Speaking of this topic, I often remember that when I first joined the work, a workshop director would often criticize others in meetings, "For those who are confused at work, we have to slap him in the back and shout to him, comrade, it's time to wake up." Of course, it wasn't said to me, but every time I heard it, it was like a hammer hitting my heart.

Although I am not a confused person at work, I am still a little confused and lack enthusiasm in life. At that time, I had just come to the railway station as a porter from the countryside, directing stevedores to load and unload luggage packages on trains. It's a good job, but I don't like it. There is no challenge in this work, it can only be regarded as careful work, once the business trip will cause the separation of tickets and goods, college students can do it, and elementary school students can make do with it. But my dream is to be a middle school teacher. I believe that middle school teachers can not only impart knowledge to students, but also study on their own, which is a knowledge-based and creative labor. However, at that time, the college entrance examination had not yet begun to resume, and it was almost a pipe dream to become a middle school teacher as an ordinary worker. Therefore, I am still pessimistic about the future.

Soon after, the state reinstated the gaokao. I wanted to try my skills, but I was empty-handed and didn't have a book with me. I went to the Xinhua Bookstore in the Bell Tower to buy it, but there were no books related to the college entrance examination in the bookstore, or even an ordinary dictionary. I searched the entire bookstore and found only one copy of The Inca Empire and a Map of South America. It made me feel very frustrated and frustrated. I heard that in order to take the college entrance examination, my former classmates either went back to school directly from the countryside to participate in tutoring, and some of my classmates did not go to the countryside and have been tutoring in school all the time. And I have been out of school for four years even to go to the countryside to work, and now I work shifts day and night, and I don't have a single book or material to review, let alone let the teacher tutor me. Therefore, I decided not to take the college entrance examination, because I knew that even if I did, I would not be able to pass it.

When one of my teachers saw that I had given up the college entrance examination, he said to me, "You are a person with ideals and pursuits, and you can't fool around all day like those who have no culture." If that's the case, you'll probably have to work as a worker at the station for the rest of your life. "I don't want to be a station worker all my life, working day and night. I also hope to have a good environment for learning and living. However, I said, "I can't help it, I don't have anything, I don't even have a dictionary, and my family is in Hunan, and I have no relatives here, and no one helps me." The master said to me, "You have to be a little iron man, you have to go up if you have the conditions, and you have to go up if you don't have the conditions to create conditions." "Wang Jinxi was a learning model for workers across the country in that era. His famous words are also the bold words of people to overcome difficulties and work quickly.

The master's words made me feel a little ashamed, but also let me re-establish some confidence, but I want to study but have no conditions, I had some books, but when recruiting workers, due to the urgency of time, I followed the recruiters to Xi'an empty-handed, and all the books and items were left in the countryside. This makes me regret it very much. I even thought that if I had known that the country would resume the college entrance examination, I would rather not come to Xi'an to work, and I would have returned to school in my hometown in Hunan to tutor.

In order for me to help me, the master thought of many ways to help me find a simple dictionary for primary school students and a hand-engraved mimeographed Chinese review material for a middle school with about ten pages. I was like a treasure, and every day when I had nothing to do, I would hold that little dictionary and look at it. Because that little dictionary is the only revision material for me.

After about half a year of study, I was admitted to the teacher's college. At that time, I was majoring in Chinese, but because there was a shortage of students applying for English majors, the school transferred me to an English major. Because I didn't like English in the past, I didn't learn English at all when I was in middle school. I feel that it is useless to learn English without going abroad. And the slogan "I am Chinese, I don't like to learn English" is also popular among students. Therefore, when I first entered the school, my English score was almost the worst in the class, but I felt that such an opportunity came from not easy, so I worked hard to study, and in less than half a year, my academic performance entered the middle and upper level of the class. After graduating, I was assigned to teach English in a secondary school, and I realized my dream and desire to be a middle school teacher. Later, I taught and studied at the same time, and I was admitted to the undergraduate program through further study.

If it was that little dictionary that changed my destiny, it was not so much the desire to change my life and circumstances that changed my destiny. As long as you have the desire to change your life, you will have that passion to work hard. This kind of enthusiasm and hard work may really change your aspirations and realize your ideals.