As Tsering Gesang's words fell, many past events were re-read.

At first, Abba was not like that, he was not a muddy drunkard, but rather a very good and motivated person.

At that time, Abba was recognized as the youngest promising young man in the village, strong, clear-headed, and handsome and upright, he was almost the dream of the girls in the village. And he really can afford such an evaluation, he seems to have inexhaustible strength, full of energy, sharp as the dagger that adult men in Tibetan areas are used to wearing, the cold light that has just been opened has not completely faded, it is so sharp and invincible, as if there is nothing he can't do.

So it stands to reason that he is a wishful husband in the eyes of everyone. When they reached the marriageable age, many girls handed embroidered handkerchiefs to Abba, and entrusted the girl's heart little by little, and the matchmakers who came to say that they were close one after another, almost breaking the threshold.

Just as nature always survives the fittest, the strongest beast will become the king of the tribe, taking on more dangers and constantly protecting its companions, but at the same time it can also attract the favor of countless females with its strength value. In this simple village, ability and brain have become a certain degree of core competitiveness, and the older generation is extremely confident that this smart and strong man can support a family and make life better, so they are naturally willing to marry their daughters.

In the end, Abba naturally married the most beautiful girl in the village, and a good marriage was fulfilled. ”

When he said this, Tsering Gesang recalled his childhood, which was one of the few good memories in the long suffering, because it was too long ago and too unfamiliar, Tsering Gesang suddenly felt like a world away.

Over the years, the influence of the original family has penetrated deep into the bone marrow of Tsering Gesang, and he has long been accustomed to antagonizing Abba, treating him as an imaginary enemy like an enemy, eager to express his disgust from any little thing, and draw a line with him in the depths of his heart. It is precisely because he faces a dark life every day, which is full of sorrow and despair that is not only digested, as if the end can be seen at a glance, so Tsering Gesang knows very well what he will face in the end if he does not change.

The final result is obvious, if you stay in the abyss, what awaits Tsering Gesang is either driven crazy by this abyss, or completely swallowed up by the abyss and sinking into a dark and opaque darkness. So he almost desperately wanted to escape from this home, and for this goal, no matter what he did, Tsering Gesang could forgive himself. Memories are also powerful enough to tamper with many things, and Tsering Gesang gradually began to refuse to admit the happiness he had, and he even wanted to deny his own flowing blood, completely breaking off the relationship with Abba.

Only in extreme disgust can there be absolute courage to escape.

So Tsering Gesang forced himself to seal up the memories of his childhood, and all day long he turned out and chewed on days full of despair, constantly tearing at unhealed wounds, and reminding himself that he had to leave here with Yangjin. If fate cannot be violated, then flee to a place other than fate, and if the wrath of the evil gods is beyond the reach of mortals, then let the gods sleep forever in the cracks of time, and put an end to it in the most decisive way.

This is the only way out for him, and it is something that must be done.

Human beings are good at self-deception, and when considering those who have to face the necessary sacrifices, in order to reduce the guilt caused by the sacrifice and make their hearts feel better, they will always make up reasons to convince themselves and refuse to face the truth. Under layers of deception and beautification, in the end, even I may not be able to truly restore the truth.

For example, Tsering Gesang said that Aba was so cowardly, but in fact, earlier, when the tragedy had not yet begun, he was also a very good father, and he was the goal that the people in the village worked hard to strive for. At that time, the family did have a good time, which was one of the few good memories in the memory of Tsering Gesang for 19 years.

Although to this day, he does not want to admit it.

The cold wind tore at the swaying shadows of the trees, and also stretched the figures of Tsering Gesang and Bai very long. After closing the car door, Tsering Gesang walked a short distance in the direction of the door of his house, until his footsteps stopped because of Bai's words, and he was forced to stop and did not take the initiative to approach again, which was a certain degree of safe distance.

Bai saw Tsering Gesang's thoughts, and didn't mind his defensive look, and of course he didn't step forward again. So they kept a distance of a few meters between them, looking at each other from a distance through the faint moonlight, as if they were a silent confrontation.

"Sounds like a very moving story, how to put it...... A good couple?"

In the silence of Tsering Gesang, Bai opened his mouth lightly.

