Chapter 191: Untitled
On the streets of a foreign country, Liang Shu walked quickly with Liang Jiujiu in his arms.
Behind him, there has been a man following unhurriedly, his facial features are three-dimensional, his eyes are deep, but the whole expression looks a little strange, tragic and painful, and the pain is mixed with the rest of his life.
Liang Shu only made eye contact with Liang Jiujiu for only a second when he picked him up, and then turned around and left.
Liang Jiujiu leaned on her shoulder, and kept looking at the uncle who looked a little pitiful, and behind him was the place where he had taken piano lessons for three months.
Jiu Jiu asked Liang Shu, "Doesn't Ah Shu still have to pay more tuition to the teacher?" and my school bag-"
"Don't. ”
The car was parked on a relatively quiet street here, and it took about ten minutes to walk, pass through two blocks, and then turn a corner.
When Jiujiu looked up, he found that he was still following them.
She hugged Liang Shu's neck tightly, her expression was very puzzled, "Ah Shu, that uncle is still with us." ”
The rear door opened, and Liang Shu put her in the safety seat, and while sending her a seat belt, he said, "Let's not talk to strangers in the future, let alone let strangers touch you, okay?"
Jiujiu wrinkled her nose, she was a little aggrieved, and said, "I'...... Just look at him pitiful. ”
"Then I'll add one more, and don't be overflowing with sympathy, okay?" The cool posture was similar to that of the morning, she supported the door frame with one hand and the door with the other, bent over, her eyes slightly tilted, and caught a glimpse of the man standing a few meters away from the car.
Liang Jiujiu followed her gaze, of course, her vision was blocked for most of the time, and she could only see his wrinkled shirt slightly.
Liang Shu said, "Do you think he is pitiful?"
Jiujiu nodded.
"The shirt on his body, 750,000 forints, is equal to two months' salary of your mother...... And that watch, converted into RMB—"
Liang Jiujiu flattened her mouth, looking like she was about to cry, she interrupted Liang Shu's words in a low voice, "Ah Shu, don't say it." ”
"Do you still think he's pitiful?"
Jiu Jiu glanced outward, still wanting to nod subconsciously, but immediately shook his head halfway through the nod, "I don't think so." ”
Liang Shu touched her head and hooked her lips, "Okay, then let's go home." ”
She closed the rear door, didn't look at the person standing in front of her, opened the cab and sat in.
The car started and she looked up to see the man standing in front of the car.
He just stared at her in the car.
Liang Shu honked his horn twice, but the other party did not react.
Her eyes narrowed and she slowly stepped on the accelerator, but Gu Hansheng, who was standing a few meters away, had no intention of walking away.
Liang Jiujiu saw that there was still someone standing in front of her, and was puzzled, but when she saw the car driving towards the uncle quickly, she was shocked and stretched out her little hand to cover her lips, and reminded Liang Shu in surprise, "Mom-"
Gu Hansheng looked at the car that was driving towards him, and he didn't react.
He only had her in his sights.
He didn't believe she would just drive him to death.
Finally, he looked down at the bumper, which was only a few centimeters from his knee, his eyes flashed, and the corners of his lips bloomed a little curvature.
Soon, the sound of the car door slamming shut was heard.
He watched as she walked towards him.
Behind her are bits and pieces of light and shadow cast by the sun through the leaves, and every point of light that falls on her is just right, a bit like a scene from a movie.
And the expression on her face, even if it is indifferent and angry, it is vivid and vivid.
He had imagined meeting her again after death.
It's not as good as it is at the moment.
In this way, it is really good, Gu Hansheng thought.
Gu Hansheng couldn't hear what she said, he only stared at her with moist eyes, like a fish that was about to dry up from lack of water finally got his water.
He called her name in a hoarse voice: Ah Shu.
Liang Shu's brows furrowed, and he repeated what he had just said again, "Can you let it go?" Mr. Gu. ”
The thought pulled him back.
He rolled his throat and reached for her hand, but she avoided it, his eyes flashed, his expression was a little hurt, but he still looked at her, "Mrs. Gu......"
