Here, there is a prevalence of partnerships, almost always in pairs, sitting together. Although they get along day and night, they still exchange letters. Before the lights go out at night, what they write on their pillows, except for the letter from home, is this kind of heartfelt note. It is to take care of life, but also to relieve loneliness. Ah San was disgusted by this, because of her arrogance, and because of her special status as the captain of the production team, no one had expressed this wish to her, and now, Yang Chunmian had found her, she almost regretted the counterattack that day, and this result was unexpected. In comparison, she seemed to be more willing to be bullied, so she avoided Yang Chun Mian more than before, lest she attract her courtesy.

But Yang Chunmian is very persistent. She has some reasons to admit death, and once she decides to be good with Ah San, she will never change. It really fulfilled the oath she made on the note: I will be faithful to you. Ah San's hot water bottle has been contracted by her, and Ah San's clothes are either washed by her, or rushed to collect, folded, and neatly put back on Ah San's bed. At night, when she makes instant noodles, she must also make a bag for Ah San. Standing in line, she turned around from time to time after a few people and smiled meaningfully at Ah San.

At first, Ah San took an attitude of turning a blind eye and ignoring her, but in the end, he couldn't stand such perseverance and treat her well, so he said to Yang Chunmian that as long as he didn't come to make trouble, there was no need to be treated so kindly, which made people deserve it. Unexpectedly, she said with a straight face: Sister, you must still be angry with me for the past, I have actually confessed my mistake to you, why do you still refuse to forgive me. Ah San said: I didn't forgive you, and the matter between you and me was settled. She said: When you say this, you just don't forgive me, and your eyes will be red and you will cry. Ah San was annoyed, and hurriedly said: Okay, okay, even if I haven't said these words. So, everything was as before, Yang Chunmian continued to treat her well, and she continued to ignore it.

Life here, as long as you don't think about it, is still easy to get used to. Due to the regularity and restraint of daily life, Ah San has a better complexion, the dark circles under her eyes have disappeared for a long time, and her body is stronger than before. She thought, "What's wrong with that?" That's good. In the four white walls surrounded by green mountains, people can hardly talk about any desires, and they are relaxed. Ah San is not like those girls, who will fight over trivial things. They openly and secretly compare who is better than whom, who is wider than whom, who has more boyfriends, and then use some excuses to seize the upper hand. Ah San laughed at them, they were boring and stupid, they couldn't see the reason, and they didn't die when they fell to such a point. Don't you know that she is actually more dangerous than them, because she is not like them, who releases her desires little by little. She suppressed and accumulated her desires, and maybe one day they would explode and cause trouble.

When the work was not so busy, he left work at seven o'clock, and after grooming, there was still a quarter of an hour and twenty minutes before the lights went out, Ah San moved a small stool and sat in front of the door, looking at the blue night sky, and his heart was peaceful. Well, now we can think about something else, but what do I think? She didn't know, so she didn't think about anything, just looked at the sky. It's a sky that you don't have in the city. There is no cover and no pollution, and the whole heyday is empty. It's called the sky! It reminds people of the idea of infinity. This kind of looking up time does not need to be long, it is just a short time before the lights go out, so that people can precipitate the distractions in their hearts, but they will not feel empty and boring, it is enough. The people were tired, yawned one after another, got up and went back to the house, went to bed, and fell asleep in a blink of an eye.

Time has passed, the Spring Festival is approaching, because of Ah San's excellent work, the brigade approved her to accept family visits during the Spring Festival. The approval slip was sent to Ah San, but she didn't send it but quietly tore it, and no one paid attention to it. Until the Spring Festival came, no one visited Ah San, which is not surprising. Many of the girls' families were furious and vowed never to see each other. It is not uncommon for the receiving slips sent out to receive no reply. Yang Chunmian came to meddle in his affairs. On the first day of the Lunar New Year, everyone was sitting in the auditorium waiting for the movie theater to come and show a movie, Yang Chunmian squeezed around her, leaned into her ear and said: Sister, why don't you let the family come to meet her? Ah San tilted her head to avoid the heat in her mouth. This woman always made her feel dirty, and she couldn't suppress her disgust. Don't meddle in your business, okay? Your family refuses to recognize you? Yang Chunmian still leaned eagerly and sympathetically at the root of her ear, not caring about Ah San's face. Ah San decided to ignore her, so he didn't answer, and Yang Chunmian didn't ask. Ah San thought it was over, but after a while, she spit out two words with infinite emotion: evil!