Although the words he spoke were a compliment in the literal sense, he did not mean any blessings, and his originally slightly bland tone was mostly dispersed by the evening breeze, and finally seemed to be indifferent with mockery.

"If you knew what was going on, you wouldn't say that. ”

Tsering Gesang didn't delve into the meaning of the vernacular, but just chuckled lowly.

Probably because the emotional changes were too obvious, or because the inexplicable depression around this mysterious man could not be shaken off, Tsering Gesang's ability to think became regressive. The words that he would never have spoken, and the past that he had not thought about for a long time, and who almost instinctively convinced himself of the remnant of the king earlier, were now churning uncontrollably.

All the details became distinct under the moonlight, and all the disguises were unveiled in front of Bai like a perspective, and Tsering Gesang could feel his loss of control, as if the water that had been firmly locked by the gate suddenly lost its interception, and rushed into a huge wave at the moment of breaking through the thick high wall.

"You even know what happened to my Abba, but of course you can't know the current situation in my family, huh...... If it weren't for the deliberate sarcasm of me, don't say such things, how can you afford your good couple?"

Tsering Gesang's voice was very soft, and even the desolation in his tone was exposed.

"It's not ironic for you, I said that this is cooperation, interests are paramount, you come and go, there is no reason to make each other unhappy. Therefore, Tsering Gesang, not only will I not be sarcastic about you, but I can also show more patience and solve all your scruples without affecting the final result, and even give comfort and explanation. ”

Bai's tone paused slightly, and the corners of his lips hooked with interest.

"Although I know the whole story, and how you ended up, it doesn't stop me from being a little curious—it's true that you're related to the Witch Saint Maiden beyond my expectations, but when you dig deeper, it's not hard to understand that mortal greed always lies in having extravagant hopes for things that are high, and admiration or admiration for gods, or even unrealistic coveting.

"The relationship between me and Yang Jin is not what you said, don't judge if you don't understand, this is the most basic truth of being a human being, if you can't even do this, there is no need for us to talk about it. ”

"It's not a good habit to be embarrassed and angry," Bai didn't show a little worry about Tsering Gesang's sudden turn of face, but was happy to appreciate the reflexive counterattack when the little beast was touched by the wound, and used this to determine Tsering Gesang's weakness, "You can't even face your own heart, what are you deceiving yourself?" ”

"What did you say?"

Tsering Gesang clenched his fists tightly, and his eyes fell fixedly on Bai's face, as if he was about to punch him in the next second. But at the smile of the unknown meaning of the corner of his white lips, his momentum quickly weakened. Many emotions that had been deliberately ignored became clear, and finally Tsering Gesang slowly let go of his curled fingers, and only sighed lowly.

"I didn't want to sacrifice her, I just wanted to save her......."

Bai didn't continue to talk to Tsering Gesang about this issue, but the smile on the corner of his lips became a little thicker.

After Tsering Gesang's inherent insistence in his heart has begun to waver, what he once believed in will turn around and become a burden on his heart, and when the stimulation is strong enough to crush all his sanity and make his long-standing persistence completely collapse.

The more resolute and cruel a person is, the more difficult it is to fight against his demons.

"What really intrigues me is the attitude of the Holy Maiden towards you, oh....... Yang Jin, that's what you call her, right?" Bai unhurriedly considered his tone and chuckled, "Why does Yang Jin trust you so much, if it's just a friendship between Pingshui, there is no need to confess to each other, only trust between the same kind, so as to talk about saving each other." But how old were you at that time, fifteen years old, an ignorant age, as an ordinary Tibetan teenager, why would she think that you were her kind?"

This time, Tsering Gesang was obviously silent for a much longer time, and only after a while did he whisper a sentence.

"Because of the legend of the Snow Maiden. ”

"How?"

"Faith is often a person's psychological sustenance, but if you are too attached to it, it will also form a misunderstanding, but it will become a kind of burden. For example, what do you do if someone questions something that you believe in? Do you follow the words of those people and pretend that nothing has happened, or do you continue to cling to it, being ridiculed like a madman by others, and then go further and further until you can't turn back at all...... It's a dilemma, right?"

Tsering Gesang's voice was very soft, and the tail notes seemed to be scattered in the wind.

For a moment, Bai almost felt that a tear was about to fall from the corner of his eye in this usually rebellious young man.