Under the moonlight, many emotions become dark.

Tsering Gesang didn't see what Bai was thinking, he couldn't have known about the secret conversation in the valley, and naturally he didn't have time to take care of Bai's excessive silence at the moment. When the memories of the past came one after another, Tsering Gesang was frank to this extent, and he didn't have too many scruples for a long time, and when he was forced to do so, he could only believe that Bai could give him some help.

And this mysterious man does have the ability to find clues between the lines and expose his lies one by one. Realizing that his honesty is, to a certain extent, just the difference between active honesty and passive honesty, and under several invisible battles, he did not have the slightest upper hand, Tsering Gesang simply gave up resistance, and there was no longer any hiding in the dialogue.

"Didn't you ask me why Yang Jin trusted me so much?"

Tsering Gesang murmured in a low voice to return to Bai's thoughts, he raised his lips lightly, and turned his gaze in response.

"Because of what?"

"It's because of Abba's experience, or rather, the totem on my arm. ”

The events of those seven days were like a dream, and Tsering Gesang did not wake up again at midnight after that. If it weren't for the ever-looming totem of the mandala flower and the terrible nightmares that tormented him endlessly, Tsering Gesang would have almost treated all this bizarre as his own hallucination.

But how can everything be just a dream?

Abba's aftermath has changed significantly, he no longer runs to Kawagebo Peak from time to time, drinking and scolding are still common, but those strange behaviors that hit the evil never happened again. A lot of things have calmed down, or just in Abba's body, and the people who have encountered all the strange things have already changed invisibly.

Now the one who endured the catastrophe brought about by that terrible sacrifice has become Tsering Gesang.

He was hardly sure if he had accidentally broken something to be chosen by fate, or if he had simply become Abba's scapegoat.

I don't know what I thought, Tsering Gesang's mood changed rapidly in just a few seconds, from the initial fierceness and hatred, to confusion and incomprehension, and many of these negative emotions dissipated, replaced by a trace of tenderness. At that moment, the nineteen-year-old boy's face showed the ignorance and youthfulness peculiar to his age, as if he was thinking of his sweetheart, and he carefully and cautiously hid many emotions lightly.

After a while, Tsering Gesang suddenly pulled the topic back and whispered.

"Yangjin is really important to me........"

At that moment, he was in a trance, as if he had woken up in a big dream.

The sudden trance feeling was clear and strong, and Tsering Gesang even wondered what evil he had fallen into, why didn't he have a door. Even if the secret of the totem has to be revealed, why do you need to take out the soft words hidden in your heart and chew them repeatedly, and say them in front of this almost complete stranger?

There is also Yangjin.......

When it comes to Yangjin, Tsering Gesang feels that the emotions in his heart have become uncontrollable.

Probably because he was too cautious, Tsering Gesang always kept things about Yangjin in his heart and refused to tell anyone. All the undercurrents are hidden under the appearance of pretending to be peaceful, and even every time he faces Yang Jin, he can do it without leaking, control his words and deeds within the scope of decency, and over time even deceive himself.

At first, he didn't dare to face it, but Tsering Gesang always felt that it was not the time, and the ignorant young man secretly admired the high saint, which was originally a fruitless thing. Emotional asymmetry is the most unreasonable, and perhaps when something unspeakable is vented out, it is already the end of the story. And when the accident of Kawagebo Peak happened, Tsering Gesang found that the so-called "later" did not leave him a chance, and he had no time to wait for the future with Yang Jin.

The sudden appearance of the accident was far more unreasonable than he had imagined.

Even if Tsering Gesang made great efforts to escape, even if he once seriously thought about whether there would be a new beginning when he and Yang Jin's identities changed and completely jumped out of this cursed fate. But it all collapsed with that avalanche, and everything about Yang Jin was left with remorse that could not be faced.

Later, Tsering Gesang thought more than once about when he was wrong.

The most difficult years are when they are together, and the days of uncertainty are when they accompany each other, but he is the only survivor in the end. It was Yang Jin who chose to retreat at the last moment, and then buried the long-standing efforts of the two people.

So, what's the use of feeling after the passage of time?

Can he turn back time, will he still have a chance to change those regrets? If not, what is the point of thinking over and over again. In addition to increasing the sadness, it is not likely to bring more benefits. Too many emotions to digest, he just repeated in a low voice.

"Indeed, it is important...... If it weren't for Yang Jin, maybe I would have died a long time ago. ”

"What do you say?" asked Bai lightly.

"Twice, she saved me twice, and if it weren't for her, where would I be. ”

The murmur shattered in the wind, as light as snow shattering in mid-air, and quickly dissipated.

