1.3. Youthful thoughts
Niu Liang's mother will wake up with a smile when she thinks of her handsome son Niu Liang in her dream. This is her pride and her creation. I think that the husband and wife were not good-looking back then, but somehow they gave birth to such a handsome son. It seems a bit out of line with the laws of heredity, but if you look closely at the son's appearance, it is easy for the couple to discover their own characteristics from their son, but these characteristics are a kind of ugliness when they are manifested in themselves, and they become a kind of beauty when transferred to their son. Perhaps, this can only be attributed to the creation of mutation.
As a result, the couple regarded Niu Liang as a treasure given to them by God, and their love was boundless. Especially when catching Zhou, when Niu Liang grabbed a pen and a car among the many toys at once, they seemed to see their son who would be rich and wealthy in the future. The couple agreed that as long as their son likes to do something, they will never be hindered, and they must give full support to Niu Liang to develop freely from an early age to realize his potential. But Niu Liang did not become dissolute because of this, on the contrary, he showed a precocious characteristic: he was very sensible and never did anything that made his parents angry. Since kindergarten, his academic performance has been at the top of his class, and among his favorite toys, cars have always been his favorite. Whenever he saw his son playing with a car, Niu Liang's father would always smile and hint:
"This is the car they are in!"
Niu Liang's father has high hopes for his son, but he is not blessed to wait for his son's future. When Niu Liang was 8 years old, he was seriously injured in an accidental car accident and passed away a few days after being sent to the hospital. When Niu Liang's father was dying, he looked at Niu Liang's mother and said:
"Niu Liang is a child who doesn't need his parents to worry too much, after I go, you still have to follow our agreement, as long as Ah Liang likes to do, don't stop it, but give him full support, let him develop freely, and realize his maximum potential. ”
Niu Liang's mother whimpered for a while, and finally raised her head: "I will remember our agreement, I just blame God for being too unfair to you, so that you didn't enjoy your son's blessings!"
After Niu Liang's father went, Niu Liang's mother did not remarry for the sake of her son's healthy growth. With Niu Liang, he still lives in an ordinary courtyard house in Fuyuanmen, the ruins of the Old Summer Palace. Time flies, and society changes dramatically. The car that was originally sacred in Niu Liang's mother's heart is losing its sacred brilliance more and more—no longer a sign of the glory and wealth of the privileged class, but becoming more and more ordinary, and ordinary people can enjoy it regularly as long as they can spend a little money—and the taxi industry began to appear and prosper in this ancient capital of the East. At this time, the image of film and television stars has soared, often becoming popular all over the country overnight, becoming an idol admired by everyone. Niu Liang's mother is a movie fan, and since she was young, her interest has not decreased, but has become stronger and more peculiar. Gradually, looking at her more and more heroic son, she couldn't help but have such a wish in her heart: How good it would be to be a movie star's mother!
So Niu Liang's mother began to introduce her son to film and television stars in her daily life tutoring. One night, after Niu Liang finished his homework, he was looking at his beloved car in a daze, when suddenly Niu Liang's mother shouted from the living room: "Niu Liang——"
Niu Liang put down the car, came to the living room, and looked at his mother: "Mom, what's the matter?"
Niu Liang's mother looked at her son with a smile: "Is your homework done?"
Niu Liang: "It's done. ”
Niu Liang's mother: "Now that it's done, come and watch TV with my mother." ”
Niu Liang came to his mother and sat down, staring at the TV. An entertainment program is being broadcast on the TV, and several actors from the popular TV series have been invited to meet the audience. After watching it for a while, Niu Liang's mother said: "These actors are famous again! It's really beautiful—— hey, Niu Liang, what are you going to do in the future?"
Niu Liang: "I haven't thought about it yet." - But I wanted to drive a taxi from the bottom of my heart. ”
Niu Liang's mother: "What's the point of driving a taxi! I don't think you look worse than those actors on TV, you should be an actor and strive to become a big star!"
Niu Liang: "Good looks are not necessarily suitable for being an actor, the key is to have good acting skills!"
