In fact, at that moment, she didn't know how she found out, the room was dim, even if there was a faint moonlight, she might not be able to see the tears clearly, and Shi Jing, who was crying silently, didn't make any sound, but she seemed to smell some kind of tears, or maybe she opened the perspective of God, and saw Shi Jing's chest that was silent but rose and fell strongly, and at that moment, she seemed to have been hit by something.

Si Qi suddenly remembered the situation when she met Shi Jing for the first time, he was alone in the dark, so calm, silent, as if isolated from the whole world, and as if abandoned by the whole world, as if even he himself could not feel the alienation and coldness firmly enveloped him, unable to break free, powerless to resist, could only sink alone in this alienation and coldness, struggled alone, and finally died.

She thought of the dream again, Shi Jing stretched out her hand, looking at the surprise and expectation in her eyes, as if she was a savior who fell from the sky, she stared at the pillow silently, and her expression was sad.

If it was before, what would she do in the face of Shi Jing?

At that time, she had love in her heart, affection in her brain, and the whole person seemed to be possessed by the Virgin Mary, eager to go to the United Nations to run for global peace ambassador, purely a self-righteous stupid little Wenqing, her whole body was full of strength and never-ending vitality, she was radiant, helpful, and couldn't see others wither, if she saw a man crying in front of her, she would probably go to the bottom of it without care, what could make a beautiful man cry.

Six years ago, she would feel proudly, what are you afraid of in difficulty, just cross over, cry about big things, and after venting her emotions, she can still roll up her sleeves and work hard, she will think that she is an omnipotent angel, and she will definitely pull this kind of person who is silently waiting for the oil to run out of light out of the darkness, and then she will be like a cheap life mentor, leading him to a bright and brilliant road.

At that time, if Shi Jing could meet her, maybe she would let him pin the turning point of his life on her and become the light in his dark life.

It's a pity that the years have passed, the world has changed, and she is no longer the same she was back then.

She couldn't even save herself, soberly watching herself sink deeper and deeper into the darkness that no one could see, how dare Shi Jing entrust her with the turning point of her life?

How could she watch Shi Jing spend useless work on her?

Thinking in a daze, she actually fell asleep again, maybe because she had a thought in her heart, or maybe she knew that Shi Jing had gotten up, she finally slept boldly and boldly, and began to roll to the side in her sleep, holding the quilt that Shi Jing had slept in the cup, and quietly sinking into her sleep.

This time, she finally had a rare night's sleep, and she never dreamed again.

"Daddy, Daddy, come on, come on. After brushing his teeth, Si Xiaojun quietly pulled Shi Jing and pulled him out of the kitchen.

Zhang Xingmei saw his discomfort, and said, "I don't need your help here, let Xiaojun take you around, or you can call Qiqi up and let her accompany you." ”

"No, no, no. Shi Jing hurriedly said: "She works very hard in Jincheng, let her have a good rest!"

Si Xiaojun said: "Grandma, you don't need to call Mommy, I'll accompany my father to play." ”

Shi Jing nodded hurriedly, and let Si Xiaojun drag him out.

Si Xiaojun tiptoed him up to the second floor, pushed open the door on the far left, and said mysteriously: "This is the room where my mommy lived when she was a child, do you want to see it?"

As soon as Shi Jing nodded involuntarily, his eyes took the lead in breaking through his brain thinking, directly knocked out of his eye sockets, and first poked into the wooden door in front of him, which was painted light blue.

He found that Si Qi seemed to have a soft spot for blue or light blue, she had three sets of clothes in the wardrobe in Jincheng that were all blue, and when they first met, she was also wearing a blue long skirt and small leather shoes of the same color, according to psychology, when meeting strangers for the first time, people dress and dress to give priority to making themselves feel safe, and the so-called sense of security is probably the most favorite and most reassuring in the inner subconscious.

Si Qi likes to eat ear noodles.

Siqi likes blue.

These are the only two preferences he has discovered from Si Qi since they have known each other for more than three months.

He was like a prisoner trapped in a dark prison, and suddenly picked up a treasure box that would glow, and the light shone the shadow of the dark prison, and he scratched his ears and cheeks around the treasure box, for fear that if he was not careful, the light would be broken, so he carefully and cautiously opened a crack in the lid of the treasure box, and peeked in with bated breath, and every bit of discovery would become a great surprise.

It's a pity that the treasure box named Si Qi is tightly fitted, and the exterior is coated with many layers of gentle and delicate lacquer, and you have to do your best to quietly pull out a gap that can only be seen with a microscope, and you can faintly touch the temperature of the bright light.