Just like Tsering Gesang, he didn't dare to make imaginary illusory dreams.

If he hadn't met Yangjin, what would Tsering Gesang be like now?

Tsering Gesang has made several assumptions about this issue, but he has not been able to come to an accurate conclusion, maybe he will die on that snowy night when he is fifteen years old, or he may be lucky enough to leave his life, and then continue to live cowardly and humblely, in a muddy way. Or they will be driven crazy by endless nightmares and die at an unknown age, and the jury will be inconclusive.

But when the gods finally open their eyes, when the inner mind is strong enough to a certain extent, it will change the fate of the world. Just as Tsering Gesang's desire to live was too strong, he thought about saving himself countless times, but in the end, he really waited for a turnaround.

After Abba finally stopped thinking about going to Kawagebo all day, the rumors about his madness also subsided.

After many years, it seems that all the weirdness has come to an end.

The villagers gradually forgot about the terrible rumors of the gods' punishment, and at most occasionally mentioned a sentence or two after a cup of tea, and then quickly turned the page.

However, the environment in Tsering Gesang's home has not improved because of this, Abba's alcoholism has not been changed, and the occasional labor is just to earn some wine money, and the family's livelihood has become more and more difficult, and it has become a common thing to not be able to open the pot. The once thriving warmth no longer existed, and Tsering Gesang, as the eldest son, was forced to take on the responsibility of supporting his family, and before he had experienced a happy childhood, he was forced to become an "adult", burdened with those responsibilities that he did not have to bear.

It wasn't until Abba married again that Tsering Gesang's family status declined even more. At the age of fifteen, he was forced to stop his studies and work all kinds of handymen to fill the household, and many times he toiled for a day's work, and the pitiful wages were not enough for Abba's bottle of wine, or his sister's beautifully made notebook, or a few beautiful pens and erasers.

What's more, there are nightmares that haunt him all the time.

I don't know when the hatred for Aba settled in Tsering Gesang's heart, and little by little it took root and sprouted, brewing a despair deep into the bone marrow, which made the young man's reckless heart even more extreme. Tsering Gesang gradually stopped trying to tell whether Abba was a victim or not, and his heart became colder and colder because of the many tortures, and he rarely had any more waves.

This calm is like a time bomb, until under certain stimuli, the long-pent-up anger instantly explodes at a certain point in time, so that those hidden contradictions become uncontrollable, for example, on the day of the upcoming Chinese New Year's Eve.

The contrast between the joy of family reunion and the endless quarrels and wails was stark, and the disgust and anger that filled Tsering Gesang's heart exploded completely. When he realized that the conflict between himself and his family had reached an irreconcilable level, the Tibetan teenager rushed out of the door, only feeling that he didn't want to endure it for another minute.

At that time, he was just angry, Tsering Gesang didn't think about it that much, he wanted to escape from the home that made him sick, to find the legendary Snow Maiden, to find the temple that he had seen more than once in his dreams, to get rid of the nightmare that was tormenting him endlessly, to find an answer in the sacred mountain in the minds of the believers, or to put an end to it all completely.

Whether it was to pray for protection or question the way of heaven, Tsering Gesang could no longer tell.

The ignorant karmic fire in his heart dominated the fifteen-year-old boy, allowing him to take advantage of the night to ascend the peak of Kawagebo step by step.

- The sacred mountain that is forbidden to climb.

Tsering Gesang still remembers the bone-chilling cold of that day and the endless heavy snowfall. He didn't find the temple in the mirage, nor did he encounter the sacrifice in the dream, nor did he see the entangled sea of mandala flowers, but he got lost in the snow-capped mountains, and couldn't find his way down the mountain.

The heavy snow seemed to engulf everything in the world, and if it hadn't been for Yang Jin, Tsering Gesang would have died on that snowy night when he was fifteen years old. The survival after being put to death was completely an accident, but it was this accident that had a huge impact on Tsering Gesang, and he actually ushered in a turning point by chance and changed his fate after that.

After that shock, there was his new life.

Speaking of this, Tsering Gesang's tone paused slightly, and then he sighed in a low voice.

"It was Yang Jin who saved me that time, and it was also our first meeting. ”

"Well, let's take this as the first time she saved you. Bai's fingers curled slightly, reaching his chin, his tone slowed down slightly, and his gaze was fixed on Tsering Gesang's body, "Then what about the second time, and when is it?" ”

In response to him, the boy was silent for a moment, and then a very cautious sentence suddenly detonated into thunder.

"The second time was when she told me the secrets of her clan and talked about immortality. ”