asked in a hurry:

"Who are you?"

"You don't need to know who I am, you just need to know...... You're dead. ”

"I ...... Dead?"

Listening to him say this, I remembered something, the little girl running, the speeding train, the bright pennant, the cry of the family, the interview and reporting of reporters, and finally, the endless darkness......

It seemed as if I was indeed dead, and I continued to ask:

"Is this Hades, then?"

"In a sense, it's really similar. ”

"I heard that people have to drink Meng Po soup after they die, and when they cross the Nai He Bridge, am I about to do these things?"

"The situation you said is similar to the reality, only a small number of programs and names are different, most people go to another reincarnation like this, but ......"

"But what?"

"You're an exception. ”

"Why?"

"You died of dedication, you sacrificed yourself in exchange for the survival of others, this act is not commendable, but you are lucky that someone is willing to give you a chance to do one, oh no, give you a chance to choose your life again, everything, we will satisfy you. ”

"What do you mean?"

"It means that you can choose any time, any place, you can have all the memories of the present, you can have any body you want to have, you can choose the name, age, origin, anything you want to change, but there is only one chance. ”

"Wait for me to think about it. ”

"Think slowly, romantic boy. ”

I had the opportunity to choose my life again, but when this moment really came, I hesitated, every scene in my life for more than 20 years was beating before my eyes like a marquee, what was the thing that I regretted the most, what made me the most unforgettable? I fell into a deep confusion for a while, and finally, a beam of light entered my heart, and I found the answer, as if telepathically, and the voice asked me again:

"Have you chosen?"

"Yes, I'm going to call my original name, I'm going back to the Dream of Red Mansions crew in 1984, I'm going to be a part of it, any position is fine, my body and age are just like the day I died, I don't need relatives, because I don't want them to be sad for me anymore, well, that's it, oh no, wait, please give me another guitar, now it's okay, that's it, trouble you." ”

"Do you want to see her?" he could indeed see through my thoughts.

"That's right, I don't just want to see her, I want to love her, I want to have her!"

Before I could finish speaking, a rough beast-like deafening laugh came, as if it was about to tear my eardrums.

"Hahaha! Arrogant and infatuated boy, enjoy your last life, I will satisfy you with everything! And, remember my words, your beginning is predestined from the moment it ends. ”

I still want to say something, but I can't open my mouth, because I feel that my body is constantly being torn apart, turning into an independent and primitive cell structure, they pass through a grid and wormholes, constantly dividing and reorganizing, flying in this infinitely extended pipe, the process is extremely long, but it does not make me painful, I seem to travel through the long river of time, the image of history is passing on the wall of time, I see the Raptors winning the championship, Hawking died, Brexit, Trump took office, Taiwan earthquake, After winning the Nobel Prize, classic historical moments alternated before my eyes, and a long, long time later, when the Soviet flag slowly fell, I realized that the journey was coming to an end.

As I had imagined, it didn't take long for the flow of time to stop, everything around me was shrouded in darkness, silence, deathly silence, I wanted to wake up, but my body was unconscious, I could feel the existence of the world but not my own existence, I was like a doll thrown on the side of the road, unable to do anything.

I waited for a long, long time, I felt like a monkey who was pressed on Wuzhi Mountain waiting for Tang Seng to come to rescue, I waited, waited, waited, waited, and finally, a sweet and familiar female voice came into my ears:

"Who is this? Why are you sleeping by the pool?"

"I seem to have met this person once, it's Hong Liang's roommate, the gaffer in our group. "The other voice is more mature and more powerful.

"It's not good to sleep here, it's not good to fall into the water for a while, I'm afraid it's not too much to drink, let's help him up." ”

This voice is so kind, because I have heard it more than a thousand times, I know very well, this is the person I have been chasing, I used all my strength to open my eyes, to pursue the owner of the voice, as if to unseal it, my body was suddenly full of power, I quickly opened my eyes, looking for thousands of times in my mind, haunting the shadow, when I looked at it, a thousand words nowhere to express.

"Xiaoxu, Chen Xiaoxu, Chen Xiaoxu......" I repeated her name over and over again, and the beautiful girl in front of me seemed to be frightened by me, and hurriedly took a small step back, her eyes were full of doubts, but she still had the courage to ask me:

"I'm Chen Xiaoxu, what are you going to do?"

Hearing this, my tears are like beads with broken threads, the pain and thoughts accumulated over the years are completely released at this moment, I can't cry but the tears don't stop, this scene must look very scary, Xiaoxu and Deng Jie next to me saw me like this and took a step back, at that time I was completely dominated by emotions, I cried, while hugging Xiaoxu into my arms, hugging her tightly, her hot body seemed to be one with me, I could feel the trembling from her fingertips, I could also smell her fresh fragrance, I stroked her hair, whispered softly in her ear:

"I've finally met you, Xiaoxu. ”

Before I could enjoy the next second of warmth, I felt a gust of wind blow in my ears, and a thunderous slap made me dizzy.

"Stinky hooligan, let go of Xiaoxu!" Deng Jie's voice is the same as Wang Xifeng in the film, which is worthy of being a drama bone.

After she finished scolding, she forcefully separated me and Xiaoxu, and pushed me into the pool behind me with her backhand, at the moment when I was about to fall into the water, I vaguely saw the scene of Xiaoxu covering her face and crying, and I fell into deep self-blame when I calmed down, I felt that I had hurt her, hurt this fragile and slender girl, I muttered to myself:

"Xiaoxu, I'm sorry..."

I closed my eyes and let my body lie in the cold water, my ears filled with water, I couldn't hear the sound beyond the water, my eyes were once again shrouded in darkness, and in my hazy eyes, the world was beckoning to me...