In the next few days, Yang Chunmian was infinitely considerate to Ah San, almost gentle. She cooked for Ah San, and as soon as Ah San finished eating, the tea over there had already been brewed. Ah San wanted to sleep, and the quilt was laid. Ah San burrowed into the bed and closed his eyes, avoiding looking at her sad face full of sympathy. I felt that she was arranging the clothes she had taken off one by one and placing them on the chair. also lightly tucked the corners of the quilt for her. That night, because of the holiday, everyone went to the squadron leader's office to watch TV, and there were only two of them, one lying and the other sitting. Ah San lay down in the quilt with bated breath, not a little sleepy. She was angry and worried, and didn't know how to end this ridiculous "unrequited love".

After the Spring Festival, even in such a monotonous and empty environment, you can still feel the spring. In the distance, the shadow of the mountain changed from a dark color to a verdant green, as if it were closer, and it was almost possible to distinguish the different colors of the trees that caused the dark shadows. The surrounding tea groves are beginning to grow leaves, and there are bright green stars. Inside the wind, there is a green life with grass blades in it. The sun has also become magnificent, especially in the evening, when the sky is filled with colorful clouds, and there are seven or eight colors alternating between them. All of this, taken together, formed a lively atmosphere, and people's hearts became active.

Because of this activity, there are many things.

At first, it was the two girls who quarreled because they had misused the tea pot. This kind of thing used to happen twice for three days, but this time, somehow, one of them suddenly caught fire, threw a pot of vegetable soup in his hand to the other, and then scuffled. When the captain heard the sound, he couldn't drink, so he could only ask people to pull them apart. The people pulled away, but the scolding continued, exposing each other's bottoms, all of which were good friends in the past, and now they are all used as weapons for attack. In the end, it ended with the confinement of both parties. I thought it was in the past, but it was actually the beginning. Two days later, one of them even tried to injure himself, slicing the glass of a broken teacup on his arm to bleed. This time, even the handcuffs were used. This violent incident, like a contagion, spread rapidly through the squadrons, and became more and more intense, and everyone had to go crazy, and everyone had to have such a seizure. It's been a mess for a while, and chickens and dogs are jumping all day long. Sometimes it only takes a few minutes to return to the dormitory from the workshop, and then I hear a commotion over there. An earth-shattering pass, and then it was extraordinarily calm, and the one who cried and quarreled became a good child, sobbing and going to bed, and he could be peaceful for a while. The problem is that the east is not bright and the west is bright, it is too peaceful here, and it is time to appear there. When will it be finished?

In the early days of spring, people are in a state of loss of control, and everyone is ready to fly. At the same time, everyone is in danger for fear of being attacked. Those captains were more nervous than them, and they didn't dare to relax from time to time, and tried their best to appease them: show movies, improve food, talk individually, and increase receptions. But these are like adding fuel to the fire, which makes people more indulgent. It's a terrible and dangerous time, and every day you don't know what's going to happen. The people who usually get along well with each other suddenly become strangers, they don't know each other, everyone is awkward, and no one can touch anyone. The captain convened a meeting of those so-called "self-controlled" labor camps, and Ah San was one of them, mobilizing them to maintain normal order and have a stable influence in their respective dormitories. However, things continued to happen one after another, with more and more drastic consequences. Finally one took the most tragic act, and succeeded. That is to swallow a pair of scissors into the stomach. The ambulance took her to the hospital overnight, and the sound of the car's engine lingered in the dark night for a long time, highlighting the silence and emptiness of the hilly night.

On this night, the hearts of the people were throbbing, suppressed by great fear, and everyone held their breath. I have heard a lot of legends about this kind of event, but this is the first time I have seen it with my own eyes. People thought that the girl was going to die immediately. Her clothes, quilts, and chopsticks, quietly placed in their original places, had been dyed with the smell of death, and looked gloomy and sentimental. People slept in their beds, but they didn't close their eyes. The moon rose in the second half of the night, and it was exceptionally bright, and the courtyard was white. Ah San got up to go to the toilet and stopped in the yard for a while, she breathed in the fresh air with moisture, and her heart was refreshed. At this time, she faintly experienced the quiet state of mind after a violent past. She even thought that such a peaceful night had been bought for the girl's life.

However, when the morning came, there was news that the girl had undergone laparotomy at the main hospital that night, and her life was no longer in danger, and she could be discharged from the hospital in a week. Everyone is like nobody again. Last night's events had become uneventful, and the atmosphere of fear had vanished. Then, another argument arose. That is, swallowing scissors can't kill people at all, there was a case on the farm that swallowed a sewing needle, and the sewing needle is still in the belly, and the person is not okay, after the completion of the labor camp, he returned to Shanghai, and is now selling clothes on Qinghai Road!

