Regarding the shelf, I was very resistant for a while, and I was looking forward to it when I opened the book, but I was always hesitant when it really came to this juncture.

I can't say, but after thinking about it, I decided to wait.

When, exactly? Maybe tomorrow.

An untold count of hesitations and wanderings kidnapped me.

I pretended to break free, but in fact I was half-pushing.

At the end of the last Mao class this afternoon, I listened to the ding-dong sound of the DingTalk message popping up, closed the page, and sighed.

I've never liked history, and this lesson is still foggy and I don't know what to do.

Drowsy, tired.

Sunset.

I sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and when I looked back, I saw a splash of color in the sky and the stars gradually brightening up in the neighborhood.

The mind was running slowly, like a rusty machine, creaking and rattling......

I started to ask myself again, when will it be on the shelves?

I don't know why, but I thought of a questionnaire I did a long time ago, and there was such a question in it.

I don't remember exactly how it is, but I guess it's because you like to change and challenge new things.

I especially like it, I like it more often, I like it in general, I don't like it, I don't like it very much.

Among the many options, it is obviously an anonymous questionnaire, but I still tick the general favorite.

I know that I am clamoring in my heart to dislike it.

......

That's who I am.

Avoidance, hesitation, duplicity...... Inferiority.

I am an extreme coward but occasionally arrogant, a pessimist and an optimist.

I have to say, you also have to admit that you will always be the one who knows you best.

I've always been aware of my shortcomings, I've tried to change, I've tried to hide.

I don't like talking to strangers, I don't like to express my opinion in front of people, I don't like anything improvised, because my mind spins very slowly, my brain gets knotted, I don't like my major, I don't like people looking at me and talking about me......

Dislike here is also equal to not being good at it, and the two influence each other and penetrate each other.

Maybe these small things that are not worth mentioning in the eyes of others can make me think about it and be depressed for a long time, and it doesn't matter how much I do to build my heart.

Sometimes you see that the sea is calm, but there are rough waves under the calm surface.

In the eyes of my parents and others, I may be a good-tempered, obedient person, and a hard-working person, but that is not the real me.

I don't dare to tell others this, I am afraid that others will be surprised and ask: What do you have to be inferior?

This is a question that I often ask myself.

Maybe it's because of past experiences, maybe it's looks, maybe it's ...... What a reason to fuck everything?!

A person's character is like that, and there are thousands of personalities in a thousand people.

Maybe many people don't have low self-esteem, but they are just a little introverted.

Why is self-confidence even a good character, and people must make themselves confident?

Go to the subway station to give a speech, sing on the street, interview strangers...... Use a series of means to force yourself to be confident.

Why?

Why?

Is it really happy?

Why do you have to step out of your comfort zone?

Isn't it better to do what you can, can do, and like to do in your comfort zone?

The world is big, and the happiness is the greatest.

Nothing is more important than happiness, and if anything, it should be money.

There will be gains and losses, and when you get money, you will lose your troubles. (!Surprised Niangniang's quotations, haha just kidding~)

Codeword is a very happy thing for me, and I can feel happy in it, which is the most important reason why I can choose it.

I still have a lot to lose, but as I said in the comments, only love can last a long time

I'm willing to spend more time getting it right.

Listing on the shelves means a sense of responsibility to me, similar to how it will become a "commodity", and I, as a "producer", must be responsible for the customer.

This is where my hesitation actually comes from.

I wasn't sure I could take on the responsibility, so I didn't dare to take this step.

But as a listing testimonial, I should have taken a step forward by the time you saw it.

Please believe me, I will try.

I don't know what kind of personality you are in front of the screen, and you won't have this kind of trouble, if you don't have the best, if you do, it's not a big deal, we don't have to force ourselves to do things we don't like, just bypass it, and embrace things that make us happy.

Never be discouraged, you are the treasure. There will be treasure hunters, who have gone through a lot of hardships, walked thousands of miles of mountains and rivers, come to you, and sincerely say to you, ah, you are so dazzling, I am worth it, and you are equally worthy.

The meaning of my writing novels is to be able to make you in front of the screen feel happy, moving, funny, just so that you can forget some unhappiness when you are watching, and I will build the kingdom of the book for you to rest.

How can I say the above, it can be regarded as Ben Tian's frank self-analysis, sincerity, and some of my superficial opinions, so that you can understand me a little better, thank you for listening to Ben Tian's broken thoughts.

Wow, I see that other authors' testimonials on the shelves are short and concise, will you get bored of reading it?

I'll do it as soon as I can, as soon as I can.

Back to the work, the content of the ghost and demon lady driving to the front of the book is equivalent to a window period, giving enough time for the male and female protagonists to cultivate their feelings, but the progress of the plot is relatively slow.

After that, the content will be relatively tighter, and the pace will be a little faster, the exposure of Niangniang's identity, as well as the identity of our Han brother, the entanglement of the Three Realms......

And then the second male will also be online.,At present, I want to get a mother's childhood sweetheart to come out.,Please look forward to it.。

There is also the confession of the male and female protagonists...... First kiss...... The first night, yes, yes...... Ahem, serious.

Of course, there will be some glass slag mixed in the sweet cube.

In a word-get in the car, Sister Sweet will take you flying.

I hope everyone can live a sweet and sweet life!

Wait a minute, and finally share a line with you, which is from "Please Answer 1988" - "Fate still has timing, not an accident that automatically comes to the door, it is a countless choice made with sincere hope, a moment of creating a miracle, giving up without hesitation and making a decision on the spot, making the opportunity, that guy is more earnest, I should summon up more courage, the funny thing is not the traffic light, not the timing, but the hesitation that I can't count." ”

ok，bye~