Sun Lei was absent-minded all day long, always feeling that something bad would happen.

When he was about to get off work, Liu Tao came over and whispered to Sun Lei: "Doctor Sun, let's eat together after work." When Sun Lei heard Liu Tao's words, his eyes suddenly widened, you must know that Liu Tao is also a well-known iron rooster in the office, let's put it this way! In the whole office, he invited the least number of guests, but he went to the dinner party was the most, this old boy has been there with his face, if it weren't for his living treasure-like personality to enliven the atmosphere, let alone eat, others may not bring him to drink water, but this time he offered to invite to dinner, for Sun Lei, this is tantamount to a thunderbolt from the sky, which shocked Sun Lei so much that his brain was buzzing.

"What's the matter?is there something?" Sun Lei asked with a wary face, yes, Sun Lei is a face of vigilance, as the saying goes, there must be a demon when things go wrong, just this iron rooster took the initiative to invite him to dinner, you said that he didn't believe in ghosts, not to mention that Sun Lei, as a materialist, didn't believe in ghosts.

"It's okay! It's just a long time since I've eaten with you, so let's all have a meal together today. Liu Tao said with a twinkle in his eyes. I'll get together with your sister, you just set up a rice seedling last night to let me drink, and today you said that you haven't eaten together for a long time? This old nerve is probably sick again. Regarding Liu Tao's words, Sun Lei generally doesn't even believe in punctuation, this old Wang Ba must be looking for something to do.

"If you have something, just say it, otherwise I'll go home, how can I have the time to accompany you to soak a wine basket on the wine table. Sun Lei said. "No, we need to have a good talk. Liu Tao said anxiously. "What are you talking about?" "What do you think of today's report?" Liu Tao lay on Sun Lei's desk.

"What do you think? I read it with Li Youguo's mobile phone!" Sun Lei deliberately avoided this topic. "Go, go, you know what I mean. "They are all colleagues in the same office, how can Liu Tao not know what Sun Lei is thinking. "Why are you so concerned about this?" asked Sun Lei.

"That time in '03 I went to the front line, and I've seen too much powerlessness. Liu Tao seemed to be immersed in the memories, and then said: "Do you know? That year, I went to support with my colleagues, went to three people, and came back two, I was lucky not to be infected, but in addition to the colleagues who failed to come back, another colleague still has to endure the pain caused by the sequelae. Liu Tao said calmly. Sun Lei heard a hint of trembling from his calm tone, and the cynical and stingy colleague's eyes were red when he said these words.

Sun Lei said: "Brother, why don't you go out and say." This is the first time that Sun Lei has called Brother Liu Tao since his work, Liu Tao also said that Sun Lei would call him brother before, which seems kind, but Sun Lei can't call it, how can this old man be a brother who is disrespectful to the old, and it will be embarrassing to call him out. But now it's different, hearing Liu Tao talk about what happened back then, Sun Lei couldn't help but call him brother, he felt that Liu Tao could afford this title.

The two came to a small restaurant, sat opposite each other, the dishes were quickly served, Sun Lei opened the wine bottle, poured a full cup and handed it to Liu Tao, and then gave himself another glass, and then said: "Brother, I salute you." After saying that, he drank it all. "You kid, are you curious about what happened back then?" Liu Tao scolded with a smile.

Sun Lei had to admire Liu Tao's wisdom, this old man could see that he was curious, could he be obvious? Liu Tao took a sip of his wine glass, and then said slowly: "The epidemic of that year came too suddenly, and many comrades in the medical profession were caught off guard, not to mention ordinary citizens who did not have a complete understanding of the epidemic, and when everyone reflected it, things were already unimaginably bad, in** At that time, there were many doctors, nurses, volunteers and other spontaneous support for the hard-hit areas of the epidemic, I was one of them, at that time I had just joined the work not long ago, and your current situation is similar, and I was about to get married to catch up with the outbreak of the epidemic, the hospital organized a medical team to support, I signed up without thinking about it at all, and finally the support list came down, my fiancée was also among them, the night before departure, my fiancée and I quarreled for the first time because of disagreement, we both wanted to persuade each other not to go, but neither of us could convince anyone。 Under the leadership of Vice President Wang, we rushed to the city and set off with other comrades from the hospital to rush to the hard-hit area, and now I often think of the depressing atmosphere at that time, on the way from the city to the hard-hit area, everyone did not talk much, everyone closed their eyes and recuperated, but I know that everyone's mood is heavy, because each of us understands that the future of this trip is uncertain. ”

