Searching for the old lover Zhang Baotong 2019.3.2 Toronto trip

2. Lonely old age

I'm a very patient person, and if I want to do something, I can do it all the time, but I'm also an anxious person, and if I want to do something, I have to do it in a hurry to eat and sleep.

I want to go to Singapore right away and start my journey to find my past lovers. I am not without consideration for this kind of behavior, although it seems absurd, but it is a sincere and urgent desire in my heart. In fact, there are many things that do not have to be understood in a sense, just like someone is discussing why people eat. Because many things in the world don't have that much meaning in themselves, but are just a kind of wish of one's own. And the purpose of life is to fulfill one wish after another.

If I want to go to Singapore to meet that Xu Lisha, I have to know her address and contact information first. So, I decided to go to Mr. Ding's house. I left school in 90 years and was transferred to the Party Office of the Education Bureau, and later, I went to the district committee and the sub-district office, and I had just turned 30 years old when I left school, and now I have retired.

I went to Mr. Ding's house one morning in early April. The school was on Ziqiang West Road, and I blocked a car and spent more than 40 yuan to get to the family courtyard next to the school. After I left the school, I almost never went back to the school, the school has changed a lot, and the building has been built in front of the school. I entered the family home through a gate next to the school. There are two six-story buildings side by side in the family home. The new building 30 years ago now looks like two dilapidated old buildings, with discolored walls and gloomy appearance, like two old men sighing side by side.

It's been so long that I can't even remember which building Mr. Ding's family lives in. I asked a middle-aged man who came down from upstairs, "Excuse me, which building does Mr. Ding's family live in?"

The middle-aged man looked at me and said, "I don't know, I'm not from school." ”

Soon, I saw a familiar figure, she was Teacher Song, who turned out to be teaching junior high school mathematics. However, I am a good-looking person, and I don't want others to know that I came to Ms. Ding to visit her daughter. So, I quickly turned around. Fortunately, she was old, at least eighty years old, and she didn't recognize me because she didn't have good eyes. I hurried past to the building inside and asked a middle-aged woman. A middle-aged woman told me that Mr. Ding's family lived in the south house on the third floor of Ermendong.

I went to the south house on the third floor of Ermendong and knocked on the door. Someone inside asked me, "Who?"

I said, "It's me, Zhang Shaodong." ”

The door opened, and a middle-aged rural woman asked me in an accent from Huaiyin, Jiangsu, "Who are you looking for?"

I was stunned and asked, "This is not Teacher Ding's house?"

The woman let me in, and then shouted into the house, "Auntie, someone is looking for you." ”

When I entered the room, I saw that Mr. Ding had already stood up from the sofa, so I shouted, "Hello, Mr. Ding. ”

Teacher Ding looked at me, didn't recognize me for a long time, and asked, "Who are you?"

I said, "I don't know, I'm Zhang Shaodong." ”

Teacher Ding immediately said, "I haven't seen you for more than 30 years, and I can't recognize it." "Just let me sit down.

Don't say she doesn't recognize me, I don't even recognize her a little. When I left school, she was only 50 years old, and she was still the backbone teacher of the school, leading the head teacher of the key high school class. Now, however, she is in her eighties. His hair was completely white, his face was wrinkled, his body was shorter than before, and his waist was bent, and he looked like he was in his old age.

I put the fruit in my hand on the coffee table and looked into the house, the house was old, and the things in the house were also old. I can't see the brightness and brightness of more than 30 years ago. More than 30 years ago, this house was still newly built, especially with that baby daughter living here, which made people feel puffy and full of warmth and warmth. However, now this place has been eclipsed, not only does it not have warmth and warmth, but it also makes people feel a sense of loneliness and coldness. I asked Teacher Ding, "Is Master Xu okay?" Master Xu is her wife.

Teacher Ding said sadly, "He is gone, it has been three years, and he has a cerebral hemorrhage." He left at the age of 82. ”

That's when I saw Master Xu's portrait hanging directly above the desk. In the portrait, he was smiling kindly and gently, but he was not smiling happily, because he must be thinking about his beloved daughter. I sighed for a moment and said, "He's a long life." Then, he asked, "How is my daughter, still in Singapore?"

Mr. Ding said, "I went to Canada a long time ago. "She went to Singapore with her husband in '85 and stayed in Singapore to teach. Maybe in 87, I went to Canada with my husband and got a PR card two years later. Now lives in a small town on the outskirts of Toronto. ”

I asked, "She doesn't come back often?"

The old man sighed, "I haven't been back for years. Two years ago, when her father died, she came back to live for half a month, and then left. ”

"What are they doing over there?"

"I don't know too much, her husband seems to be teaching a Chinese school, and she is tutoring Chinese children. ”

Listening to the old man's words, my sense of reverence for them suddenly decreased a lot. I said, "Then why do they want to stay there? It's better to be in China, and now they are teaching at any university in Xi'an, and the salary and treatment will be very good." ”

Teacher Ding sighed and said, "No way, I also told them that I hope they can stay in Xi'an, but they said that they have adapted to life over there, but they can't adapt to life in China." ”

She asked me, "After you left school, you were transferred to the Education Bureau, and I heard that you later went to the District Committee?"

