Chapter 19: No one is to blame
He is not used to others treating him well, then he will have a burden, he will feel guilty, he didn't think Zhou Wenwu was a good one, so he was indifferent, he complained about his father's life experience, he hated the Zhou family.
But now looking at Zhou Wenwu like this, he really can't complain, and he can't blame it.
His second uncle is not in good health, he takes medicine all the year round, and he still has two children at home to go to school, and the only person the family can count on is Wang Cuihua, a woman, who has never been home in his life.
"Second uncle, I'm ....... Zhou Chong frowned, not knowing how to refuse: "My dad has reported to Jinbei Medical College for me, and I have to report in two days, and I want to live in school." ”
"You don't have to burden yourself too much, I don't blame you for my dad's affairs, and I can take care of myself. Zhou Chong stretched his brows, and looked sideways at the man next to him: "If I need it, I will definitely ask you for help." ”
Even if Zhou Chong knew that this need might not be there for the rest of his life, he still had to say so.
He is actually escaping, he doesn't want to have much contact with the Zhou family, even if he is relieved now, he still doesn't want to be too close to the Zhou family, he is going to leave Jinbei after all.
Zhou Wenwu didn't speak, but tears flowed down again, he looked up at this nephew who was a head taller than himself: "It's the second uncle's fault, it's the second uncle who is sorry for you, sorry for your father!"
"It's not your fault. This is the first time that Zhou Chong has opened his mouth to comfort Zhou Wenwu like this: "You really don't have to blame yourself so much. ”
"My dad didn't suffer much when he left, he went to my mom, he missed her. Zhou Chong lowered his eyes, and the tip of his nose was sour, but he didn't cry.
"Don't talk about it, when will my aunt come over?" He hadn't seen this aunt, but he had heard his father say that the aunt didn't marry very well, her husband was a lame, and the family conditions were not very good.
"I guess it's almost there, she's far from here, more than ten miles away, and she rides slowly. Zhou Wenwu's brows furrowed, and his face was a little embarrassed.
"I'll go buy some snacks for Linghua, if you have anything you want to eat, tell the second uncle, and I'll bring it to you." Zhou Wenwu said.
Linghua is the youngest daughter of Zhou Chong's aunt, and she is not too old, Zhou Chong has only heard of it, but he has never seen the child.
"I'll go, I don't know how to greet here, you're busy, I'll buy it." "The cigarette in his pocket is gone, and he has to buy it.
After speaking, he didn't care whether Zhou Wenwu agreed or not, and just copied his pocket and passed.
The small shop sold everything in a mess, spicy strips, potato chips, marshmallows, jelly, watermelon-flavored bubble gum, and some messy Zhou Chong took a few bags and put them in a plastic bag.
"A box of soda. Zhou Chong stood in front of the counter with something, thought about it and raised his head to look at the little girl with a round face: "Wait a minute." ”
"Take the box of three rings, Xiao Su doesn't want it. ”
The round-faced little girl was stunned, as if she didn't expect Zhou Chong to draw three rings.
She took out a box of three rings from the counter and put it in front of Zhou Chong, poured all those small snacks on the table, and counted them one by one.
"It's ten bucks in total. The little girl's eyes were round, and she looked at Zhou Chong and smiled, this was the least amount of money this person had ever spent.
"The milk is either hot all the time, it's warm. ”
"Bottled?"
"No, it's bagged, it's hot in the thermos. The little girl was still smiling.
"Get a few packs. As he spoke, he took out a piece of 20 yuan and handed it to the little girl: "Take the rest of the milk, don't look for it." ”
After collecting the money, the little girl went to the side and opened a thermos pot covered with a quilt, and opened the lid of the thermos pot, and the hot water vapor in it floated up, and the little girl gave four packets of milk for ten yuan, all of which were hot, and it was very warm to take one pack and put it in the palm of her hand.
Zhou Chong carried a plastic bag in one hand and put it in his pocket with the other, and put a packet of hot milk in his pocket, which was very warm against his hand.
The noodle restaurant opposite was still closed, and Zhou Chong didn't see any trace of Xie Yunsheng, thinking that he was either in the hospital with his mother or in Huang Mao.
When Zhou Chong returned to Zhou's house again, there was a bicycle with 28 bars at the door, the car was very broken, the body was dust, a cotton wool mat was placed on the back seat, it was dirty and I couldn't see any color, and there was still a mud ring on the rim, and I don't know where it came from.
"Zhou Chong, you came back just in time, your aunt is here, and she is talking to your second uncle in the house, go over quickly. Wang Cuihua said while placing the dishes and chopsticks on the table.
When I entered the house, the first thing I saw was a gray-haired woman with a plate face, thick eyebrows and big eyes, a very straight nose, she was wearing a cotton jacket made of blue coarse cloth, sitting on a high bench in the back room, and a little girl of about ten years old was involved.
The child had two pigtails, her eyes were big, and she looked like her mother, and she sat obediently on a small bench, holding her mother in one hand and hanging down the other, her eyes looked at the ground, and she did not speak or move, but sat quietly and blinked for a while.
