The kindergarten is the twenty-fifth day of the first month, the first few days are all preparations, professional disinfection personnel to disinfect the kindergarten as a whole, so Si Qi only went to work for two days, and then went home to rest, but the national children's dance competition began in May, and it was only more than three months ago, in order not to start training as soon as possible, she communicated with the parents, and decided to take the children to the villa for training every afternoon, and then let the parents take them back.

Shi Jing and Si Xiaojun acted as volunteer staff during their training time, responsible for providing tea and snacks, Si Xiaojun, who wanted to learn dance, was also allowed to study together, and in the end only Shi Jing was left as a volunteer, fortunately, he was quite serious about this job and did it very carefully, no matter when the people in the teacup were hot, the fruit plate on the coffee table was full, and there were several kinds of snacks in the box.

In the afternoon, the parents took their children back in turn, Si Qi took a shower and changed clothes, Shi Jing and Si Xiaojun were already sitting at the table in front of the meal and waiting for her to eat.

"Mommy, I have a question, I don't know if I can ask?" Si Xiaojun said cautiously while eating noodles.

Si Qi was a little hungry and didn't bother to look at him, just made a few humm-huh tones in agreement.

Si Xiaojun blinked his eyes wide, and asked seriously: "Mommy, you dance so well, why don't you go to the dance competition?"

Si Qi: "......"

She was stunned at first, but soon came back to her senses, and said casually: "Mommy hasn't danced for many years, how can she go to the competition again?"

Si Xiaojun thought for a while and said, "But isn't dancing Mommy's dream? Many uncles and aunts say that Mommy is very good at dancing, and even the director of the kindergarten says that if you participate in the competition, the first place will definitely be yours." He put down his chopsticks, turned his head to look at Shi Jing, and looked eager to ask for backup: "Dad, you must also want to see Mommy dance and participate in the competition, isn't it, Dad?"

Shi Jing coughed lightly twice, also raised his eyes to look at Si Qi, and nodded seriously: "Dancing was your dream back then, and I also hope you can regain your dream." ”

Unexpectedly, Shi Jing also participated in this topic, Si Qi was a little surprised, she finished eating the noodles in the bowl, and then smiled and said: "Dancing is indeed my dream throughout my youth, I started to learn to dance at the age of three until I left the stage completely at the age of twenty-one, I never thought that one day I would give up my dream, but in fact I still gave up, gave up for seven years, and now I am used to the new life, so I don't want to go back." ”

Shi Jing frowned slightly: "Then aren't you wasting your talent?"

Si Qi waved his hand, and said indifferently: "No talent? All my talents are acquired through hard work, I worked hard to learn to dance, and won awards all the way until I was admitted to the dance academy, my life has been very satisfying, although the ending is not very satisfactory, but life is like this, it can't always be smooth sailing, it took me seven years to adapt to the new life, but I don't want to go back." ”

It was difficult for Si Xiaojun to understand these words thoroughly, but he still understood the meaning, pouted and said, "So Mommy, are you not going to participate in the competition?"

"That's nature. Si Qi smiled and pinched his face, comforting: "Although Mommy will not participate in dance competitions again, Mommy will take over the dance interest class in the kindergarten, and Mommy will teach you the same in the future, and it will be the same for those children who like to dance to realize their dreams, isn't it also good?"

"Okay then!" Si Xiaojun nodded in disappointment: "Since Mommy has decided, I can't persuade Mommy anymore, Grandma said that everyone will have their own life." ”

Si Qi touched his head and got up to clean up the dishes and chopsticks.

Si Xiaojun took Shi Jing to the second floor, tiptoed the door shut, and then asked, "Dad, is Mommy angry?"

Shi Jing was also a little unsure, thought about it, and then said, "Probably not, right?"

"I think it's a bit hanging. Si Xiaojun pinched his chin like a little adult, and said angrily: "It's all my fault, I shouldn't have told Mommy about this, it was Yuanyuan who fooled me, she said that as long as Mommy is willing to participate in the dance competition, she will definitely be able to get the first place in the country." After speaking, he blinked and looked at Shi Jing: "Dad, if Mommy is angry, you will definitely help me say good things, I don't want Mommy to be angry." ”

"No, it won't. Shi Jing squatted down and looked at him very seriously: "Don't worry, if Mommy is really angry, Dad will definitely help you." ”

Si Xiaojun was full of worries about building Lego, and he didn't look preoccupied until he went to bed at night, and he didn't pester Si Qi to want his little sister as usual.

When she lay down on the bed, Shi Jing pulled the quilt for her, pretending to be casual, and asked, "Are you unhappy?"

"Huh?" Si Qi withdrew his gaze from the page and looked at him suspiciously, "Please Mr. Zong Shi, where do you see that I'm unhappy?"