Now, disturbances have become commonplace, and people are not surprised to see them. As if it was necessary to attract everyone's attention, the intensity of the matter continued to escalate. But the reaction that can be evoked is not so serious, everyone is a little as if they are watching the excitement, and they are also coaxing, laughing, and it has become more and more a farce, and the stimulation of this kind of thing to Ah San has gradually been replaced by a boredom mood. On this day, there was a commotion in their bedroom again, and people didn't know whether to persuade or provoke, pushing and shoving the two parties around. Ah San pushed open the door and walked out, standing in the courtyard with his arms crossed, waiting for the matter to pass before returning to the room. After a while, Yang Chunmian also came, and said with the same feeling: It's really annoying. Ah San ignored her as usual. After a while, she suddenly leaned into Ah San's ear and asked mysteriously: Do you know why they are arguing? Ah San did not answer. She continued: Spring has arrived, and the rape flowers have bloomed, so the disease is about to occur.

Ah San couldn't help but look at her in astonishment, this glance almost made her happy, and then he said in a more sensational way: For this disease, there is actually only one medicine, and that is—as she spoke, she made a gesture. Ah San had seen this gesture on the car coming to the farm. Ah San turned his head in disgust and walked towards the dormitory. Yang Chunmian was stunned for a moment, and then her face turned red, and she scolded Ah San behind her back: "What's so great about you! What's so great about × foreigners! Her scolding was so sharp and high that it drowned out the movement of the entire courtyard. For a moment, there was silence in the courtyard, and even the noise that was going on came to an abrupt end, as if he had withdrawn from the stage as if he had realized that there was a better and newer repertoire on the stage.

Ah San rushed into the room and slammed the door, and the "bang" sound also resounded throughout the hospital. This silence of anticipation inspires Yangchun noodles. The grievances that she had been suppressed for a long time came to her heart, and she thought that she had been sincere in exchange for this cold face, how could she swallow this breath! She threw down a string of tears, and then pointed to the door that was smashed by Ah San and scolded open.

In order to make friends with Ah San, she has actually been acting against her nature. She tried her best to please Ah San. Because Ah San doesn't swear, she doesn't swear either, because Ah San loves to ignore people, she also ignores people other than Ah San, and even because Ah San refuses to be visited by her family, she gives up a chance to visit. She secretly imitated Ah San's mannerisms and behaviors, and her dress habits. Although each person is only allowed to bring three outfits per season, they are still able to wear their own individuality. However, all these efforts were in vain, Ah San couldn't see it at all, and her heart was high to the sky. But what's the difference? Isn't it still drinking vegetable soup with everyone. The resentment in Yangchunmian's heart, only he knows, it's okay if he doesn't want to, he really wants to beat his chest when he thinks about it.

She suppressed foul language that she hadn't spoken for months, and at this point the embankment broke. She hardly had to think, and the words came out of her mouth naturally, and, how novel, how pleasant, how many inventions and creations she had. People gathered around her, like watching her perform. She became more and more proud, and pursued the effect, and her words were not shocking and endless, causing bursts of laughter. Her tears dried on her face, and a smile floated on her face, she only regretted one thing, that is, why Ah San didn't come out to fight. Therefore, she became angry again and tried to stimulate her even more. Her invective basically revolves around two themes, one is the difference between giving Chinese× and giving × to foreigners, and the other is the difference between receiving money and not receiving money. Her arguments are grotesque, but there is some truth in them. Sometimes, she realized that she had grasped the reason, so she couldn't help but explain it repeatedly, as if showing off her skills.

The young unmarried squadron leader couldn't listen at all, so she covered her ears and scolded her. These days, she is tired and tired, as long as she doesn't move her mouth, she can't hear.

Yang Chunmian was excited by his own abuse, and his emotions were full of emotion. She's got so many things to say! and they're all wonderful. Her eyes lit up, looking at an invisible, distant place. She didn't notice it at all, the crowd in front of her dodged a way, and from there came Ah San, with a white face, who walked up to her and gave her a slap. Her ears buzzed, and for a moment she couldn't hear anything. At this time, she saw Ah San in front of her in a trance, and seemed to have her hand hurt, rubbed it on her pants, rubbed it for a while, and then raised it again. It bleed her teeth in one fell swoop. She wiped her mouth and saw the blood on her hands, and then she understood. She couldn't tell whether she was annoyed or rejoiced. Ah San fought back in the end. She ignored her, ignored her, but in the end, she ignored her. She grinned and cried with a little coquettishness.

