I Am Your Daughter (Sad Story) translated by Zhang Bao

Dear Mom,

I'm in heaven. I would love to be your daughter. I don't quite understand what's going on. I was so excited when I began to realize my existence. I was in a dark but cozy place. I saw that I had fingers and toes.

But I'm not yet formed, and it's still a long time before I can leave the environment in front of me. I spend most of the day thinking or sleeping. Even on my earliest day, I felt that special bond between me and you.

Sometimes I hear you crying, and I cry with you. Sometimes you scream or scream and cry. I hear Daddy yelling at you. I'm sad and hope you get better soon. I don't know why you're crying so much.

One day you almost cried all day. I feel very sorry for you. I can't imagine why you're so upset. On the same day, the most terrible thing happened. A very cold monster broke into my warm and cozy place, I was so scared that I started screaming, but you didn't try to help me. Maybe you've never heard of me.

As I screamed, screamed and screamed, the monster came towards me, closer and closer. I screamed, "Mommy, Mommy, please help me! Mommy, help me." ”

Fear held me back, and I kept screaming so much that I couldn't scream anymore. The monster began to tear my arm apart, and the pain was unbearable and indescribable. But the fear wasn't over, I didn't know how to beg for it to stop, and at the scream of my fear, it tore my leg apart again. I was in terrible pain, and I was about to die. I know I'll never see your face, and I'll never hear you say how much you love me.

I want you to never cry again, I have a lot of thoughts to make you happy. But all of these dreams are about to be shattered. Although I felt extreme pain and fear, the greatest pain was that my heart was broken.

I just want to be your daughter, but that's no longer possible. I was dying and struggling in agony. I can only imagine what they did to you. I can only say to you Mom I love you before I die, but I don't know if you can understand my words.

Soon, I was out of breath and could no longer say these words. I'm dead. I felt myself ascending, being carried by a huge angel to a vast and wonderful place. But I'm still crying because my body doesn't exist anymore.

The angels took me to a good place. I started to rejoice, and I asked the angel what killed me. He said to me, "It's an abortion, I'm sorry, because I know what it's like." "I don't know what an abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster.

I am writing to say I love you and to tell you how much I want to be your daughter. I live tenaciously. I want to live. My desire was so strong, but I couldn't, because the monster was too powerful. It tore my arms and legs, and finally my entire body, leaving me unable to survive. I just want you to know that I'm trying to want to be with you. I don't want to die, and, Mom, please watch that abortion monster.

Mom, I love you, but I hate the pain and suffering that you go through that makes me die. Please be extra careful.

Love you, your daughter.