He used a small unbearable to cover up a bigger unbearable, social phobia is the small unbearable, but he is not seamless, he is even full of flaws, just with his eyes can see a thousand deep pits that can make people retreat, only she approached without scruples, and gave him hope with an indifferent attitude, although he knew that she was fearless, just because he didn't want to have a deep friendship with him, but even so, for him, it was extremely valuable.

However, she herself is like using a huge aperture to wrap herself so tightly that she can only see the surface of false beauty, and it is extremely difficult to touch the slightest inch within the aperture, and there is no flaw from beginning to end.

"Dad..."Si Xiaojun lowered his head to look at him: "Aren't we going in?"

Shi Jing, who was deep in thought, suddenly came back to his senses, he packed up his mixed thoughts in a panic, smiled lightly at Si Jun as if comforting, and reached out and gently pushed the door open.

The room is not big, it is estimated that it is more than 20 square meters at most, the ceiling and the walls are all pasted with light blue wallpaper, on which are Pooh's little bears and cartoon animals, two strings of wind chimes are hung on the curtains of the same color, and the slight collision sound is very pleasant, there is an empty bed against the wall, under the window is a desk, and opposite the bed is a light blue bookcase to the top, and every interval is full of books, all of which are some and comic books.

Si Xiaojun is like a little tour guide, starting from the items on the desk, he can't wait to pour all the drums of his mommy from childhood to adulthood to this new father, but unfortunately he is only six years old after all, although he is talented, but twenty-six years is too large for him, plus his information source should also come from his grandmother Zhang Xingmei, it didn't take long to start turning things upside down, and he could only be responsible for turning things upside down and displaying.

There were only a few old junior high school textbooks in the desk, and a few pens that had long been out of ink, Shi Jing quickly moved his eyes to the bookcase, and looked up from the bottom layer to the top, he didn't dare to pull out the book, only looked at the spine, Si Qi used to read books very miscellaneous, there were all types, foreign documents were stuffed with eight small partitions, and the penultimate layer on the top was "Qing History Manuscript", "Yongzheng Zhu's Criticism", "Yongzheng Dynasty", and even some essays with Yongzheng as the protagonist.

It seems that Si Qi likes the emperor Yongzheng very much, which makes Shi Jing a little excited, as if he has further decrypted the treasure box named Si Qi.

Yongzheng.

I don't know much about this historical figure Shi Jing, I only remember that he is the son of Kangxi, the third emperor after the Qing Dynasty entered the customs, and the father of Emperor Qianlong, who is the most likely to lose, has a bad reputation in history, and can even be said to be infamous.

Shi Jing silently kept these titles in his heart, and planned to go back to Jincheng to buy a few copies and come back to read.

The top panel is full of sketchbooks, big, small, red, and green, under Si Xiaojun's "strong request", Shi Jingyu hesitated and pulled out a copy, Si Xiaojun pulled him down, the two of them were head to head, page by page.

It is like a sketch made by hand, painting thousands of worlds, there are mountains and rivers, trees and flowers, as well as buildings of different heights and endless grasslands, more street scenes and people, lively streets, smiling pedestrians, couples holding hands, and even young men and girls hiding behind trees and secretly kissing, as well as old people holding their little grandchildren, the whole painting is like a small world, full of fireworks.

Almost all of the things presented by the poems and paintings are inextricably related to the author himself, the so-called love in the heart, everywhere is love, these sketches are all showing vitality and happiness, as well as satisfaction and hope, from the painting can be seen The painter himself must also be a positive person.

Si Xiaojun touched the painting and asked with a smile: "Dad, these are all drawn by Mommy when she was a child, aren't they amazing?" Grandma said that the books above were also drawn by Mommy before. ”

Shi Jing couldn't help nodding, it was really powerful, his eyes seemed to be glued to these paintings, and he couldn't help but start wondering, why did this Si Qi become this Si Qi now.

"This is where my mommy has lived since I was a child, my grandmother said that later Mommy went to Beijing to go to college, and she rarely came back to live, only during the Spring Festival every year, she was out to do summer work during the summer vacation, even if she came back, she only stayed for a few days and left, these paintings had long been thrown away by Mommy, it was Grandma who secretly picked them up and secretly put them on top, Mommy never found out. Si Xiaojun put away the sketchbook and motioned for him to put it back.

North * Kyo University?

Shi Jing was a little stunned while putting things away as they were, she remembered that in the personal information provided to him by Si Qi, it was an adult class that she applied for at Jincheng Engineering University five years ago, studying design, and did not mention that she had gone to college in Beijing.