Ah San was out of control. She picked up her arm and hit Chaoyang Chunmian at once, she felt the blood on her hands, tears, and saliva on Yangchunmian's teeth, and the more disgusted she became, the more she wanted to hit her. She felt someone come to pull her arm and hug her waist, but she was so powerful that no one wanted to stop her from beating Yangchun noodles. At this time, she also felt a sense of venting pleasure, and she had been holding back for a long time! Her original composure was all pretentious gestures and self-deception. She experienced the reason why people are making a lot of noise in this spring, when the rape flowers are blooming. This is indeed a great thing, and it solves a big problem. She couldn't see Yang Chunmian's face at all, this face was no longer human, but Ah San wasn't finished yet! Her hand felt Yang Chunmian's body, that made her disgusting, and asked Yang Chunmian to repay the price, who made her nause?

The people were stunned. I never thought that Ah San would also have a seizure, as the captains think, Ah San belongs to the category with strong self-control, in such a place, she still maintains her dignity, and people say that she has a shelf. But everyone does not reject her, because she is a celebrity of the production captain, but she does not bully others, just like some people. So they all stayed away from her. And her seizure suddenly shortened the distance between them. People rushed up and forcibly grabbed her, but they couldn't pull her, but they were attacked indiscriminately by her, so they had to let go of their hands, laugh and flee in all directions. The laughter seriously irritated Ah San, who had forgotten that she had missed the serious troublemaking phase, and was in a frivolous and amusing period, and that no one could be expected to take her seizures seriously. Now, Ah San's attack has lost its target, and whoever she catches is whoever she catches. The yard was noisy, and everyone was laughing and running, playing hide and seek with her. In the end, Ah San was exhausted, convulsed from excitement, and lay down on the concrete floor of the yard. The midday sun, hammer-like, slammed down on her chest.

Since then, Ah San has been on a hunger strike. At first, the squadron leader handcuffed her to prevent her from harming herself, but later thought that her hunger strike was to protest against the handcuffing, so he removed it. But she still didn't eat or drink, and lay on the bed. Everyone went to the workshop, and only the people were left and her. At first, the civil manager was still guarding her, and talked to her about explanation, but there was no response, so he felt bored and sat down at the door. The sun was shining gently, and there was a strange little bug crawling on the ground. She said, "Come and see, there's a strange thing here, I promise you've never seen it!" and she didn't answer, so she sighed and stopped talking, and when she came back from work in the evening, when people saw her bedside with her untouched lunch box, they all walked lightly, and didn't make any noise, as if there was a seriously ill man in the house. The people in the next bedroom also came over and stretched out their heads to take a look. Others sat on the edge of Ah San's bed and sighed at her. All kinds of food were piled up around her bed, and everything that could be bought at the commissary was available here. Some people who have just received family visits will contribute the good food and drink brought by their families. It seems that these can induce Ah San to give up his hunger strike and start eating again.

There was only Yang Chunmian, who hid in the corner far away, not daring to approach Ah San's bed. She still had the bruises of Ah Sanda on her face. She originally wanted to follow Ah San on a hunger strike, whether it was to say that I was not afraid that you would not eat, or to show solidarity, even she couldn't figure it out herself. But in the end, the reason was not sufficient, he couldn't support that momentum, he couldn't stand the hunger, and he couldn't stand the ridicule of his companions and captains, so he had to eat as usual. The captain came over a few times and persuaded Ah San to eat, but when he saw Ah San ignoring him, he became angry. He said: You are responsible for the consequences, but you are beating a drum in your heart, preparing to send you to the main hospital for infusion in another day.

Ah San fell asleep, not feeling hungry, she fell into a deep introspection. She wondered how she could endure so calmly for so long in such a life. How has she come over for more than half a year? All of them: nailing trademarks, flattening machines, sewing pieces, packing, loading, and unloading trucks; going out for exercises, attending classes, eating in tin boxes, cutting her hair and nails short...... All of this disgusted and annoying to her, it is better to die!

The thought of death calmed down. She looks back on her life for nearly 30 years, and many people and events are vivid. The fact that these people and events were coming here and now aroused a little excitement in her. She thought that she had experienced ups and downs and experienced some voices, although she was not sure of it, but this was in line with the sentence: not to seek eternity, but to have it. What is not once had? Life is what was once had. Because of this calculation, she was satisfied with her life, and felt that death was not terrible, not even sad, but somewhat joyful.

