Every child who falls to the ground has the greatest kindness to the world, and I am no exception. For as long as I can remember, it seems that only my father is shushing me, but in comparison, I want to have the care from my mother.

When I was in kindergarten, I was really envious of my mother's coquettish appearance when I was picked up by my mother, I was really envious, and my mother took me once when I was in kindergarten, that time, I was the first to leave the kindergarten, and then my mother took me to eat a big meal, next to Ha has an uncle who has been shushing my mother and asking for warmth, I was very happy that day, I asked my mother: "Can I eat this delicious food every day?", but my mother did not say anything comforting but urged:" Eat quickly, I'll send you home in a moment", I had to let out a hmm.

At that time, where did I understand bullshit love, I just felt that my mother was not as amiable as other people's mothers, I quietly asked my father "why does my mother not like me", but my father kept telling me that my mother's character is like that, so I have been trying very hard to please her, but in the end I couldn't stop my mother from abusive with her when my parents quarreled.

When I went to elementary school, I was afraid that my mother would be unhappy if I didn't study well, so I studied hard every day.

Later, under the final outbreak of the family war, my mother took all the luggage that belonged to her at home and left without looking back, I hugged my mother's leg and asked her not to go, but after she left a sentence of "a pair of wrecks", I never saw her again.

The year after my mother left, I didn't have any good friends, and my father brought back one of his students and told me not to bully others, to get along well, and to ask him questions if he didn't know, and then I learned for the first time that my father's profession was also a teacher.

On the first day that the boy came, he straightened his chest and said: "My name is Gu Hengzhi, and I am Teacher Shen's favorite student", it is the first time I think that a little boy looks so eye-catching, as a qualified Yan Gou, he naturally said generously, "My name is Shen Linglan, and I am my father's favorite daughter" At that time, I don't know why Gu Hengzhi's family always puts him in my house, but I am also super happy to have such a little Zhengtai accompany me every day. But less than two years later, when my father came home, he didn't bring him again, I asked "why", my father comforted him and said: "His parents took him to work in the field, and he won't be able to accompany you in the future", I cried and made a fuss at that time and said "his parents obviously don't want him, why did they take him away again", my father severely criticized me for not talking like this for the first time

Dad brought me up since I was a child, it was really not easy for a man to raise a child without a woman in that era, adolescent girl development, and my father didn't understand anything about menstruation, I was also very irritable at that time, always complaining about my father "You don't understand anything", and I hated my mother so ruthlessly in my heart, but my father would always try hard to understand the secrets about girls after I lost my temper, and then touched my head and said, "I'm also a first-time father, can you understand Dad"

In so many years of student life, I have never been the one with the best grades in my class, but when I was young, my mother asked her "Do you learn to dance to become beautiful" before she left? At that time, in order to make my mother happy, she nodded, and then she never put it down, when I was in elementary school, I watched TV in TV to play the piano and play the violin sister is so good-looking, I pestered my father to buy piano and violin, my father gritted his teeth and was ruthless and bought me a piano to register for class, I don't know that at that time in fact, my father's financial pressure was very high, but my father kept saying "as long as you want to learn, Dad will let you learn".

When I went to junior high school, the ancient style can be described as a smash hit, our school said that we would pick out a few students from the group of children who had just entered the school to teach the guzheng, I did not hesitate to say that there was a guzheng at home to practice at any time, and finally was successfully selected by the teacher. Later, our teacher said let's use the guzheng to play the tune of "Ambush on All Sides", no matter how I listened to it, I didn't think it was as good as the pipa, and again stalked my father and said that he was going to learn the pipa, and my father was distressed and asked, "Have you learned so much?", I nodded without saying a word, so my father agreed.

Later, I stopped dancing because of my high school work, but the other musical instrument classes also made me tired, and my grades have not improved much, and my father was afraid that I would lose my enthusiasm for musical instruments and said to me, "Art exam", and under my countless self-denial and my father's affirmation, I finally went to a good university in Jiaguang City, on the edge of Haijin.

Actually, I never felt like I was a gregarious person, and this feeling became even stronger when I went to college. I still don't have any special friends, because of an opportunity to shoot things together made me know Tang Zhiyu, Tang Zhiyu that girl I have always been envious of, whether it was the naïve student days or now, I have always felt that the feeling that Tang Zhiyu emitted can be infectious, she is not as smart as a monkey, and she is not as cunning as a fox, but that kind of self-confidence, optimism and cheerfulness make me feel that she is extraordinary in the ordinary, so after a long time, I got closer and closer to Tang Zhiyu, and then I played crazy with Tang Zhiyu, and I drank and played more crazy than Tang Zhiyu。

Once a friend's birthday party asked Tang Zhiyu to let her take me by the way, I was still squirming and pinching, Tang Zhiyu dragged me hard, saying that I have strong communication skills and high emotional intelligence, and at that time I felt that I was not useless.

Alas, sometimes it's really not nonsense to glance at ten thousand years, just that birthday party, he and Lu Yuanxiu fell into a situation of never dying. Tang Zhiyu said that Lu Yuanxiu was the man of the year in the school, the family conditions were good, he worked hard, and he looked good, but he was a little crazy, a person who studied acting signed a contract with him in such a hurry, he couldn't look down on any of them, at that time I felt that this boy had a backbone!