"I shouldn't have followed Joon and told you those things. Shi Jing's appearance was a little ashamed: "I just think...... You're still young, and if you still want to dance, it's completely out of time, I just think it's been your dream for many years, and it's a shame that it suddenly broke out......"

"I understand, you don't have to explain, I understand what you mean. Si Qi pressed his hand on Shi Jing's shoulder, smiled at him sideways, and interrupted him, "Do you think that you can face the past and regain the life that was interrupted, so you want me to be like this, you want to help me, I understand all this, but our situation is different, Shi Jing, although I have had a very painful time over the years, I don't feel sorry." ”

"But ......"

"Nothing but. Si Qi clamped the pages with a bookmark, leaned over and rested on the head of the bed, turned off the light, nestled in Shi Jing's arms again, thought about it, and then said very slowly: "What I said at the dinner table is true, I can be admitted to the dance academy, I can win those awards on behalf of the school, for me, my dream has come true, since I decided to adopt Xiaojun, I am ready to restart a new life." ”

Shi Jing didn't know what to say, so he could only hug her tightly.

"You feel like I've been forced to break the wings of my dreams, so hopefully I'll be able to dance again. Si Qi smiled and said: "Actually, dancing is not the most important thing in my life now, I have learned a lot and seen a lot over the years of working in the kindergarten, I took Si Xiaojun away when he was less than a year, but he is now almost seven years old, I raised his baby to be fed to be so big now, I feel very remarkable." ”

"Well, it's amazing. Shi Jing groped in the dark and kissed her forehead, with a strong sense of comfort.

Si Qi smiled, looked back at him, there was a light outside the window, the blurred light fell on his face, and the eyebrows were deep and soft, so that she also gave birth to a kind of quiet perfection and stability, "My only regret is that I couldn't perform the program I specially choreographed for the dance competition back then. ”

"What show?"

"Is it a plot dance?" Si Qi stared at him, through a blurred line of sight, and said softly: "Back then, after I saw that painting in that abandoned garbage factory, I wrote that drama dance when I went back to school, telling the story of a girl who rescued a strange male elf from the dark hell, and the day after I finished writing, I told my best friend the script and enthusiastically told her the ins and outs of this story, she was very excited and excited after listening to it, saying that I would definitely get the grand prize." ”

Shi Jing frowned, and quickly searched for this dance in his mind, this dance did win the grand prize that year, and it was the first place, but the winner was another girl, last year when he deleted the malicious defamation on the Internet for Si Qi, he had watched every clip of her dancing, and he had also seen some news related to her by the way, he remembered that this plot dance was highly praised that year, and the name was: "Save." ”

"Later, when I went back to school, my world began to crumble, and the school ordered me to drop out, and I was also disqualified from participating in competitions, and I never had a chance to perform in that drama dance again. Si Qi was silent for a long time before saying: "It wasn't until Xiaojun was more than two years old that I dared to re-touch those pasts, but I didn't expect that my plot dance really won the award, but the person who won the award was not me." ”

"Don't you hate that girl?" Shi Jing asked suddenly.

Si Qi smiled and sighed, "I hated it before, but then I saw it, anyway, I can't go to the competition again in my life, she can win the grand prize with this plot dance, it can be regarded as a fulfillment of my dream, I dreamed of showing this dance to everyone." ”

"You are very forgiving. Shi Jing said.

"I was just forced to be tolerant. Si Qi raised his eyebrows with a smile: "Sometimes you have to be like this, otherwise you won't be able to live, there are many things in this world that are explained and explained without explanation, and it is rare to be confused." ”

"Then you saw that painting back then, and you wanted to save me?" Shi Jing asked a little embarrassed, but his tone could not hide his excitement and joy.

Si Qi was a little embarrassed, turned over in his arms, looked at the ceiling for a long time, and then smiled and said: "I was different from now, I was very naïve, very enthusiastic, very loving, always possessed by the Virgin Mary, now I think about it is actually quite stupid." ”

"You're not stupid, you're just too kind. Shi Jing hugged her tightly, her lips brushed her cheeks from time to time, and she said in an extraordinarily gentle voice: "I am grateful to you for allowing us to go all the way to the present." ”

"That's true. Si Qi laughed twice and said, "If you hadn't had social phobia, to be honest, I wouldn't have wanted to trick you to get the certificate and want to do it once and for all." Speaking of this, she also laughed, reached out and touched his face, and said with a smile: "So don't feel sorry for me, I am very satisfied with my current life, and I don't plan to regain my dreams, I won't give up dancing, but I won't go to the competition again." ”

Shi Jing nodded lightly and said, "I understand." ”

"I want to start a new life. Si Qi sighed faintly: "So I am also happy now." ”

Shi Jing said: "Okay. ”