She was very clear-headed, her thoughts were brisk, as if she was talking when she was drunk, with some jumping dynamics, and a few times she fell asleep, but her thoughts were still the same, and she moved forward with small steps, bringing out many pictures, all of which were lively and vibrant. She let go of all her responsibilities and felt relaxed that she could do everything. Everyone's voices became the wind in her ears, and it didn't mean anything to her, it was all in vain. She was so good, really very good, and now, with her eyes closed, she could see the distant mountain shadows behind the high courtyard wall, turning green in the bright spring sunshine, with some points of light, buzzing and dancing like wild bees.

On the morning of the fourth day, Ah San was taken to the main hospital.

To prevent her from removing the infusion tube, her arms were fixed to the bed and she couldn't move. She didn't care anyway, and she couldn't hear anything she said. However, as the glucose fluid was infused into her body, her thoughts became sluggish and bulky, and at the same time, her body was ready to move, and some of her senses came to life. She felt hungry. At mealtime, the smell of food in the ward arouses the appetite, and the ears actively catch the conversation of others and strive to understand. But sleepiness struck, and she fell asleep, and the conversation of the people faded away in her ears, and she could no longer be heard.

It was a long night's sleep. When she woke up, it took a long time for her to come to her senses and understand her situation.

She found that the room was dark, not night, but dim daylight. The people in the room were lying quietly in their beds. Ying'er is a dense and soft rustling sound. Later, when she saw the door of the ward open, a man came in, leaned against the door and put down a wet umbrella, and she realized that it was raining outside. This man walked towards her, the captain of the production team.

The captain walked up to her bed, looked at her for a while, and said, "Okay, you've done enough, and you've earned enough face, can't you do it?" After a pause, he said: The production task is so tight, I still come to see you, and the whole team knows about it, isn't your face enough? Ah San dodged the captain's eyes. The captain said: You always have to give me a little face, and you have to give the people a little face. The latter sentence was very interesting, and both of them couldn't help but smile a little, and they both quickly stopped it, but the atmosphere was relaxed.

The captain sat down on the chair beside her bed, stretched out his legs, pressed his hands under his legs, supported his shoulders, stretched his body, and said: I know that all of you feel aggrieved in your hearts, and you are scolding us in your hearts for coming to such a poor and remote place to endure hardships; I know I shouldn't say that to you, and you don't have to understand us, if we understand you, but we have to compare our hearts to our hearts. At this point, the captain suddenly became sad, his eyes looked ahead, and he thought about it.

Ah San glanced at her. There is not a trace of wrinkles on her young cheeks, and her eyes are very clear, but her complexion is not good, blue-yellow, which is the color of lack of sleep. Ah San thought to herself, the captain is actually not ugly, but this police uniform wears out her.

The captain suddenly laughed out loud and said: Once, when I was talking to a labor camp, she told us what kind of business was done in which hotel in Shanghai, and what kind of business was done in what hotel, and then she said, "Captain, don't ask me what hotel I've been to, just ask me what hotel I've never been to. The captain glanced around, and the patients were lying on the beds, their eyes closed, and they all seemed to be asleep. It was quiet in the ward, and the sound of rain was still ringing outside the window. The captain said, "Do you know what supports us to live here?" Ah San shook his head. That is, here, we are better than everyone else. The captain looked at Ah San's eyes, there were both demonstrations and pleadings, as if he was: I handed over everything to you, don't you still give face?

Ah San's hunger strike ended that night and lasted for a total of six days. When she first ate, she was a little embarrassed and felt that people were laughing at her. But no one paid attention to her. It seems that the beginning and the end of things are expected by people, and there is nothing special about it. This made her feel even more embarrassed, as if she had eaten stolen food, drank a pot of porridge, and then lay down in bed, hoping that others would forget her. For the first time, she looked at the room, which was cleaner and quieter than an ordinary one, for there was no one to visit, and the patients were disciplined, with eight beds side by side, and with a slight tilt of the head, she could see the bushes outside the window. There is a street lamp hidden in the branches and leaves, and the lampshade of magnolia petals reveals some of the atmosphere of the city. Dinner was served at half-past four in the afternoon, and the rest of the night was extraordinarily long. At this time, there was always a little bit of activity in the ward, and people were chatting softly, and the sound came clearly into Ah San's ears.

