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His side face is still so good-looking, but it is slightly tougher at the moment. He drove intently, and she looked at him intently. The atmosphere in the carriage was very silent, and he didn't speak, and Wenjun didn't know whether to speak or not. Feeling embarrassed while waiting at the traffic light, he started the music, "Whe."

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g,it made me **ile......" The ancient melody accompanied by the vicissitudes of life brought Wenjun into that sad realm. "What's wrong with you? What did your father tell you, do you know that I didn't dare to eat more just after eating? I didn't dare to eat rudely, I was afraid that they would talk about me. "Do you want to know? My dad said you were a foreigner, and he would never agree to me marrying a girl from outside. And you look like a ceramic doll, delicate and fragile. I can't do anything, it doesn't help my life, it's just a burden. ”

"So, do you think so?"

"Nope. You know I like you. ”

"Your dad is a powerful character, maybe he is not mistaken, I will only bring you a burden, a person as good as you can find a girl who is a hundred times better than me. ”

"But fate made me meet you! Do you think God has his own arrangements in the dark?"

"So you think so, too?"

"No, Wenjun, you believe me, I never think you are a burden, you are my beloved gift. It was a gift from God. Even though your mind is not on the same line as ours, I am confident that I can bring you back to the right path. ”

"Why do you all think so? Where do you see that?"

"Everyone has a temperament in them, and the temperament you exude is what makes people feel like that. ”

Wenjun is the kind of person with strong intuition, she has already woken up when Chen Ke gets up in the morning, but she has been pretending to sleep with her eyes closed, she said in her heart: "Oh Chen Ke, I don't know what kind of person I am, I don't know what kind of person you are, or we don't know each other very well, but I love you." "It's always easy for love to fall into sweet or sad atmospheres, especially for someone like me. If you know me, you must know my heart, know all the thoughts in my heart, know all my sadness. ”

A tear slowly ran down her cheek. He's in the living room, he hasn't left yet, what should I do? I want to open the door and go out to see him say goodbye to him, my hands and feet are so numb and out of motivation, I want to say something to him, I think? Oh! This crazy thought, it's about to swallow me, this crazy thought, it's about to burn me! Why am I such a person whose mind wanders in outer space? I don't want it, I don't want it, I don't want it!

She chased him out anyway and hugged him with all her might. I don't know what the law of love is now, but I want to embrace your whole world! Her embrace was attached to him, the faint smell of ambergris. "What's wrong? I think you're holding too hard. Wenjun sucked vigorously and didn't speak. "Okay, I'm leaving, I'm going to be late if I don't leave. ”

"I'll be waiting for you at home. "Yes, my little lady. ”

He always called her like this: Little lady, little woman, am I really that small?

Standing in front of the window and looking at his departing back, Wenjun's heart was empty for no reason, and she cried.

Night has fallen. Chen Ke stood alone on the office building on the 24th floor, looking through the shutters at the crowd of ants below.

He picked up the phone and wanted to call her, but he didn't have the courage to press that button, he didn't know that Wenjun, who was staying alone in the villa, was also holding the phone at the moment and hesitating to call him.

Both of them are a complex of contradictions.

Half past five, six, half past six, oh why hasn't he come back yet, Wenjun looked out the window, she liked this position, propped her hands on the table with her cheeks, quietly, motionless for a long time. If others saw it, they would say that she was wandering in outer space.

So what?

Oh, why do I always live in pain? I don't want to! I want to escape, I want to escape, but where can I escape? I have to live wherever I flee, I am destined to be bumpy, let alone a girl like me, who is full of unstable cells.

If life is suffering, then why do people have to work so hard to live? Death? How simple it is to die! But death has to accept a severe pain. If I don't have to live, I don't have to accept the intense pain of death, and I don't have to go through so many painful tribulations!

Oh, that's not for me to decide! God knows, I hate my origin, I hate my family, and if I had a choice, I would choose not to come into this world! The world is not worth it at all......

Tears fell uncontrollably. She hurriedly spread out the manuscript paper, picked up the pen and wrote it down:

"You carry the scars of your life wandering alone in a foreign land

You say you're used to being alone, so what?

It seems to see through all the hypocrisy and unbearability of this world

Ren's heart is as cold as water, colder than the sky, and tears are like snow in June

What do you get in the end when you are attached to the glitz of red dust?

The past is all laughed and talked about, how many tears are in love in a lifetime

What the hell are you grabbing or are you wandering around

What exactly do you want, is it that you can't find a sense of direction

What exactly do you need someone who loves you and someone who wants to love

Is that so?

The past is in the wind and rain, and there is a lot of pain in my life

What the hell are you dreaming about, is it about his shadow?

What do you really love just for the moment's heartbeat?

What are you looking for? a vast and boundless dream or a shore that you can rely on

What is it?"

After writing it, I thought for a while, "I'm a fish, and I'm so desperate." Hence the title "Desperate Fish".

She turned on her phone, and there were only some pushes on the screen, no new text messages. Don't dare to call and send text messages, if he doesn't send me, he won't have it!

"Are you still busy?" she thought she could express her thoughts the shorter she was.

The text tone immediately sounded: "Well, don't wait for me tonight." ”

She was a little disappointed, but it was to be expected.

This night she went to the top of the Forbidden City. She didn't know why she was going there, she was supposed to take a walk around the villa.

"You wait here first, I'll call Xiaoyu. "Warm welcome from the waiter.

Wenjun sat there alone and grieved. After a while, Xiao Yu's unique voice shouted: "Yo, isn't this a little girl, which gust of wind blew you here?" As soon as Wenjun saw her, she hugged her like a sister and began to cry.

"No, what's wrong with this? can you tell Sister Xiaoyu?" Xiaoyu was a little confused.

"I'm sad. She sobbed and spat out.

"What's so sad? It's not falling this day, even if the sky falls, you can't hit you if you're so short, and there's a tall man to carry it!"

"You're not kidding. I was really upset. I ......" She looked at her face carefully, and felt that she was more beautiful and a little more charming than when they first met.

"I know, is it awkward with Chen Shao?"

"Oh no, yes, it's his parents. No, I don't know how to say it, I went to his house, and I felt that I would never be able to catch up with his class status, what should I do?

Xiao Yu smiled: "There is no need for factors to force you to catch up with him! It is natural for you to be annoyed! Who wants you to fall in love with him? How good it is to love an ordinary man." Wenjun's eyes were filled with tears.