Liang Shu smiled, her face was very calm, and she interrupted him, "We are divorced." ”
She saw that there was a layer of mist in his eyes, and added lightly: "As early as five years ago." ”
He stood silently, looking at her in a trance.
Divorced?
He opened his lips, and his voice was hoarse, "Mrs. Gu ......"
Liang Shu was a little helpless, she twisted her eyebrows and closed her eyes, the anger when she opened her eyes was gone, and now only calm remained, she said, "If you have to repeat what you say to communicate with you now before you can understand, then okay, you listen, Mr. Gu, I and you, we divorced five years ago." ”
She leaned slightly to the side and leaned against the front of the car, "If you feel guilty because you thought I died in that fire, then you don't have to, I took the initiative to go there that night, it has nothing to do with you, and you don't need to have any burden." ”
The words are flat in tone, with little ups and downs.
But she was like this, which made Gu Hansheng gradually feel powerless from the bottom of his heart.
Hating and resenting a person is still a feeling.
Now like this, it's really a strange way.
But it doesn't matter, it has already exceeded the scene imagined by Gu Hansheng, she is alive and healthy now, and they also have a lovely daughter, which has been given to him by God.
Gu Hansheng's fingers hanging down his side moved, and his eyes touched the little head that was trying to poke his head from the back seat of the car to the front seat, his eyes suddenly softened a lot, "Why did you go so fast just now......?"
"Yes, Jiujiu she has nothing to do with you, she is not your daughter, Mr. Gu, don't get me wrong. Liang Shu said.
But for Gu Hansheng, what she said was and what she didn't mean was no longer important.
The information said that Liang Jiujiu is four years old, and she is not in good health, although she looks eccentric, she is actually thinner than children of the same age.
When Liang Jiujiu was first born, she was very healthy and very standard.
Shen Lu had a good life during pregnancy, and Jiu Jiu was also fed very well in the two or three months after she was born, if there were no later changes, Jiu Jiu's body would be better than now.
But in the first year they came to Budapest, the three-month-old child was weaned off breast milk and had to drink formula, and she didn't adapt at first, didn't drink it, and cried all day long.
Later, after a long time, I could barely eat something.
Liang Shu was not in a good state at that time, and taking care of the children every day consumed almost all his mind.
Those two years were extremely difficult.
If it weren't for Mo Xiangsi and Liang Xiang, she might not be able to survive.
Now that she sees Gu Hansheng, why can she be so light-hearted?
Ah Yun rescued her from the fire, and she was in great distress.
And in the two years she spent in Budapest, she was the survivor of the catastrophe.
For the rest of his life, everything in the past, whether it is people or things, is not so important.
Gu Hansheng looked at the pair of sparkling eyes in the car, and then his gaze fell on the woman's face, his eyelids moved, and his tone was choked, "She...... It was lovely. ”
"Thank you. The corners of his lips were slightly curled.
She looked at the blue-gray under the man's eyes and the red blood in his sockets, the eye sockets were deep, and the eyes had traces of water, but they were still dark and deep, but the contours of the face were very clear, and they were very thin.
Liang Shu said, "Mr. Gu, no matter what purpose you are coming here, my attitude is clear enough, let's return to the bridge, the road to the road, I am not dead, you are not wrong, at most, we were not suitable at the beginning, I want to open it, I hope you also want to open some, and you can still live your life of fresh clothes and angry horses in the future." ”
For Gu Hansheng, her words were a poison that pierced the intestines, entering his lungs from his ears and eroding his bone marrow.
It was as if every word was like a sharp arrow, and every time he listened to one, he would prick his heart.
Does it hurt?
It's painful.
But when it hurts, it is accompanied by pleasure, and such a real and vivid Ah Shu makes him so moved.
Can...... Gu Hansheng stared at her persistently and said, "Ah Shu, I'm thirty-five years old. ”
By the beginning of November, it would be thirty-six.
Without her, how could he live his life in fresh clothes?
No, you can't.
But Liang Shu raised his eyebrows and smiled, "So what?"