Niu Liang's mother: "It's not a problem! After graduating from middle school, you go to film school, won't you become a ?—— acting skills!"
Niu Liang no longer argued with his mother. On the one hand, he really hasn't thought deeply about what he wants to do in the future; on the other hand, he doesn't want to force his mother's will, because of his father's early death, he feels that it is not easy for his mother to raise him alone, and to be a mother and a father, he can't make his mother angry, filial piety is the basic quality of a sensible child.
Because of his mother's hint, Niu Liang has unconsciously had an eye on the situation in the film and television industry since then. However, what Niu Liang's mother didn't expect was that Niu Liang's further understanding of film and television life not only did not increase his interest in being a film and television star, but made him more and more afraid of this life. The information about film and television life from various channels such as movies, television, newspapers, and magazines made him feel that the film and television industry is a devil's cave and inhumane, and a normal person should not enter this kind of circle. Once, he and his mother sat in front of the TV to watch a "filming" sketch. Looking at it, Niu Liang's mood became worse and worse, and finally he suddenly got up from his seat, stepped in front of the TV, turned off the TV, and scolded: "It's really unreasonable!"
Niu Liang's mother felt inexplicable, and couldn't help asking, "Niu Liang, what's wrong with you?"
Niu Liang said indignantly: "Look at the director tossing that actor - it's like fooling a fool! This is not appropriate, that is not appropriate, how to perform, he himself seems to be able to understand but not speak! At the beginning, he shouted to stop, and after performing for a long time, he started again----- so many shouts and drinks, no matter how smart people are, they will be fooled by him!"
Niu Liang's mother breathed a sigh of relief: "This is a sketch, there are many exaggerations, how can you take it seriously? If this is the case, I will never want to finish a movie for the rest of my life!"
Niu Liang's anger subsided a little.
But his doubts about the life of cinema did not stop. Later, he discovered that an actor who has been performing other people's lives all his life, and in the end he has lost even his own real life! Living in the shadow of others all his life! This discovery made him finally decide to abandon the life path that his mother chose for him. He had a deep premonition that if he followed the path of life chosen by his mother, the pain of his life would be unimaginable. Although it is the dream of many people to be a movie star in this day and age, he feels that this kind of life is not for him.
Then, he reflected on the meaning of his life as a "brother to be" who sprouted because of his hobby of playing with cars since he was a child. He first discovered that his personality likes a free and innovative life, and the taxi industry can meet his needs, with a lot of freedom and room for innovation. He also discovered a phenomenon of mediocrity in the taxi industry and found a wonderful idea to break out of this mediocrity. He wants to be unconventional in this industry and be determined to reform, and this kind of reform and innovation will not be hindered in any way, because this kind of reform and innovation is only his own business, and it will not hinder anyone, and this is the freedom of self-employment in taxis! He wants to use this freedom to create his own legendary life, not to perform other people's legends! Whenever he thinks of his wonderful ideas, he is excited in his heart, and he can't wait to immediately put away his schoolbag, rush out of the school, and engage in that sacred cause!
But when he thought of his mother, and of her ardent hope, his passion vanished, and was replaced by a deep anguish. He didn't know how to tell his mother about it, let alone imagine the serious consequences if her mother knew about his thoughts, and the only thing he could do was hide it from her. In order not to let his mother know from anyone else, he did not even mention this idea of his to his best classmates, he buried it deep in his heart, and no one knew about it except himself. It wasn't until the eve of the college entrance examination, the afternoon after school that he was going to hand in the college entrance examination tomorrow, that he told his deep thoughts to these best classmates!
Whenever several neighbors chatted together and talked about their plans for the future of their children, Niu Liang's mother always said confidently: "I hope that we Niu Liang will go to the film academy." ”
Others are quick to chimed in:
"Your Niu Liang should indeed go to the film academy, otherwise he will be really condescending!"
"If Niu Liang becomes a big star in the future, our neighbors will also have a lot of light!"
said a word, Niu Liang's mother was happy in her heart. And these neighborhood discussions have added a lot of invisible pressure to Niu Liang's choice.