I said, "I first went to the Party Office of the Education Bureau, and two years later I was transferred to the District Party Committee Office. I stayed in the district committee office for more than ten years. Later, he served as the deputy secretary of the street office for more than ten years. I retired in March last year, and now I'm signing a contract with a website to write. ”

Teacher Ding said in a praising tone, "You are the most promising in our school." Then he sighed and said, "If my daughter had listened to me, she would have married you." I wouldn't be so lonely and desolate now. ”

I said, "I'm not as good as your son-in-law, and I'm not even as good as your daughter." Otherwise, she would have chosen him over me. They left the country so early, but I haven't been out until now. ”

She smiled and said, "Now going abroad is not the same as going out of the province, just get a passport." Then, she said angrily, "If I had known that this is the case, I would not have let my daughter go abroad." The thing I regret the most in my life is raising a daughter from someone else. ”

At this time, the middle-aged woman said to Teacher Ding, "Auntie, I went out to buy vegetables. ”

Teacher Ding said, "Okay, you can go." ”

After the middle-aged woman left, I said, "This is your nanny?"

Teacher Ding nodded, shook his head again, and said, "Is this the nanny my daughter hired for me, or is it a distant relative of mine." But I don't like it at all. It's dirty, lazy and gluttonous, you can eat three or five eggs at breakfast, and you can lie in bed and sleep when you have nothing to do after eating, and you don't know how to wipe the table and wipe the cabinet. So, sometimes I'm cleaning in this house. Otherwise, she was so thin when she first arrived, and now she is fat. However, what can I do, I am so old, I have high blood pressure, my heart is not very good, and I can't do it without anyone around. I can't be like everyone else, with children around and not need to hire a babysitter at all. I'm just such a daughter, so far away, I can't be relied on at all, who else can I rely on if I don't rely on a nanny?" he said, sighing.

I said, "If you don't want your children to fly too high and too far, don't let them grow wings that are too strong." But what parent doesn't want their children to get ahead, don't want their children to grow strong wings? But when they fly high and far, they will regret it again. ”

Teacher Ding said, "What you said is not bad at all. You know Teacher Qin's son Feifei, right?"

I said, "How can you not know? She used her son to be unseemly, not to study well, and often skipped school, so angry that they couldn't do anything." ”

Teacher Ding said, "However, later on, the family grew up, got married and became a family, and now the children are more than ten years old." Every Sunday, I drove the car, brought my wife and children to visit the old couple, and the three generations of the old and young ate and drank together, stayed for a day, and then left in the evening. Otherwise, every time I see Teacher Qin, I say that their lives are really good. ”

Then we talked about some things at school. She said to me, "You know what? Principal Wang died a long time ago, at the age of 53. ”

I was taken aback and said, "He's not in good health, why did he die so early?"

Teacher Ding said, "Half of them died of illness, and half of them died of fear. I heard that he embezzled a lot of money, and he embezzled two or three million yuan from the two family buildings of the school and the two teaching buildings of the school alone. Later, I don't know who sued the Municipal Commission for Discipline Inspection. The Municipal Commission for Discipline Inspection sent someone to investigate. He was hospitalized in the hospital at the time, and as soon as he heard that the Municipal Commission for Discipline Inspection had come to check his account, his blood pressure was high, and he died of a sudden heart attack. ”

I asked, "What is Mr. Liu in our department?"

Teacher Ding said, "He has been paralyzed for several years, and it has been Teacher Wu who has been taking care of him. But Mr. Wu is also in his 80s. However, her daughter is in Beijing and comes back several times a year. ”

Actually, I really wanted to visit Mr. Liu again, but as soon as I heard that Mr. Liu was paralyzed, I dismissed my idea, because people don't want to let others know about their bad side.

I asked Mr. Sun about his condition, and he used to live in the same dormitory with me. She said that Mr. Sun's wife had been dead for several years, and he was now living at his daughter's house. Then she told me all about the teachers in the school, and finally said, "The youngest people in the school have retired, and now when you go to the school, the people you see are all new people." Last year, I went to the school to pick up the Spring Festival condolences and attended a school party where few teachers I could know. ”

After chatting for a while, the nanny came back from grocery shopping. I said to Mr. Ding, "I want to travel to Canada, maybe to Toronto, do you have anything to do? I can go and bring a letter to your daughter." ”

When Teacher Ding heard this, he said happily, "Then you can go to my daughter's place as a guest." Their family lives in a small western-style building on the outskirts of the city. More than 10 years ago, I lived there with her dad for a month. ”

I said, "Why don't you stay with them now?"

Teacher Ding said, "They are good, the air is fresh, the environment is quiet, but they just can't see people." We lived there, we didn't even know anyone, and we didn't speak English, so we weren't used to staying there, so we were in a hurry to come back. After Lao Xu died, my daughter asked me to go there and live with them. I said I wouldn't go, go over there, I'm like a little animal in captivity, no one pays attention to anyone all day long, how lonely and lonely. So, I'm not going over there. As she spoke, she wrote her daughter's phone number and address on a slip of paper.

I was leaving, but Teacher Ding took my hand and didn't let me go, but insisted on letting me eat before leaving. However, I didn't want to eat here, so I said, "I have something to do at home, and I'll come back to you when I get back from Toronto." ”

Teacher Ding saw that I had to leave, so he reluctantly sent me to the door, and when I left, he said, "How nice it would be if I had a son-in-law like you!"

Remember the mobile version URL: m.

Chapter 1106.Searching for Old Lovers (Toronto Trip 2) (Page 1/1)

"Bookmark for easy reading"