The afternoon sun was dazzling, but in this quiet street shaded by trees, Gu Hansheng only felt cold.
He set up a psychological achievement for himself in his heart, it doesn't matter, she is still alive is God's greatest forgiveness for him, and he doesn't care about anything else.
......
The car restarted, Liang Jiujiu rolled down the window, she pulled her small hand on the window and looked at Gu Hansheng standing on the side of the road, as if she noticed something, Gu Hansheng also looked at her, that look-
Jiu Jiu quickly retracted her head, she looked straight ahead, why did she think that uncle was about to cry again?
Such a big person, is he still a crybaby?
Still, she felt so pitiful about him.
Liang Jiujiu tilted his head, and tried to reach out and pat the back of the driver's seat, "Ah Shu, that uncle, do you know each other?"
Liang Shu glanced at her from the rearview mirror, and found that she was squirming around in her seat, not knowing what she was doing, she raised her voice slightly, "Jiujiu, can you sit in your place and don't move around?" ”
The little man who was still moving immediately sat upright, showered and blinked, "Sit down." ”
Jiujiu sighed, "That uncle is so handsome." ”
It was between waiting for the red light that Liang Shu glanced back at her, "Little nymphomaniac." ”
Liang Jiujiu grinned, leaning on the window to look at the scenery, she suddenly said to Liang Shu, "If it's this uncle, then I hope Ah Shu won't refuse him." ”
"Tuck your chin away," Liang Shu reminded her in the front seat, and Jiu Jiu immediately withdrew her face.
Liang Shu said, "What do children know, we are so poor, people don't look down on us." ”
"But godmother is very rich......" she frowned.
"Is godmother's money our money?" Liang Shu asked her rhetorically.
Jiu Jiu shook his head, "No." ”
Soon, she sighed like an adult: "I just feel that uncle should like me very much, then I won't be Ah Shu's oil bottle." ”
These words suddenly made Liang Shu's eyes wet, in the past few years, she always felt that she owed Jiujiu, this little angel-like person is not her oil bottle, to a certain extent, she is her spiritual sustenance.
It's the little angel who accompanies her through the long dark days.
On the contrary, she owes Jiujiu too much.
Liang Shu raised his hand and pressed the corners of his eyes, forcing back the tears, and then said to Liang Jiujiu, "Don't worry, I will find you a stepfather who likes you very much, and I won't let you be wronged." ”
Jiujiu snorted, she collapsed in her child safety seat in a melancholy, wrenching her fingers, "But you've been on a blind date for a lot, and it's still unsuccessful." ”
"Don't be afraid, there will be one tomorrow, and you will always find it. ”
Although Jiujiu has grown up safely to this day, she has always lacked her father's link in her life, which is not good for the growth of children.
For a long time, if the role of a father is missing, it will always be imperfect.
And Liang Shu has become more and more transparent over the years.
The reason why she was able to start with Gu Hansheng in the first place was a mixture of various factors, which was too complicated.
That kind of relationship, it is enough to have an experience once in a lifetime.
She has long passed the age of dreaming, and all the way, it has not been smooth, and the people around her have left one after another, and it is good enough for her to live as peacefully as she is now.
Now her biggest wish is to work hard to give Jiujiu a healthy family and find someone who loves Jiujiu and can spend the rest of her life.
It's just that her blind dates in the past two years have been a little strange.
This made Liang Shu very distressed.
......
Gu Hansheng watched the car go away, and the whole person was like a wife stone.
Ji Shen drove the car over and slowly parked next to him.
He got out of the car, opened the back door, Gu Hansheng looked down at his hands, then pressed the pocket of his trousers, and finally raised his head to look at Ji Shen, "Is there any smoke?"
Ji Shen shook out one from the cigarette case and handed it to Gu Hansheng.
Gu Hansheng looked at the intersection where there was nothing, and suddenly waved his hand again, "Forget it." ”
Before leaving for the airport last night, he specially shaved the newly grown stubble and took a good shower, using the shower gel and men's perfume that he once liked, but in fact, he had not slept peacefully for many days and nights, and his mental state always seemed to be bad.
