Chapter 10: The Past
When he walked towards the unit door, He Manzhou still couldn't help but recall the weird dream just now.
After He Sheng's disappearance, He Manzhou often had dreams related to his father, sometimes when he was a child, he and Lao He visited the antique market together, sometimes they worked together in the Tianwentang Museum, and of course, there were some times, she would dream of Lao He's disappearance.
That nightmare was always accompanied by rain and a great thunder. He Manzhou was imprisoned in place, and could only watch He Sheng's figure get farther and farther away, and finally turned into an uncatchable black shadow, completely disappearing into a dream, and when she woke up, only tears were left on her face.
However, those nightmares are always not very real when he wakes up, and all He Manzhou can remember is the struggle and helplessness in the dream, and more details are not remembered. Except when she first got the news of Lao He's disappearance, she rarely dreamed of these things later.
But the nightmare just now was too clear and too real, and it was obviously too weird.
He Manzhou has learned a little bit of psychology, and has also read Sigmund Freud's "The Interpretation of Dreams", dreams are related to the subconscious, can reflect the psychological state of human beings, and can analyze the part of the truth that has been ignored through the details of dreams. It is normal for her to dream of a rainy night, after all, Lao He disappeared on a rainy night, whether it is a withered branch forest or a torrential downpour, there are traces to follow, such a psychological suggestion is too heavy, it will inevitably become a nightmare entangled in the depths of her heart, and after years of years, it will become a source that cannot be dispersed.
But what is the desert and the mysterious temple in the dream just now?
These scenes should not appear for no reason, what kind of metaphors are there for the woman in the white veil in the yellow sand, the girl holding the net bottle for sacrifice, and the tower of Babel full of mysterious symbols.
Why did Lao He's figure appear in the desert and fall into a mirage?
Later, the temple that loomed in the rain curtain and finally collapsed suddenly, what does it represent?
He Manzhou recalled his experience from childhood to adulthood, and carefully thought about all the details, but still didn't come up with any clue. This is clearly just a dream, and there can be countless explanations behind it, but for some reason, she feels that all this is not accidental, but like...... Some kind of hint.
How strange, but when Lao He's codex appeared, she suddenly dreamed of these.
Whether it was empathy or coincidence, He Manzhou felt for no reason that maybe this dream was related to Lao He's disappearance.
After all, the more abrupt things are, the more unlikely they are to have no cause and no effect.
Without any thoughts, He Manzhou walked through the community with a heavy heart, the street lamps reflected the dim light and shadow, the night was already very deep, there were few people in the courtyard of the community, and the lights of every household were much darker.
In the middle of winter, the wind was carrying the snow with her, and she wrapped her collar tightly.
Too many things happened this night, the road on Biyun Street was too uneven, and the batch of exhibits in the Tianwentang Museum also took He Manzhou a long time. In order to solve these sudden tasks as soon as possible, she spent the whole night busy, and did not spare any free rest at all. In addition, with Luo Xixi present, it was not easy for her to go directly to the notes left by He Sheng, so at this moment, He Manzhou's whole heart was adjusted, and she couldn't wait to go home immediately to see what kind of clues were left in the codex.
When He Manzhou stepped into the corridor, the sensor light turned on.
The confusion lingered, and she shook her head, not allowing herself to continue thinking.
"Don't think about it, don't think about it, dreams are all opposite, what are you thinking. Haven't you already found Lao He's notes today, this is the most important clue, He Manzhou, you cheer me up, Lao He is waiting for you to save him!"
The girl's voice is clear and beautiful, with a slight tremor at the end.
The sound of this sentence was not loud, just like a whisper, but because the corridor was too quiet, it left a small echo.
And this is like a spell, which really reassured He Manzhou, so she went upstairs all the way, she took out the key and unscrewed the security door, pushed the door and walked in.
This is a small apartment, two-bedroom layout, modern minimalist decoration style, furniture is white tones with log tones, very IKEA model room feeling, in fact, most of the objects are also He Manzhou from IKEA.
The He family's old house is in the courtyard in the second ring road, not far from the Tianwentang Museum, and it is also very convenient to go to Z University, He Manzhou lived with his father before, and this house was specially bought by He Sheng for his daughter.
He Manzhou's mother died early, He Manzhou was raised by He Sheng, and the father and daughter really lived a period of dependent life, which directly led to He Manzhou being very dependent on his father and telling him everything. Lao He is an old pedant, without the unique romance of liberal arts students, but he has thoroughly learned the euphemism and reserve of literati and scholars.
In a word, it is clear that the feelings in the bottom of my heart are so strong that there are ten points, but I only show five or six points, and in the end, He Manzhou may only have two or three points left. Even if he is good to his daughter, He Shengdu's expression is simple and rude, because he is too straight, he often makes He Manzhou angry and funny, and he deeply feels that he chased a goddess-like person as his wife, which is really an unsolved mystery in history that is more complicated than history.
He Manzhou said in his heart that what girls want is clearly a problem that can be solved by a few pieces of candy, but He Sheng has to spend a lot of money, and he can't hit it in the right place, so he doesn't know what to say about his father. But no matter how disgusted she was, and when she smacked it carefully, all those feelings turned into indescribable moving.
