As if she had been right, Shi Jing began to tremble violently, he stretched out his hand, firmly wrapped his arms around Si Qi's waist, and buried his cheeks deep in her clothes, like a small beast that was suddenly thrown into a storm and shivered, which could be annihilated in the wind and rain at any time.

"Don't think about it anymore. Si Qi hurriedly hugged him tighter, and kept comforting: "Actually, if you don't say it, I can imagine it, I know that all this is not your fault, you are innocent, I know that you have been blaming yourself and regretting all these years, you hate yourself for not discovering her abnormality in time, hate yourself for not being able to save her in time, hate yourself for not agreeing to study abroad, hate why you saw her fall with your own eyes, but did not accompany her." ”

"I have..."Shi Jing whispered: "I can't stand it, so I want to go to her, but I am alive again, my mother was resigned from the school because of this incident, my father also left, they sold all the family property, all the compensation to her family, even my grandfather's savings they have to leave, my mother took me to Jincheng, every time I jump off the roof, I will be rescued, I want to accompany her, but I keep begging me, keep begging me..."

Si Qi couldn't help but bury her head in his shoulder, listening to him say desperately and helplessly: "I don't understand why things suddenly turned out like this, I don't understand, she was obviously fine when she left school, and said that she would make me a cake to eat, we obviously said okay, but I don't understand, why she changed when she returned to school, she stood on the top of such a high building, she didn't give me a chance at all, she didn't give herself a chance, I don't understand." ”

"Didn't you call the police for her family's questioning?" Si Qi couldn't help but ask, seduction, immoral relationship, these accusations can be proven.

"No, it didn't work. Shi Jing raised his head suddenly, his eyes were red, and tears rolled out silently, "They don't believe it, even my teacher doesn't believe it, they all say that if it wasn't my fault, why would she jump down in front of me, so all this is caused by me, I should take full responsibility, all of this is my fault, I can't shirk it, I can't refuse, they want me to go to her mourning hall to kowtow, they want me to give her funeral, I can't refuse, I can't refuse." ”

Si Qi: "......"

For a while, she didn't know what to say, and she couldn't even find the words to scold her mother temporarily.

"Then my mom called a doctor to come to the house, and the doctor said that I had PTSD, and my mom was afraid that I would kill myself again, so she locked me in my room, and she stayed with her 24 hours a day until she fell ill, I couldn't die, I had to survive, I had to survive for my parents. Shi Jing said upside down, a huge despair enveloped him, and the abyss in his eyes was almost as thick as if he had reached the end of darkness.

Si Qi has never seen a person cry like this, it is an indescribable pain and struggle, heartbreaking, blood flowing, but the ground is silent, only unspeakable pathos almost tear people apart and destroy, at that time he was just a sophomore in high school, but only 17 years old, suddenly encountered such a thing, even if his parents and family work hard, I am afraid it will be difficult to bring him out of the shadows.

For a while, the two were relatively speechless, tears rolling out silently and fiercely, with depression, anxiety, sadness, despair, madness that seemed to destroy everything, and as if there was a breath of desperate survival.

The former glory had long since been pressed into the decaying underground, but he could not adapt to the coldness of the light that had rapidly dimmed, and became cold and dull, as if trapped underground with the glory of the city.

But as long as there is faith, this city, the people of this city, will not be trapped underground forever.

After almost two hours, Shi Jing gradually recovered, his lips were pursed tightly, his eyes were red and swollen, but his face was slightly bloody.

Si Qi took his hand, the two wandered around the school aimlessly, Shi Jing walked silently by Si Qi's side, and suddenly there was an indescribable lightness, as if the boulder pressed on his chest was removed by his own hands, and there was a rare emptiness, a body full of wounds and acne, revealing his true face in the light, he didn't expect that the past that he had been unable to talk about for many years would be easily said by him.

I don't know when, Si Qi suddenly asked about his school days, Shi Jing unconsciously fell into some kind of memories along her question, those memories that were forcibly pressed* in the depths of his mind surged like being swept by a huge wave, and began to surge and float, but these memories were so strange and familiar, sometimes he even began to wonder if these things had really happened.

This feeling is like watching a documentary in the past, he realizes that he has been replaced by a wave of blood, has completely become a different person, and there is no way to be here again, recalling the past life like turning over the old calendar, he is standing under the towering tree at the entrance of the school, looking at this strange place because it is too painful, as if he is looking at a self abandoned by the ruthless years.

