The Long Wait (novel) Zhang Baotong 2016.9.10

2. Heavy blows

Schumann has been living at Vic's house to learn the piano, and has spent many years with his owner's daughter, Clara, who is nearly 10 years younger than him, and has a tacit crush on each other. The fact that he was able to learn and play with the girls he liked www.biquge.info naturally made Schumann very happy, and he also made rapid progress. However, Schumann always felt that he did not play the piano as well as Clara. This made him very anxious and uneasy. In fact, there are many regrets and things that cannot be changed in this life. Clara has been learning the piano with her father, Vic, since she was 5 years old. Moreover, Clara is a genius girl. Although Schumann also began to learn the piano at the age of 5, his father was not a pianist, but a bookstore. Although his father had always encouraged him to study music, his mother asked him to study law after his death. So, he almost gave up music from the time he graduated from high school to the time he went to college. It wasn't until he was 19 years old, after listening to Paganini's music recitals, that he decided to switch to music and began to study piano again.

If one wants to start working hard to become a piano master at this age, it is obviously a little too late. His musical sensibility and perception are outstanding. But his playing skills lagged far behind his expectations. He couldn't compare to Clara in terms of fingering or proficiency in playing the piano. And every time they played together, he always felt that she was clearly playing better than him, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't close the gap between them. Moreover, Mr. Vic was constantly critical of his playing skills, which made him feel like he was about to collapse.

The melancholy and depression in his heart can only be excreted by music, and he wants to fill the emptiness and loneliness in his heart through significant progress and improvement in the piano, so as to satisfy the demanding desire in his heart to become a famous pianist as soon as possible. He practiced like crazy, trying to make up for years of neglect in music. However, the teacher, Vic, continued to teach him step by step according to the pre-established schedule. This made him feel and even complain that the teacher was too slow to teach.

Once, he couldn't hold it anymore, so he said to Mr. Vic, "Mr. Vic, can you speed up the lesson you taught me?" because he was impatient with the mechanical training that was repeated every day, and he wanted to skip this monotonous and mechanical training in order to save time and achieve speed.

However, Mr. Vic said to him very seriously, "I think you should know the ordinary truth of how deep the foundation is and how high the building is?"

A word from the teacher left him speechless. Of course he understands this, but he is a talented musician, and there is no need to treat him like an ordinary person. But this kind of thing was still not spoken. Because he knows the temper and personality of Mr. Vic. If he sees something, no one can change him.

Since the teacher didn't want to take quick measures against him, he took some steps to push himself. In order to quickly improve his skills, he went so far as to continue practicing secretly by hanging his four fingers from the ceiling with a string while he slept, trying to improve the dexterity and strength of his finger touches.

However, within a few days, he found that his ring finger was injured, and the slightest touch of the keys was very painful. He went to the hospital to ask the doctor to find a way to treat him, because he was in a hurry to practice. The doctor examined his ring finger and told him, "You probably won't be a pianist." Because it's not the bones that you're destroying, it's the whole tendon tissue, and it's irreversible. Listening to the doctor, he knew it was the result of his abnormal training methods. However, if he is not allowed to play the piano, what is the point of his life?

When he told his teacher the news, Vic's face turned blue and he roared angrily, "Who told you to do this, why don't you do what I say?" he could not defend himself, because he could only blame himself for being clever and eager to succeed, and he could only consider himself unlucky. However, he resolutely continued to insist on learning and practicing. It's just that the playing skills are not as good as before. The dream of becoming a famous German pianist was shattered. This made Schumann more and more pessimistic and depressed.

Before the age of 16, Schumann's life was relatively happy, but after the death of his father, his life and personality changed greatly. Soon after, his sister suddenly committed suicide, which made him sad for a long time. Especially a few days ago, his brother committed suicide again, which made him almost collapse, and his emotions and personality suddenly became unusually silent and pessimistic and melancholy. Fortunately, Clara was always by his side, which gave him a lot of comfort. However, now his ring finger is injured and he can no longer play normally. He's almost a wreck. This was undoubtedly the heaviest and most fatal blow to his entire life. He once wanted to commit suicide, feeling that his ideals had been shattered and that it was boring to live in the world. However, he thought of how sad his mother was when his father died, and his sister and brother committed suicide one after another. How sad his dear mother would have been if he had not lived, and the lady he loved, Miss Clara, who had been waiting for her to grow up. He had promised her, too. So, he couldn't let her down.

That day, they practiced together again. When Clara had played a cheerful tune, it was time to play a quartet with him. This is the piece they must play when they practice together. In this way, not only can they cooperate and promote each other together, but also make their two hearts of love closer together. However, he shook his head pessimistically and said, "I can't play quartets with you anymore." As he spoke, tears flowed from his heart. Because not being able to practice and play with her is his biggest regret. Over the years, even though he has had many sad things, as long as he is with her, those sad and sad moods will soon be replaced by a cheerful and excited mood. However, he could no longer play with her.

The young and beautiful Clara took his hand and looked at his fingers carefully. She touched his fingers with her hand. When she touched his ring finger, he let out a painful "oooh". She rubbed his fingers lightly with her hands, and tears welled up in her eyes. As a young pianist, she certainly knows what fingers mean to a pianist. With tears in her eyes, she said to him, "Don't be sad, let my finger be your finger." After saying that, he hugged the genius and hero she had admired since she was a child.