The slender back downstairs swayed in the wind. It was clear outside the window, and the deafening sound of thunder rolled in from afar. The wind was blowing and the rain was coming.

I stood by the window, pushing and pulling the window irritably, the harsh sound tickling the tip of the heart. She didn't have an umbrella with her, could she get wet?

She deserved it.

I cursed her, but my hand struck me out of a drawer with an umbrella. Walked to the door and paused.

His legs seemed to be filled with lead, and the sound of footsteps became heavier and heavier. Pushing open the door, I was about to walk out, and I still couldn't watch her fall into trouble.

I can't help but think about every word of my mother-in-law who picks up garbage.

"Don't mention it, two days ago his father was drunk and beat the child couldn't stand up, you look at your legs, and on your arms, he now runs away when he sees his father. ”

"His dad likes to play cards, the last time he lost was knocked off an arm, just a little bit to gamble again, I don't know how to stop, two days ago I took the money, how many bottles are not enough for him to practice. Not only did he beat the child, but the child's mother also beat ......"

She didn't need to go into too much detail, and I could already feel how aggrieved my mother had been over the years.

Ah, yes, I don't use the affectionate name of mother, I use my mother to call her. It's not that I respect her much, it's that the estrangement between me and her has reached the point where it can't be eliminated.

When I was in high school, I read a novel that looked like an essay, and there was a sentence in it that still impressed me to this day, for a sweet dream, I temporarily fell into a nightmare.

When she left my dad, was she also imagining her future? Now it has really become a dream, there are no beautiful dreams, only the nightmare of the rest of her life.

I want to wake her up from this nightmare, but where does she go when she does?

Rain, too much. It doesn't seem necessary to take an umbrella anymore.

The shoes were full of water, the toes were glued together, and every step was extremely difficult. Crossing the street, wandering where she had just been, just wandering.

She's gone. I laughed disdainfully, who would be stupid enough to wait for me to deliver an umbrella in such a place when it rains so hard. Not only for Zhao Yilun, but also for her, I am amorous again.

I have been waiting for these short and long twenty years. Waiting for someone who has not heard from me, waiting for a promise that flies farther and farther away with time, waiting for being forgiven, waiting for being noticed......

The last string in my heart is about to break, so why can't someone wait for me? Or do I not deserve to be waited for by anyone......

All the light was drowning in the rain, and no matter how I could discern it, I couldn't find its way. I was blinded by the oncoming rain, and the car parked a few centimeters away honked its horn frantically, and I was pulled aside by a pair of strong hands.

"Are you alright?"

The moment I heard the familiar voice, my tears were already flowing uncontrollably.

Zhao Yilun took me in his arms, waved his hand, and motioned for the driver to go first.

There was no danger just now, but I was unconscious.

Go back, step on the floor barefoot, even the floor is warm.

A towel fell from the top of my head, Zhao Yilun stuffed a cup of hot water into my hand, and he sat down cross-legged across from me.

I lifted the cup and took a sip, the tip of my tongue tingling. "The water is so hot. ”

"It's really hot!"

A hand reached out in front of me and brushed away the hair that was sticking to my mouth, "Cry." ”

"I said the water was too hot, who said they were going to cry......"

Bowing his head, tears smashed into the water glass, opening up a few ripples.

"Do you know, when I was a child, when I cried, my dad scolded me for not being angry, and after a long time, I didn't dare to cry in front of others...... But I really can't help it now. ”

He stretched out his arms and smiled slightly, "Come here." ”

I buried myself in his arms and wept.

Crying, but not daring to indulge. If this continues, my dependence on him will become deeper and deeper, and I am afraid that he will take root in my heart...... It's so unfair, he can do nothing, and I get deeper and deeper.

Raising his head slightly, his forehead brushed his chin, tickling, stretched out his fingers and pinched his chin, teasing him with a crying voice: "You have a long beard." ”

"What do you think of me getting a beard?"

"Don't ...... It's ugly!"

"Sooner or later, you're going to get ugly, who hasn't grown old, and you'll dislike me when I'm old?"

I leaned on his shoulder and almost murmured, "You may not be anywhere then, maybe you won't remember me." ”

He chuckled and pinched my face, "What are you talking about? ”

"Nothing. ”

I sat up, my eyes falling on his chin again, "Where have you been, why did it take so long to come back?"

"Forget it. I can't really see the beard or anything, it's just touching the hand. ”

His nose was stuffed, and he pulled out four or five pieces of paper in succession, wiping his nose without any image in front of him, and it didn't take long for a large lump of tissues to pile up on the ground.

When I went to draw paper again, I accidentally swept the paper bag on the table, and the big bags of snacks in it were scattered, all of which I liked to eat.

Zhao Yilun picked them back into the bag and explained, "I sent them from next door." ”

I pulled the food out again and stared at the package of the snacks...... Lu Xiangnan still remembers.

Every time I was in a bad mood, I would buy a big bag of snacks to vent my anger, and there was only one thing that troubled me at that time, and that was the exam. In fact, it seems that every exam is not very good. There were not many books in the drawer, but the snacks were full.

I tore open a packet of potato chips, pinched a few and put them in my mouth, chewed tastelessly, and somehow, I wanted to talk about my high school.

"When I was a sophomore in high school, I had a psychology class, and the teacher asked everyone at the front and back tables to talk about their experiences since childhood, Lu Xiangnan said that he had fallen from the second floor, and said that he hated eating chili peppers the most, and hated cats...... At that time, there was a lot of muttering, and I listened carefully. At that time, I really liked him, like falling into evil, I wanted him to understand how I grew up, and I also had a lot of happy and unhappy things I wanted to share with him. But one class was too short, and I quit before it was my turn. Then, we were divided into classes, and there were some things that we never had a chance to say again. ”

I piled the chips aside, my mouth glistening with unbearable acidity.

"But I want to say those things to you now, Zhao Yilun. ”

I met those deep eyes, and there was a torrent in his quiet and deep black eyes.

"My family is in W City, I remember telling you at the beginning...... Also, my birthday is November 8th, and since my mom is gone, my dad and my brother always forget, and only Xiaoliu remembers. ”

“...... That's all?" he looked at me incredulously.

“...... That's it. ”

I laughed at my own unseemly self-esteem, after all, I couldn't tell him what I was going through, it was humble enough, would he think I was unfortunate if I said it?

In that case, it would seem like I was pitiful......

"Is that really all?" he confirmed.

"Really. ”

That's all you remember......