This apartment, for example, is the best example of this.
When He Manzhou graduated from university, He Sheng didn't say hello to anyone, and took it upon himself to use his savings over the years to buy this apartment for his daughter, and he even single-handedly managed the decoration of the home.
He Manzhou only remembered that during that time, his father went out early and returned late, and he didn't know what he was busy with, when she asked, He Sheng just pushed the glasses frame and played haha good-naturedly, which made He Manzhou very inexplicable, and deeply felt that his father's heart only had work, and his biological daughter's undergraduate graduation ceremony once in a lifetime, he could put on a look of not caring at all.
It wasn't until he received the key to the new house that He Manzhou was really stunned.
She couldn't have imagined that her father not only didn't take her graduation ceremony seriously, but also gave such a big gift, and for a while she didn't know whether to lament Professor He's domineering president's upper body, the way he spoiled people was simple and rude, or laughed at him for being too arbitrary - obviously he could attend the graduation ceremony, and he was already very satisfied.
Because of these, He Manzhou later laughed at his father.
"Lao He, I have to criticize you a few words, people say that my daughter is my father's intimate little padded jacket, why did you get to me, you are still in a hurry to drive your daughter out......?
Regarding his daughter's jokes, He Sheng just smiled good-naturedly.
"You're not a kid anymore, there are some things you don't plan for yourself, I have to plan for you. Besides, it's not a bad thing to have your own house, usually my father is busy with work, and most of his savings are spent on the Tianwentang Museum, and he hasn't done anything for you, so I still have the ability to take care of you, how can I watch you suffer. ”
In this regard, He Manzhou was quite unimpressed, her big bright and clear eyes were bent, and there was a bit of arrogance in her cunning, and her tone was even more coquettish.
"I don't care, Lao He, you are just such a daughter as me, you don't care who cares about me? If you want to use a new house, you will send me away, I tell you, there is no door, I just rely on you." ”
He Sheng couldn't help his quirky little girl, seeing that she didn't even take the key, he had to ask, then you tell your father, what do you want to do?
At that time, He Manzhou joked with He Sheng with a smile, saying that if he didn't move, the house would be empty, and it would be better to be empty for ten or eight years, unless Lao He didn't want her, otherwise she would live at home, eat and drink for nothing all day long, and be a rice worm with peace of mind, the kind that was chubby in vain, anyway, Lao He would not dislike her.
Such arrogance is always so justified in He Manzhou's mouth.
Most of the pampered children don't know the height of the sky, and they can't think of the so-called impermanence of the world, He Manzhou once thought that he could always be so arrogant and do what he wanted to do boldly, after all, Lao He's love is so moisturizing and silent, he has already arranged everything, and he doesn't want to leave any pressure to his daughter.
He just hopes that He Manzhou will live the life she wants, not be stumped by firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, and don't be constrained by secular standards and values, she can follow her heart and be an independent painter, enjoy the beauty of life without pressure, and only see the good side of everything, and be happy with peace of mind.
Now that I think about it, it's really a prophecy.
When Lao He was still there, He Manzhou lived in the courtyard, but in the past year, he was probably afraid of seeing things and thinking about people, so He Manzhou moved here. When the two of them lived, the huge courtyard suddenly emptied, and every detail was a memory, reminding He Manzhou all the time that her father was no longer there, and now only she was left.
This apartment is also empty, the interior is very quiet, the moonlight shines through the gaps in the curtains that are not tightly drawn, casting a faint light on the wooden floor, He Manzhou sighed lowly, changed his shoes at the entrance, and twisted the wall lamp casually.
The dim yellow light dispels the darkness around it, adding more smoke to the room. A cute blue and white short kitten jumped out of the corner, looking straight at He Manzhou with big round eyes, meowing a few times milkily, pulling her trouser leg with her front paws, looking like she wanted to be hugged.
He Manzhou skillfully held it in his arms, scratched its little chin, walked to the cat litter, grabbed a large handful of cat food, and opened a can of canned cat food.
"Little milk cake, good girl, I'll give you a meal. ”
Seeing the cat owner start licking his paws with satisfaction, He Manzhou finally became idle.
When he got off work, because of a phone call from Uncle Li, He Manzhou didn't even eat dinner, and then rushed back to the Tianwentang Museum to work overtime, and he didn't have time to eat anything, and he felt a little hungry at this time. She expertly boiled a pot of boiling water, made a bowl of instant noodles and brought it to the coffee table, and took out the worn-out diary from her backpack.
When doing this, He Manzhou's fingers trembled slightly unconsciously, probably because of his close affection, she has not been thinking about exploring what happened behind this for a moment in the past year, whether it is a mountain of swords and a sea of fire, she will move forward.
But at this moment, He Manzhou felt a little scared, not afraid of those unknown dangers and unpredictable obstacles, but worried that Lao He's matter was irreversible, and she didn't even have a chance to work hard.
After sitting in silence for a few seconds, He Manzhou took a deep breath and opened the diary.
And the secret left by Lao He is finally about to be revealed.