They were talking about the men's labor brigade, which was the farthest away from the main field, and one of the prisoners had escaped. On the night of the previous day, three police cars were dispatched to search and arrest the field, but there has been no result so far. Ah San looked at the sky outside the window that was gradually darkening, the street lamp was on, because of the lack of electricity, emitting a dim light. She wondered why she hadn't heard the siren, and then she remembered the lonely cypress trees she had seen on the road when she came from Shanghai, always in sight on the rolling hills.

Another day passed, and the captain used the delivery truck to bring back Ah San. Ah San sat in the car body, jolting. The wheat on the highlands has turned yellow, and the seedlings have been planted in the paddy fields in the depressions. The tea leaves are green, and the hills near and far have become verdant. Out of nowhere, some bushes of trees have formed some green barriers. Even the cypress trees were made right, two here and two there. There were a few white clouds floating in the sky, and in the blink of an eye, they were dissolved by the blue sky and seeped into the sky. A surging of life swelled in Ah San's heart, and she narrowed her eyes to resist the dust in the wind. The view of the field, pushed farther away, pushed to the horizon, became a long and narrow strip.

Life is going on as usual again. The work in the workshop was piled up, and the time to finish work was pushed later and later, and even the time to go out for exercise and class was squeezed out. The kind of epileptic seizures in the dormitory still happened from time to time, but the frequency was obviously sparse, as if the energy had passed. As summer approaches, the mood is gradually replaced by laziness and burnout. People have fallen silent. As for Ah San, as the production captain said, he earned enough face. Everyone has a new understanding of her, and they are impressed. Yang Chunmian didn't dare to approach her anymore and hid from afar, which made Ah San very satisfied. To say that life is much better than before, but Ah San's mood is not the same as before.

Now, when all the unaccustomed things have been overcome, and the tension of adapting to the harsh reality has finally relaxed, she realizes that this life is unbearable. It was as if she had opened her eyes and seen reality. Originally, what was active here was only Ah San's skin, but now, Ah San's soul has returned. Ah San thought: Only half a year has passed, how should we spend the remaining more than a year! Ah San is really sad, she can't sleep at night, all kinds of thoughts come to her mind, biting her patience, she knows that she can't think about this, but she just has to think about this. Her face was thinned, and the tip of her chin was an awl. She only eats a bite of cat food at each meal, and she often gets dizzy. But she worked hard as if she was masochistic, and her hands seemed to be not hands, but tools, coping with all kinds of labor. Just look closely into her eyes to know what kind of torment she is suffering, her eyes become sharp and shining with blazing light. She spoke less than before, and at the end of the day, she couldn't hear a single voice. She invisibly spreads a sense of depression, and wherever she is, the air becomes inexplicably dull.

However, in this mechanical life, people have become numb and simple-minded, and no one sees the changes in Ah San. Only one person saw it, and that was the mouse hiding from Ah San's Yangchun noodles like a cat. After that big accident, Yang Chunmian felt closer to Ah San. This kind of exchange seems to have erased the barrier between her and Ah San, although on the surface she can no longer get close to her. Now, Ah San's thoughts and thoughts are all clear. Only she knew that Ah San couldn't hold on. She was genuinely worried about Ah San. She knew that if it continued like this, Ah San would collapse. It's not like this for Ah San to live like this.

Ah San didn't know that when she was in pain, there was someone who was more painful than her. And, when she was at a loss, a plan slowly took shape in that person's heart.

On this day, it was already over, but Ah San stayed in the workshop because she had some work to rework, and Yang Chunmian asked to help her. The captain agreed, but Ah San didn't bother to object, pretending not to hear. After everyone was gone, she suddenly approached Ah San and said, "Sister, you run!" She was so excited that she almost trembled because of such a good idea. Ah San raised his head in astonishment and looked at her close face, which looked extremely pale under the fluorescent lamp, with large visible pores in the nasal hollow, and a dark patch on the corner of his forehead, which she had hit.

Sister, you run!" Yang Chunmian said again, she lowered her voice in the empty and quiet workshop, stirring up echoes.

I know that you are a different person from us, you can't stay in this kind of place, you can run! Go to the south, where there are all outsiders, you don't need to register your household registration, it's very easy to mix!

Ah San calmed down, she weighed Yang Chunmian's words in her heart, and figured out the truth and falsehood of these words.