Si Qi, who seemed to understand what he was thinking, took a deep breath unconsciously and said to him with a sigh: "All this is over, from now on, you should go to live a new life." ”

Shi Jing looked at her gently, raised his hand and gently rubbed her cheek, and after a long time, he pursed his lips and smiled: "Thank you, Qiqi." ”

Seeing that he was in a much better mood, Si Qi directly stomped his feet and said with a smile: "Let's go home quickly, I'm about to freeze to death, and I'm hungry again, let's go back and cook noodles and eat?"

Shi Jing took her, walked straight out of the school, drove to the old house not far away, passed by the supermarket, Si Qi went in to buy a bunch of things, I didn't expect to come home and see, although the house is a little dilapidated, but the inside is very clean, obviously someone cleaned it in advance, the coffee table is dusty, even the kitchen is clear and clean, you can start cooking at any time, the bedding in the bedroom is tightly wrapped in a packing bag, it does not affect the night stay at all.

Shi Jing was preparing dinner in the kitchen, Si Qi slipped to the bathroom to take a bath, and knelt in the snow for a long time in the afternoon, she was choked by the cold, she didn't want to catch a cold.

When she finished washing out, Shi Jing was making soup in the kitchen, he was carrying her on his back, wearing black home clothes, holding a soup spoon in one hand and gently stirring the soup, she stood silently outside the kitchen door, and suddenly wanted to hug him, hugged him from behind, buried his face on his back, and then didn't have to think about anything, as if it would be very stable and quiet, this kind of tranquility is what she longs for, and at the same time what he longs for.

She seemed to hesitate for only half a second, then hugged him unceremoniously, pressed her cheek to his back, and felt Shi Jing's body freeze abruptly at first, but soon relaxed.

"Ten minutes to eat. Shi Jing's voice suddenly became extremely gentle.

Si Qi shook her head at first, but she soon realized that he couldn't see at all, so she had to say again, "I don't want to eat now." ”

"Then what do you want to do?" Shi Jing asked in a low voice.

Si Qi's nose was buried in Shi Jing's clothes, so she clearly smelled the refreshing smell of laundry detergent on his body, and she usually didn't feel a strange fragrance, but at this moment, it suddenly gave her endless imagination space, she was silent for a long time before she whispered: "I want to eat you." ”

Shi Jing: "......"

"Don't you really regret it?" Shi Jing turned around, lifted her face, and stared straight into her eyes.

Si Qi suddenly felt a sense of madness, she rolled her eyes at the snow-white and pure ceiling speechlessly, and asked, "Why do you always think that I will regret it? Am I the kind of person who messes around when my brain is hot?"

As soon as her words fell, I saw Shi Jing first turn around and turn off the fire, put the lid on the soup pot, and then her whole person was vigorously hugged and took a step back, Shi Jing's palm was held behind her head, and she lowered her head and kissed it, this is a kiss containing lust, fierce and entangled, with a lingering style, encroaching on some kind of naked desire, wanting to possess, wanting to hug, wanting to let the two people really merge together, and never be separated again.

When everything settled, Shi Jing hugged Si Qi, with undisguised shock on his face, if his feelings were not wrong, then she was... Still is...

Si Qi understood his doubts and admitted very simply: "Xiaojun is indeed not my biological son, after he escaped from the hospital, his girlfriend also threw the child in the hospital and ran away, and his mother kept begging me before she died, so I agreed." ”

Shi Jing: "......"

His face was stunned, and he didn't know what to say for a while.

"Even my parents didn't know about this, when I returned to Beijing with my children, everyone said that I had children out of wedlock, and the school ordered me to quit school for this reason. After Si Xiaojun finished speaking, he smiled bitterly and said: "You may think that I am not a virgin who is too much, and will raise a child for a shameless man who betrayed me, deceived me, and destroyed me, in fact, I am just unwilling, that feeling is difficult to describe, that is, I became a loser, and then looking at this child, I suddenly felt that my life was meaningful, so I adopted him without hesitation." ”

"It's okay, Xiaojun is my biological child now, and I will always treat him as if he were gone. Shi Jing gently kissed her smooth shoulder, "Just like you said, everything is over, we can start a new life, with you, me and Xiaojun, I will not let you down again, nor will I make you sad, I will try to make myself better." ”

Si Qi covered her eyes, but she couldn't stop the tears from pouring out, she unconsciously turned around and hugged Shi Jing: "Thank you." ”

"Thanks for what. Shi Jing hugged her tightly, "You said, we don't need to say thank you between us." ”

Si Qi didn't speak again, just yawned extremely sleepily, and then fell into a deep sleep without hesitation.