[It's not a eunuch's testimonial, don't worry. It's just another day today because I didn't write anything. 】

The book was written on September 10 last year, and the upload began on September 26. At that time, I didn't have much confidence, I just wanted to sign a contract, because signing at the beginning has always been a dream of mine.

I wrote several books at first, except for a scribbled female romance that got a signing notice from Yunqi Academy, none of the other books sank into the sea.

One of the fantasy books that I love very much has been written by myself for 250,000 words, and no one has read it, and the starting point is not signed.

Later, he was dragged away by the network editor, went to the outstation and worked for half a year, writing a fantasy and a local farming text.

The grades were not satisfactory, but I made great progress in myself, and then I took a break for five months, and went to the hotel for two months to work as a summer job to experience the hardships of life.

In the past two months, I have been watching and working part-time, and I have really experienced the warmth and coldness of the world, and I have also suffered some social beatings.

It wasn't until I went back to school in September that I started to think about a new book, which is a pet essay that I have never written but love.

Some people say that this book is a pet king, there is a suspicion of plagiarism, I can't say anything about this, and the people who see it should have a balance in their hearts.

The most watched in the summer vacation is the pet king, and it does borrow some elements, writing such a thing, borrowing some elements of the fire book itself is understandable.

Copying should indeed be scolded by the whole family.

Since the book was uploaded, what I didn't expect was that the signing news came the next day.

This is something I didn't expect at all, something I didn't expect at all.

I actually had the starting point to be responsible for editing QQ, but I didn't invest internally, because my fantasy of more than 300,000 yuan was not signed, and I wanted to try how long it would take for me to come back after two years to sign a contract.

It turns out that I have really improved in the past two years.

Then this book brought me a surprise that I had never had before, the first collection broke 5,000, 10,000, 30,000, and now 50,000.

Killed from hundreds of books, all the way to Sanjiang, on the strong push, almost new people can recommend my book on the book.

But to be honest, my book is quite collapsing, and it has always been on the verge of collapsing.

There were several fatal poisonous points in the middle, the rhythm was not good, the foreshadowing was not perfect, the ** could not be high, and there were many problems.

If I had improved my pen a little more, I would have at least picked up a boutique badge for this book, and my income would have doubled.

But the hate thing is that my pen is not strong enough, and I can't reach the kind of strategy of the old author.

I know a lot of questions, and I've summarized a lot of questions, and there are already fifty or sixty of them.

The outline adds up to almost 50,000 words, but it is true that the pen is not enough, the writing is too bad, and the various branches are not well written.

The only thing I can be proud of is that I'm writing seriously, almost 98% of the pets in the book are my own originals, the skills are all my own ideas, even the names are all my own ideas, and I have hardly used any naming system.

I'm also writing seriously, writing hard, and thinking about writing a good article.

But as the number of words increases, especially after a million words, the writing becomes worse and worse.

It's not that I don't know how to write it, the outline behind it is there, the finale has been arranged, and the specific outline is also being filled.

But there is a feeling that I can't write anymore, and the subscriptions are plummeting.

I know that there may be reasons why I can't update well, and there are reasons why I can't grasp the rhythm.

I promised to say that there will be three more every day after it is put on the shelves, and finally I broke my promise, I'm sorry, I said that I added more, and I also broke my promise, I'm very sorry.

I have the heart but I can't do it, it's not a matter of hand speed, but I feel that what I write really has no rhythm and nothing **. A series of problems piled up, and I couldn't get up soon before I knew it, I'm really sorry.

But I really can't help it, I should study hard in this area. The current level is really far from enough.

Today I actually got up at 8 o'clock in the morning, sat in front of the computer for more than half a day, wrote and deleted, deleted.

In the end, I gave up and went to watch anime for a while.

I actually know how to write, but what I hate is that I can't write that sense of rhythm, I can't write that kind of **.

It seems that now I am completely led away by the plot, and I have no control.

This made me deeply realize that I was still an ignorant junior on the road of writing, and occasionally achieved a little success because of the subject matter, but in the end I didn't seize the opportunity because of my own lack of strength.

It's not that I want to be a eunuch, at most, it's just another day today, and by the way, I will report my recent state of mind.

Just like the dog days that were coming, my heart calmed down with satisfaction.

Next, maybe pick up the pace and try something that might or may not succeed until the book is finished.

That's all, good night, good dreams, my favorite readers.

I'm Utti, see you tomorrow.