When I was working outside for an internship, by chance, someone asked me to recommend a person with performance conditions to participate in the filming of a play, and at that moment I remembered Lu Yuanxiu, after I told Tang Zhiyu about this, I originally wanted Tang Zhiyu to contact him, who knew that Tang Zhiyu directly pushed Lu Yuanxiu's WeChat and said: "You yourself and him"

I have always had a good impression of Lu Yuanxiu because of Tang Zhiyu's words, and after several struggles in my heart, I sent a "Hello" To him, who knows that Lu Yuanxiu sent me a series of voices, probably to ask me what is the matter, that voice is as mellow as aged red wine, people can't help but raise the corners of their mouths, I asked him if he was free to answer a call, typing can't be clear, he made a voice call to me without a moment's delay, I thought this boy was really great, at least he wouldn't embarrass girls, but now it seems that a courtesan-like boy, back then, he could play in school, where would he not know how to get along with people

After coming and going, Lu Yuanxiu and I have a better and better relationship, and we have a meal together from time to time. I've actually been quite confused about the future, because of this incident, I feel that it's not bad to be an agent when I work in the future, at that time Lu Yuanxiu said, "If you want to do it, I'll be your first artist", I thought it was a joke, but Lu Yuanxiu gave me the information or something, and asked me to take a video of the group for him, watching him take it seriously, I haven't been relaxing, I've been paying attention to this aspect of things, and once I see a film source, I will fight for him.

It's not easy to do something when you're a student, money, There are too many restrictions on various things in school, I remember once sending him a male third man who filmed in the northwest, although it is a male third but there are not many shots, after all, the male third of a movie is already a marginal role, and when they were notified to go to the interview, it was just in time for the final exam review, and the northwest was so far away, and the travel fee was a lot of money, and after talking to Tang Zhiyu at that time, she took out the remaining two thousand yuan of living expenses and said to us that it would be good to come back before the exam, anyway, after asking for some information, the two of us went to the northwest with our own living expenses and Zhiyu's living expenses, and that time it was lucky, the director asked Lu Yuanxiu to stay and shoot, but I was in a hurry to take the exam and went back, and at that time, the director also asked Lu Yuanxiu who I was, girlfriend? Lu Yuanxiu replied, agent, at that time I felt that the burden on my shoulders was quite heavy

Later, when I took over the film source, as long as there was a shot that Lu Yuanxiu could appear in, I would not let it go, of course, there were some things that had already determined Lu Yuanxiu's role and changed people in a few days, but fortunately, both of us were not discouraged, even Tang Zhiyu did his best to help us, I thought at the time, I must not let them down

After graduation, I wanted to go back because my home was in the imperial capital, who knew that Tang Zhiyu and Lu Yuanxiu insisted on being together, the three of them rented a suite in the imperial capital, and I didn't go home, although this life is not a chaff vegetable, but it is really not easy, after all, no one wants to ask for money from the family after working, originally I wanted to find a job to do casually, because with Lu Yuanxiu, I started the daily life of college again, looking for film interviews, and going to do part-time weddings and filming when I have time"Money backing", not to mention, the days when I was in a hurry to use money in the future were really Tang Zhiyu's generosity, that is, at this time, I met Gu Hengzhi again, the only playmate I had a good relationship with in my childhood

survived that period of so-called green and yellow days, a "Flower City" made Lu Yuanxiu popular, and realized his dream of going it alone, and this is the person I brought out, not to mention how proud I was at that time

After everything was on the right track, Lu Yuanxiu said to marry me, I felt that Lu Yuanxiu was not because of love but because of responsibility, because he couldn't bear to let me down or live up to the age I had accompanied him for so many years, but to be honest, Lu Yuanxiu In the process of gradually getting along, I fell in love with him, and I didn't have any factors of love, but I was a girl who couldn't talk about it

After Lu Yuanxiu took me home, I met a woman I had never seen for decades, my mother became a stepmother who liked people, I had a big gap in my heart, the scene of my mother picking me up in kindergarten appeared in front of me, although I can't remember the appearance of the man, but it is true that he is very rich, so I know the reason why my mother left when I see my mother living so rich

I can't think of it, Lu Yuanxiu turned out to be a noble son, but because of my mother's intervention, everything he has has changed, and I subconsciously don't want to tell Lu Yuanxiu anything, but he still seems to know later

So he became more and more cold to me, and even got together with another actress in the studio, to be honest, I couldn't stand it, it was a feeling of being robbed by others, and then he spoke more and more ugly, I didn't know that he knew about me and my mother, so I kept wondering why he treated me like this, and I chose to leave after a long time I wanted to be an ostrich, and even took advantage of Gu Hengzhi's feelings for me, in fact, at that time, I wanted to be with Gu Hengzhi to forget Lu Yuanxiu, and I did want to live like this with Gu Hengzhi

Lu Yuanxiu's repeated injuries made me no longer the original good girl, and I was actually very happy to let go of myself, although I knew that everyone around me was worried about me, I went to a nightclub to DJ Dad felt that I was doing something indiscreet, and I had a heart attack and went to the hospital, I felt that I was not a good daughter at that time, I decided to live the life that my father wanted me to live, and when I wanted to marry Gu Hengzhi, I remembered the classic question "Do you choose what you love, or love you", I chose to love me

Whether it's a wedding dress or a wedding, I don't look forward to it so much, everything is going on step by step, but Lu Yuanxiu appeared on the wedding day and said a lot of things she couldn't imagine and openly robbed the kiss, not to mention anything else, just said that when I was taken away from the wedding scene, I was actually happy, I didn't know what I was glad about, I was just relieved, but then what was the truth about what Lu Yuanxiu wanted to say at the scene

Lu Yuanxiu forcibly seized my body and put me under house arrest, and even took people home, this is all done by people, at least I don't think so, I smoke cigarettes pack by pack, and the cigarette butts in the ashtray are enough to show that I am bored, I hate Lu Yuanxiu for turning me like this, and I hate myself even more for not being ruthless, I am also afraid, afraid that Lu Yuanxiu will really do something to Tang Zhiyu and Gu Hengzhi, although I look obedient, everything is just waiting for an opportunity to break out......