On the edge of the corner of the roof of the 33-story apartment building, there are beer bottles all over the place, and half a case of beer that has not been drunk, sitting high at the foot of the building, Liu Yi's eyes have been blurred, his eyes are blurred, his eyes reveal despair, despair of life, life is like a palace drama, you are just the insignificant chess piece in the play, it is the trick that may be hung up at any time, he is thirty-seven years old, Liu Yi found that he had nothing, because of the house, the husband and wife divorced, the wife never put the house in her heart before marriage, and after marriage, she felt that she wanted to prepare a school district house for her children, and she needed to have a house written in her name to be able to gain a sense of securityMaybe I shouldn't blame my wife, in the eyes of ordinary people, this is a normal need, but in my own opinion, I am burdened with a huge financial burden, I want to get a little income from the stock market, but I am swallowed up by the unpredictable stock market, I want to make some income in the foreign exchange market, and finally lose it cleanly, the world seems to be against him, in addition to taking a dead salary, any special income is not allowed by God, leaving me with poverty, housing prices are still rising, but there is no extra money in my pocket。

Finally divorced today, after paying his wife for the down payment of half of his parents' life savings, there are still hundreds of living expenses left in his pocket, and even where to live has become a problem, looking at the flashing lights in the city, Liu Yi felt a chill, he didn't seem to have the courage to jump, he hadn't done his filial piety well, his parents were still in his hometown to save money for himself, so he gave up and was sorry for his parents, he still needed to continue to hold on, and he also needed to pay for his willfulness, he was the same as the little ant struggling in the city, just a little ant who worked hard and couldn't find a belonging, and he might eventually die in a corner of the city and not be remembered。 Liu Yi is thinking, is he wrong at that step in life? In high school, he worked very hard, but no matter how hard he tried, his grades were not as good as others, he could only go to one or two books, he studied hard in college, and his life was quite colorful, and he could only play a little guitar, but because of his third-class crippled height and shyness, he could only become a good person in the mouth of others, and no matter how hard he tried, he still fell on the road to graduate school, didn't God give this way? It will always be an ordinary position, no matter how good it is, it still can't go further in the company, the salary is always constantly spinning in place, paying the price for insisting on not buying a house, the continuous rise in housing prices makes people full of hatred for this society, but they have to helplessly go to the road of buying a house, every month to repay the loan and do their best, saying that they want to do their filial piety for their parents, but the pitiful few cents in his pocket let him shut up, I want to find a perfect wife in my heart, but the people I want are other people's wives, maybe I am really a loser in this world, I can't be an elite。

When did the world start to abandon itself? Liu Yi couldn't figure it out, it seemed that since the year he graduated, that's it, stock speculation is to contribute to society, work is always busy, and he is about to forget his hometown, he hasn't been back for four or five years, how is his family doing? He may be the pride of the family, but the price of maintaining a glamorous surface is much more than gaining, and it is so difficult to stay in a second-tier city, who does this city belong to? The friends at home seem to be happier than themselves, and the news from home from time to time will make Liu Yi fiercely jealous in his heart, why can they travel around so easily? His father Liu Dahong is just an ordinary worker, and his mother Wu Jing is just a laid-off worker, is there only so much suffering the world gives? I remember when I was a child, in order to choose a school, I remember the hard work of my parents. After pouring a sip of wine, tears flowed from the corners of Liu Yi's eyes, at this time, the family members were already asleep, how to tell their parents about their divorce at the end of this year? promised to give them a grandson's wish to break their promise again, they finally looked forward to their marriage, waiting for the birth of the next generation, but they couldn't do it, Liu Dahong has reached the age of seventy, and has no energy to help himself anymore, he is just a depressed post-80s, when the college package was allocated, he was still in high school, when the primary school was free, he had graduated from college, as if he always couldn't catch up with good policies, when the country allowed to have a second child, he didn't have a child, what are people pursuing in this life? Is it just to pursue the busyness of this life?