Listen to those who enter the palace twice, The people who entered the palace said that every year there are people who run, and some of them never come back; go out of the gate, go up the mountain behind, first find a place to hide, wait until it gets dark, and then go down the mountain, there is a peasant's house, you give them money, stay there for the night, and the next morning walk to the highway and catch a truck, you can go to the train station; really, I have helped you find out, those peasants are very greedy for money, give more money, they will send you to the station, but you can't say that you are from here, you don't say, they actually know, but then there is no responsibility; if you want to run, I will help you deal with it, and it will be easy to hide it overnight。

Ah San's eyes slowly moved away from Yang Chunmian's face, buried his head and worked again, the sound of the sewing machine sounded again, Yang Chunmian looked disappointed, she muttered: You don't believe it, but what I said is true. She left Ah San and shrunk away in the corner, curled up on the cardboard box with her hands on her knees, her eyes staring out the window. Her face became melancholy and serious, with an expression of great hurt.

In the middle of the night, when everything was silent, Ah San gently turned her head, reached into the pillowcase, tore off a patch on the pillow, and groped for a roll of banknotes in the kapok core, which was the five hundred yuan given to her by the female writer. Although she hadn't thought of their use, she didn't give them to the captain for registration. Now, she held the roll in her palm and understood what she was going to do. She couldn't help but smile in the dark.

Ah San was ready to escape. She began to force herself to eat more, trying to make herself fit. She carries a bottle of mosquito repellent oil with her from morning to night, so that when she hides in the mountains, she will not let the mosquitoes bite too badly. She had already taken the route of leaving the compound from the squadron, which came and went when talking about work with the captain of the production brigade. She also learned that on Sunday, the captains all returned to the main field, leaving only one person on duty. She even cleverly hid the next outing order, once the captain looked for her, and when she walked to the gate, the porter was busy receiving people from the main field, and forgot to accept her order. She did this excitedly and calmly, her mind constantly moving on this escape plan, rehearsing it in her imagination a thousand times and ten thousand times. The thought of nervousness flushed her face and her fingers trembled slightly. No one has found any of this. Even Yang Chunmian no longer paid attention to her, she became depressed and quiet, and now it was difficult to hear her noise, only her figure buried in hard work.

Ah San waited for the opportunity. She knows that timing is the most important thing, and what is timing does not depend on judgment, but from inspiration, and she waits for the time to come. It was supposed to be something of God's reach, and she felt it almost with bated breath. As the days passed, the weather became hotter and the days longer. At night, the big stars are overhead, shining brightly. The moonshine also became scorching. Everyone is haunted by fatigue and yawns all day long. And Ah San's mind is getting clearer day by day, his eyes are bright, but his heart is pressing, waiting for an opportunity to move.

On this day, it was cloudy in the morning and drizzled in the afternoon. It was Sunday, in the morning, the captain was still working overtime with everyone in the workshop, and in the afternoon, he explained that he had finished his work early, and then left, and the squadron leader on duty took it alone. At three o'clock in the afternoon, it was a difficult time, people were dozing, little by little, the work in their hands fell to the ground, and the sound of machines seemed to be scattered. The gloom in the sky makes people even more depressed. After another hour, the squadron leader said that he had finished work, so everyone got up and rushed out to wash their clothes and hair in order to grab the pool. Ah San said: Squadron leader, I'll do it for a while, and then I'll finish this fight before leaving. The squadron leader said okay, and told her not to forget to turn off the lights and lock the door when she left. At this time, Yang Chunmian suddenly raised his head, glanced at her with bright eyes, and an irrepressible smile appeared on his face. Their eyes met, and for a moment, neither of them dodged, and there was a look of understanding. Yang Chunmian walked past her with this smile, and her hand was consciously supported on Ah San's sewing machine, as if waiting for an answer. If it weren't for the very, very disgusted Yang Chunmian body, Ah San would almost have touched her hand. But no. Yang Chunmian walked past her and didn't look back, but her glowing smile lingered in front of Ah San's eyes for a long time.

Everything went according to what Yangchun noodles said, and everything went well. On this day, it was dark early, but at six o'clock, it was already dark. The gray sky shrouded the rainy hills, and there seemed to be a layer of shelter between heaven and earth. The rain was tight, but not violent, just tightly and damp around Ah San's whole body. The sound of the rain filled the entire space, and it was also a layer of shelter. Ah San could barely see the rain, and because of its extreme density, she could only see crystal droplets of water dripping from the leaves and grass tips.

