Chapter 182: Reluctance to Love
Ji Yin looked at her like this, so he could only go back the same way: "What are you doing?"
He rubbed Tang Ge's head and pinched Tang Ge's face, and then took Tang Ge's hand.
"Let's go, don't stand here stupidly. It's windy by the river at night, and you'll catch a cold. ”
Tang Ge looked at his hand held by Ji Yin, and his heart fluctuated.
As soon as his mind was hot, he walked forward with Ji Yin, and he didn't resist, repeating everything just so naturally.
After the two of them left the river, they walked aimlessly down the street.
It's already past nine o'clock, and there is no night in the bustling city, and the streets are still lively under the bright neon lights.
Some people are busy, full and happy because their lives are busy, fulfilled and happy, and because they have the people they love, so they love to continue to dedicate and work hard.
Some people are suffering because of their difficulties, they shout and cry loudly, but no one cares, and their lives will not change because they are sad.
Busy, day after day, repetitive life, and finally death.
Even if you try, it's useless, and everyone will die in the end.
Tang Ge only felt very tired, since the moment he knew that Ji Yin was going to marry Yan Zhiyu, it was like falling into hell alone.
Now that he said it, Tang Ge was relieved.
But there was an even greater sadness that overwhelmed Tang Ge.
She couldn't change anything, her words were so pale and powerless.
She selfishly didn't want Ji Yinhu and Yan Zhiyu to get married, but she knew that she had no way to change such a predicament, and she was sad to keep the past that she couldn't get by.
Even Ji Yin around her couldn't help herself, all she wanted was Ji Yin to be with her.
But she couldn't, she still had something she hadn't let go, her father.
Her dreams.
These are things she can't let go.
The price to pay with the printing is too great.
Tang Ge has no way to pay such a heavy price now, and maybe he will hurt Ji Yin together.
She doesn't want Jiyin to be hurt, she wants Jiyin to be happy.
She suddenly burst into tears, feeling so powerless and insignificant.
When you're becoming a great person, you'll get what you want, right?
She knew that she couldn't fall here, she couldn't, and she was really unwilling.
She thought of her father, whom she hadn't seen for a long time, and wondered what had become of her now.
How's it going? Is it still happiness?
She never had the courage to visit him, but she would send him money regularly.
It's just the hurdle in his heart, he hurt his mother so deeply that she can't forgive her father.
Ji Yin accompanied Tang Ge's side, and the two of them walked without saying anything all the way.
Ji Yin, who was by Tang Ge's side last year, had been very worried about Tang Ge's emotions, but Tang Ge himself didn't notice Ji Yin's worried and distressed expressions around him because he was sad.
"Tang Ge, you don't look good, why don't we go to rest somewhere?" Ji Yin finally couldn't help but speak out when he saw Tang Ge's appearance.
He didn't know why Tang Ge was so sad, but he knew that he couldn't let Tang Ge continue like this.
He hoped that Tang Ge would be happy when he was with him.
"Thank you for always being by my side today, I'm very happy. I'm fine, I want to go home first. ”
Tang Ge's words are complete, but after all, it sounds a little alienated, giving people a sense of distance. It's as if the two are strangers who meet for the first time today.
Ji Yin's heart throbbed, but he knew that if he could do it now, this might be the best way.
asked Tang Ge to be quiet and give her space.
Let's wait until Tang Ge's mood is better.
"Do you want me to send you?" Ji Yin asked her, his eyes were extremely concerned.
Tang Ge just waved his hand gently, still so polite and detached.
Ji Yin didn't like Tang Ge, who was so alienated from him, he suddenly had a hint of impulse, he wanted to hold Tang Ge in his arms.
Ji Yin had endured too many things, and it had exceeded his limit, so by the time Ji Yin finally came back to his senses, Tang Ge was already in his arms.
This is not what surprised Ji Yin the most, the most surprising thing was that when Ji Yin hugged Tang Ge, Tang Ge did not break free, but acquiesced to such behavior.
"Tang Ge?"
Ji Yin spoke cautiously, for fear that he would scare Tang Ge and let the little woman in his arms run away.
Tang Ge raised her head slightly in Ji Yin's arms, her gaze was so clean and soft: "What's wrong?"
The eyes of the two looked at each other, and Tang Ge saw Ji Yin's eyes reflecting his face, so he hurriedly broke free from Ji Yin's arms.
"Thank you, I know you held me in your arms because you wanted to comfort me, uh, I wanted to go back first. ”
Tang Ge was a little embarrassed now, but his tone was still so detached, Ji Yin felt sad, knowing that he had no way to keep her anymore.
He wanted to struggle one last time: "Then let me send you downstairs to your house, okay?"
Ji Yin's gaze seemed to be pleading.
Tang Ge didn't look at him this time, just walked forward.
Ji Yin followed on his own, and this time the two of them did not stand shoulder to shoulder.
Tang Ge glanced at the empty position around him, and knew that Ji Yin had not followed.
So he turned around and said, "What's wrong with you? aren't you going to walk home with me?"
With a smile on her face, Ji Yin looked at Tang Ge in front of her, a little flustered, and finally chose to obey for a while and walked to Tang Ge in front.
Sure enough, it would be more comfortable to walk side by side together, right?
The two of them didn't say anything all the way, passed through the noisy crowd, and the flowing water carts and horses, and arrived downstairs at Tang Ge's house together.
Ji Yin stopped here, and he watched Tang Ge go upstairs.
"Won't you go up with me?" Tang Ge asked him.
"I've been busy lately, and I need to run between the company and my own home, so I don't have any free time to live here recently. ”
After Tang Ge heard Ji Yin's words, there seemed to be an extra layer of loss in his eyes.
"I'll just be here and watch you go up safely. ”
Ji Yin smiled at Tang Ge, hoping that his words could make Tang Ge a little more relaxed and make her happier.
Tang Ge also smiled at him, turned around and went upstairs.
Ji Yin watched Tang Ge's back until Tang Ge had disappeared into the stairwell until Tang Ge had disappeared into the stairwell, and he was still reluctant to look at the road Tang Ge had walked there.
He lowered his eyes, as if saddened.
With some regret, he turned around and left Tang Ge's residence.