A sip of wine, a sip of bitterness, what have you done all these years? It's almost to the point where you don't seem to have anything, from a house-owning family to a poor person again, and back to the time of graduation, do you still have the courage to continue to struggle? Trying to maintain an image, in the end it was indeed such a failure, I knew that I didn't want to be a gentleman at the beginning, what to do so generously, it is better to live like a hooligan, to become the most despised person in the eyes of others is the best choice, I can live an easy life, I should live a bad life, I am fortunate to live well, but I want to become a success in the eyes of others, and I am not convinced just to add more pressure to myself.

The job that has finally stabilized is to be reconsidered, this salary is not high, and the job with little water should be changed, this is the first job I have changed, the fourth or the fifth? A good job will only beckon to those students of 211,985 colleges and universities, and will not beckon to this ordinary middle-aged person, I am afraid that any company does not want such an employee, and it may be better to find a young man with momentum and time.

Liu Yiyi, who usually falls down with a bottle of wine, didn't find the drunkenness after drinking half a box today, this city really doesn't belong to him, he shook it by the wall, he felt that he was about to fall from the 33rd floor, and finally timidly pulled his body back, he didn't even have the courage to jump, he was a coward, he was a bad person in the eyes of others, a useless person, if he really jumped, he wouldn't even be reported by the newspaper, he was too insignificant. This world is full of cunning, interests, and disgusting interpersonal relationships, there are not even a few intimate friends over the years, the company is full of interests, factions, why is it so difficult to work hard, why is it always not as much as you pay, why are people who are not as good as their own efforts can live better than themselves? Liu Yi has gone from being full of resentment to now accepting his fate, and after experiencing too many blows, he has forgotten the feeling of hard work.

The hazy sky can't see the moon, nor can you see the stars, every breath of air you breathe will make you cough, the choking throat is particularly uncomfortable, it is so difficult to find the feeling of drunkenness, pick up the mobile phone, open the mother's phone, I want to talk, but I can't press the dial button, for my father, Wu Xiaoqiang doesn't want to dial even more, and my father has not had much to say since he was a child, it's not that he doesn't love his father, it's just that his father is not a person who likes to listen, he unintentionally looked at the phone, turned to his wife and paused, and still didn't have the courage to dial, how did he and his wife meetIt seems to be an online blind date, and a message inadvertently sent out of it became acquainted, and the wife is also a good person, although the family is not too good, but at least let himself be a single dog out of singleness, bringing hope to his parents, and it is still very good when he falls in love, how happy he was at that time, like a fool with no IQ, desperate to invest, thinking that everything is good, and it is too late to distinguish, but the wife after marriage seems to have changed person, the wife who can cook and dress up has suddenly become synonymous with laziness, and the noble wife has to quarrel with herself for a sense of security and the future。

Now that I think about it, everything seems so ridiculous, it's good for a person like myself to be looked down upon, and I still ask for so much, I want a beautiful person who can take care of people, but I can't be so philistine, it's just a fool's dream, life is realistic, if you want to be beautiful, you have to put up with her other problems, if you want someone who can take care of people, you have to put up with her unsatisfactory work, and if you want a non-marketist, you have to make yourself rich. Bai Fumei will never appear in the world of Dick Si, celebrities will not marry ordinary people, there will be no real Bai Fumei in Erben's school, and it is impossible for a rich person to fall in love with a poor boy, this is the real reality, only when you are surrounded by elites, you can find excellent girls, Dick Si has no future, just like an ordinary girl wants to find a rich and handsome person who loves her, there will be no such person in your circle at all, how good you must be, to be able to let the social elite choose you, this probability is so small that there is almost none, or why are you always issued a good person card, God may choose a suitable person for you, will definitely not give you a person you imagined, this is the cruel reality, there is no fairy tale in real life.

The tears kept lingering, Liu Yi had forgotten everything, and there was more depression in the dull sky, which made people feel aggrieved, uncomfortable but unable to spit it out. God, is there really no chance to do it again? I am just an ordinary person, like many people in the world, I am no different from others, and I will wake up tomorrow I am still a dick.

The muffled thunder sounded in the sky, and Liu Yi only had time to raise his head before he felt struck by lightning, and his whole person trembled, and he fainted unconsciously.