Okay, Ah San is starting to descend the mountain. Thanks to the hills, the mountain road is not steep, and you can't even feel its slope, only after walking out of a section, and then looking back, you find that it is actually going down the mountain, or up the mountain. Ah San was trampling in the grass, and suddenly found that the road she was subconsciously stepping on was actually pre-existing, but it was not obvious. Could it have been left by the previous escapee? But when she tried to track the road, it was gone.

Ah San raised her head, her eyelashes were dripping and flowing into her eyes. In the blur, she saw a vast hilly area with the faint figure of a cypress tree. The figure suddenly took on a human form, was it Bill, or Martin, was it Bill. Thinking of Bill, Ah San suddenly felt a little sad joy in his heart, and thought: Bill, do you know where I am now? She used Bill to boost her confidence and make herself believe that all this is extraordinary and will never fall into an ordinary ending.

There was not a single person on the hills, only Ah San and the cypress tree. She walked blankly, the rain and fog and the night blocking her path. She didn't think about the road, but walked mechanically and diligently. She shuddered, her teeth chattering, as if she were laughing. She lost track of the time, thinking it was at least the early hours of the next day. She was surprised when the lights of the farmhouse appeared in front of her, and she thought it would never be there. She paused, but at the same time she steadied herself, and realized that the light was actually very close to her, only a hundred meters away. It was only then that she felt a pang of fear, and she thought in a panic: What should the farmer do if he went to report the farm? Her legs could not help but go a little weak, and the distance of a hundred meters was very difficult. She thought to herself that if the peasant showed suspicious deeds, she would pull her leg at once. Thinking about it like this, my heart calmed down.

Approaching the light, she could smell the aroma of the food and the charcoal from the wood-burning stove. It dawned on her that it was still dinner. No matter how late this person's meal is, it won't be past eight o'clock. She looked at the house, it was a bungalow. There are three brick houses in a row on the front, two thatched-roof adobe houses on each side, one side is a stove house, the lights have been turned off, and the other side is a sundries, connected to a pigsty, and there is no courtyard wall. The door to the main house was closed, as if no one was living there, but there were dim lights in the windows on both sides. When Ah San approached the door, she stepped on a pile of and almost slipped, she screamed softly, stabilized herself, and then went to knock on the door. A woman's voice came from inside the door, asking which one it was. Ah San said sister-in-law, open the door. The woman still asks which one. Ah San said, sister-in-law, open the door, it is passing. The woman is so stubborn that she has to ask which one she is. Ah San knocked on the door again, and the door shouted: Knock again, knock again, call people, there are policemen living on the farm! Ah San then thought of how strong the fear of people who are so close to the labor camp and have a single door and a single courtyard are harboring.

Ah San stopped knocking on the door, but she felt so tired that she couldn't take a step anymore. She walked slowly along the stove house, preventing her feet from slipping, and walked to the back of the house. Behind the main house, there was a back window with a long rain eaves, and Ah San sat down under the rain eaves, resting his feet and making plans.

She curled up, hugged her knees, and buried her head, how all this happened, she suddenly felt like she was in a dream. She was so sleepy that she fell so sleepy that several times she fell backwards, and she couldn't help but wake up, and then she continued to doze off. Heaven and earth are soaked in the sound of rain and moisture, and it is another world. Gradually, she learned to sit and sleep like this, and her body was no longer crooked. She forgot about the cold and the rain, and the sweetness of sleepiness covered her. She seemed to be sleeping on the bed, her sunny face gradually fell towards her, and she saw the blue lump on her forehead, and couldn't help but move and woke up.

This time, she was completely awake and heard a small insect chirping, which was very crisp. She was a little surprised, and felt that the scene in front of her was very strange. After a few more looks, I realized that the rain had stopped, and the moon had moved out from behind the clouds, illuminating everything white and bright. In front of her was a stack of wheat straw, which was drenched in rain, and then emitted a yellowish light. She sat comfortably with her hands on the ground, but unexpectedly her palm touched something smooth and round. When I looked down, it was an egg, half buried in the mud.

She gently dug up the dirt and dug up the eggs, thinking that this was a godsend, and that she would eat them raw to quench her hunger and thirst. She turned her eyes around the egg and saw that it was a small, transparent one, with a thin flesh-colored shell that looked so fragile and delicate, and that it was stained with blood.

This is a virgin egg, Ah San thought, and suddenly, she felt a burst of warmth in her palm, which was the soft and pure shy body temperature of the little hen. Oh my God! Why did it hide this virgin egg, so that it wouldn't be shown to anyone? Ah San's heart was stinged, and some associations came to his mind. She held the egg in her palm and cried.

17 October 1995