For the disaster that Liu Tao said, Sun Lei also had a deep feeling, that year Sun Lei was going to school in the town's junior high school, and suddenly the school announced martial law for the whole school, no one was allowed to leave the school without authorization, and no stranger was allowed to enter the school, even the teachers in the school were not allowed to go out at will, the school's playground was on the shelf of a cauldron, many teachers were busy around the cauldron, some added firewood and some put medicine, and waited until the important boil in the pot, and the radio notified the whole school teachers and students to line up to drink Chinese medicine, once a day in the morning and evening, such days were repeated for more than a month, and one day suddenly returned to a normal stateAt that time, Sun Lei only knew that the battle against the epidemic had been won with the joint efforts of everyone, and he didn't know how many unknown heroes like Liu Tao had paid.

"Brother, what happened later?" Sun Lei asked, not that Sun Lei was curious, on the contrary, he didn't want to ask this question, but he knew that this question must have been held in Liu Tao's heart for a long time, and if Liu Tao didn't find someone to talk to, it might have a certain impact on his body and psychology.

Liu Tao picked up the wine glass, took a sip of wine, and then said: "We are the first batch of medical teams to support, because of lack of experience, many people are infected, but every member of the medical team is working hard, saving people while saving themselves, encouraging patients and cheering each other at the same time, no one knows when death will come, everyone is holding on in fear." Sun Lei listened quietly, and seeing that Liu Tao's wine glass was empty, Sun Lei stood up, holding the wine bottle in both hands and respectfully pouring wine for Liu Tao.

Liu Tao looked at the wine glass in front of him and pondered, and after a while he continued: "Do you know? My fiancée was the first medical worker to die of infection, and I watched her weaken in front of me day by day and was powerless.

Sun Lei thought about it for a long time, but he didn't know how to answer this question, in fact, Sun Lei and Liu Tao both knew in their hearts that Liu Tao's fiancée would not give up because of Liu Tao's stopping, some things were doomed from the beginning, just like Liu Tao's fiancée, from the moment she signed up, she would not change because of anything, Liu Tao couldn't, and neither could her parents.

Liu Tao trembled and took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it and took a deep breath, which calmed down a little, and put the cigarette case on the table.

This is the first time Sun Lei has seen Liu Tao smoking, really, the first time in the past six or seven years. Sun Lei is a non-smoker, and he usually hates others smoking in front of him, but this time Sun Lei actually wanted to have one for the first time. Sun Lei picked up a cigarette from the table, took out a cigarette and lit it, and inhaled it vigorously like Liu Tao, choking him until he coughed up tears.

Liu Tao calmed down a little, and then said: "Our hospital went to three people to support at that time, and the result was that my fiancée was sleeping in a foreign country, and I watched her through the glass when she was dying. Vice President Wang came back with a body injury, and retired in less than two years, I heard that he has been tormented by sequelae all these years, and I didn't dare to visit him when I heard the news, I felt like a deserter, and I didn't dare to face those warriors with a body of glory. Liu Tao's eyes turned red when he said this, and he lowered his head in pain. "Brother, you are not a deserter, you are a hero, everyone who works hard for the prosperity of the motherland is a hero, no matter how big or small the merit is, it doesn't matter how much you pay, everyone is worthy of respect. Sun Lei said sincerely.

"But I have been blaming myself all these years, why is it not me but my fiancée who died, why does Vice President Wang have to endure endless torture every day at such an old age? ”

"Brother, you don't have to blame yourself, you can stand up in the face of disaster, you are a well-deserved hero, all the people you have rescued or you have not saved will be grateful to you, everyone who died because of the disaster or was taken back by you from the hands of death will sincerely bless you, they all hope that you can live happily instead of living in the shadow of pain. ”

To tell the truth, Sun Lei was completely conquered by Liu Tao, this half-old man who usually seems obscene and likes to be greedy for small and cheap, peel off his bells and whistles disguise, he is a man who stands up to the sky, but this man is too good at disguise, he uses those miscellaneous clothes to cover up his pain, and now peel off those disguises, this bloody man cries helplessly like a child.