"This kid is ......" Seeing someone coming over, Zhou Wenling was obviously stunned.
She looked at the one-meter-eight tall boy in front of her, looked at the eyebrows and eyes with features as hard as sculptures, her nose instantly sore, her eyes turned red in an instant, and her tears couldn't be stopped like rain.
Wen Bin...... Is this Wen Bin's child?" Zhou Wenling looked at Zhou Chong with tears in her eyes, as if she didn't dare to admit it.
She got married at the age of eighteen, and it has been more than twenty years now.
For more than 20 years, she has not been back to the Zhou family, but she still thinks about her two younger brothers, who are her mother's compatriots!
But she didn't expect that one day she would send a white-haired person to a black-haired person and send her younger brother away with her own hands, how cruel!
"Sister, it's Wen Bin's child, named Zhou Chong, who is seventeen years old this year and is in his second year of high school. Zhou Wenwu patted her shoulder, and the paper on the side wiped her tears: "Sister, don't cry, your eyes are not good, you can't cry." ”
"Your name is Zhou Chong, it's so good, it's so good that your father got this name!" Zhou Wenling soured her nose, as if she wanted to laugh, but she couldn't laugh, and tears still hung on her eyes.
The girl sitting on the bench saw her mother crying so much, and hurriedly reached out to help her mother wipe her tears, she opened her mouth to say that her mother should not cry, but she did not spit out the words, she could only wipe her mother's face little by little with her hands.
"Auntie. Zhou Chong opened his mouth at this time.
His eyes were still a little swollen, but his expression was faint, not too much undulating, as if all his strength had been worn out by the morning cry.
"My dad didn't suffer much when he left, he was tired and wanted to go home, I brought him back and he rested in peace. In a word, it is very clear, the deceased rest in peace.
"I'm tired, Wen Bin...... He's also bitter!"
"It was all the sins of that woman! If it weren't for her, how could my brother have died in a foreign land?"
Zhou Wenling's nose was sour again, but there was a faint hatred in her words, hating the Zhou family, hating Mrs. Zhou, if it wasn't for Mrs. Zhou, how could the three of them get to this point, and why didn't Wen Bin go home for so many years?
However, no matter how much hatred there is, people have already gone.
Zhou Chong didn't speak, and he didn't know what else to say, talking about his father's past?
Those memories were buried in his heart, and now talking about them is like opening his scars, he doesn't want to think about it, and when he thinks about it, he has to bear the fact that his father has died, it hurts too much.
"Linghua, come, this is your brother, Brother Zhou Chong, come and call your brother. Zhou Wenling saw Zhou Chong's discomfort, and she didn't mention the past anymore.
She patted her daughter's head and asked her to see Zhou Chong, but the child was extremely afraid of life, holding her mother's hand, refusing to let go at all, with a pair of big eyes with a panicked feeling, her whole body seemed to be trembling a little.
"Linghua, good, this is your brother, it's your cousin. Zhou Wenling patted the child's head and stroked it gently, the child didn't tremble so much, but he still refused to speak, but his eyes stared straight at Zhou Chong.
Zhou Chong didn't speak, just stepped forward and handed the plastic bag in his hand to Linghua.
"Take it and eat it. ”
The little girl didn't dare to move, but her eyes were a little bright, her fingers wanted to be raised, but she didn't dare to, Zhou Chong didn't speak again, just let go of her hand and put the snack in the palm of the little girl's hand, and then walked out without looking back.
He wanted to smoke.
The room feels oppressive.
The match was wiped, the cigarette in his hand was lit, and a choking smoke ring slowly rose, Zhou Chong pinched the cigarette butt and took a hard breath, which could be regarded as a sigh of relief.
"What kind of stuffy smoke is your cat smoking in the corner here?" The soft smoke sound behind his ears, and as soon as Zhou Chong pinched the cigarette and turned around, he saw Xie Yunsheng standing at the corner of the corner with his hands crossed.
"Why are you everywhere?" Zhou Chong sneered, as if he didn't expect Xie Yunsheng to appear at this point. "Why don't you go to Huangmao's rice, what are you doing here?"
"I went back to the noodle shop to get some things, and I glanced here, and I caught a glimpse of you. ”
"You say, are we fated to do this?" Xie Yunsheng walked this way with his hands in his hands, and with a smile in the corner of his eyes, he walked up to Zhou Chong. The lowered gaze just caught a glimpse of the cigarette in his hand, and the three bright circles made Xie Yun happy at once: "Yo, Sanhuan?"
"Bankrupt, why did you change this?
Xie Yunsheng laughed and teased Zhou Chong.
Zhou Chong glanced at him, didn't reply to his words, just raised his hand and took out the cigarette case from his pocket and threw it into Xie Yunsheng's arms: "Come to the root?"
Xie Yunsheng took the cigarette case, gently smoked it with his fingers, and clamped the cigarette butt to his fingertips.
"Let's make a fire with you. He tilted his head, tilted half of his face slightly, held the cigarette butt in the corner of his thin lips, and gently pressed the cigarette butt to the cigarette next to Zhou Chong's mouth.