At this time, he should find a hotel to sleep well and then make plans.
He is still Gu Hansheng, not the one who is completely unprepared.
On the plane, he didn't sleep for up to ten hours of flight.
He wanted to see her so much.
During those five years, he switched back and forth between dreams, hallucinations, and reality, and he was "crazy" for a long time.
It was the year that Liang Shu just left.
That year, there were no servants in Mansion Zero, only him and "her", and he did everything between the two of them himself.
He's been living with the person he fantasizes about.
He gets up early and goes to work, he will match the clothes that "her" will wear today, remind her to go out and go to crowded places when brushing her teeth with "her" in the bathroom, and prepare two cutlery when eating.
He always sees "her" in the kitchen, and he always reminds "her" not to appear in a place with a lot of smoke.
In the evening, he would take out the original book and read the book he liked to "her".
He is even more
Detachment from this state is in the second year of Qingming.
He remembered that "she" said the night before that he would go to pay tribute to Jiang Pingsheng the next day, and "she" at that time was already in the third trimester, and he promised "her" to accompany her.
That day, Gu Hansheng pushed all the schedules, he planned to accompany "her" to the cemetery in the morning to pay tribute to Jiang Pingsheng, if "her" physical condition allowed, in the afternoon he wanted to take "her" to Hanshan Temple to ask for a peace charm for their two children who were about to be born.
It was on this day that he took "her" to the suburban cemetery.
It was there, one second ago Gu Hansheng felt that the fingers held in the palm of his hand were so soft and real, but the next second he saw the name "her" on the tombstone.
Then the "she" who had been standing quietly beside him also disappeared.
At that moment, the world collapsed.
Even with his memory, he was confused, and there was no one around him all along, and it was only him from beginning to end.
After the "madness", there was silence for a while.
Gu Hansheng took the initiative to receive psychological treatment.
Although the effect is minimal, it is better than nothing.
So the days went by day by day, and he thought about the day when his end came, and he thought that he was calm and looking forward to it, because he wanted to meet Ah Shu so much.
He accounts for five of the eight major sufferings in the world, and life and death are the top two among the five.
And life ushered in a turning point in the fifth year.
If he hadn't seen the living coolness, this year, Gu Hansheng felt that he would not be able to survive it.
......
Ji Shen had already booked a hotel for him, and at this moment, Gu Hansheng was taking a nap in the car.
He knew that the front would be long, but it didn't matter.
On the plane, he thought about a lot of situations.
If she was already married and had a new family, would he smile and bless her?
There is hardly any hesitation on this question, and he will not bless.
Not only will he not bless, but he will also use means to snatch her and destroy her family, although Budapest is a little farther away, he will always have a way.
Male junior, if it were her, he would be willing to be a once.
Gu Hansheng rarely rested better.
When I woke up, night had fallen.
Outside the huge floor-to-ceiling windows are the bustling city lights, and as long as he thinks of the cool one of the thousands of lights, he is calm for no reason.
The boulder in my heart also fell to the ground.
He went downstairs to have some dinner, and then went to find Mo Xiangsi first, and then went to Liangshu tomorrow.
In the restaurant, Ji Shen sat opposite him and said, "Miss Mo injured Jing Shao, and the knife was inserted into Jing Shao's shoulder, and he was still lying in the hospital at this time," paused, and he said what Gu Hansheng wanted to ask, "Probably Miss Mo was dissatisfied with Jing Shao for leaking his wife's traces, so she ...... it."
Jing Yu was injured and hospitalized, and there was no one to accompany him.
Gu Hansheng brought a fruit basket to see him, but this time he was unlucky and didn't meet Mo Xiangsi.
......
Early the next morning, Liang Shu sent Liang Jiujiu to the kindergarten here and told her not to bully the children.
Liang Jiujiu promised well.
Before leaving, Liang Jiujiu kissed Liang Shu's cheek, winked at her, and made another gesture to cheer her up, "I hope Ah Shu can go on a successful blind date today, come on!"