"I'm coming for you. ”

"I'm really not Liu Ruoning!" I pushed him away, but I couldn't push him no matter how hard I tried.

I'd rather I heard it wrong and came to me......

"Hey, do you want to buy something?" The stationery store owner on the other side of the phone was a little angry, and whispered: "What's the situation, it's ..... big night?"

"I need to buy paint, can you come over now?"

"Su Ke!" Lu Xiangnan leaned down, the light swept across his face, and he struggled to look at me.

The smell of alcohol permeated the cold air, weaving between us wantonly.

He leaned into my ear and whispered in a small, negligible voice, "I'm not looking for her...... I'm looking for you. ”

"Click-" The phone slid from my hand to the floor.

In a brief silence, he and I were both mute.

"Brother Nan, what are you doing..... What are you doing? Gash-" The drunken boys who came with him staggered towards us.

I took a slow, deep breath, feeling astringent in my heart that if I didn't...... It's going to get harder and harder.

"Brother Nan, go back to the dormitory!" In the dark, several boys even snapped their fingers and whistled.

Lu Xiangnan turned his head and said coldly: "Get out!"

"Ah, you have a temper—"

"Hiccup, go, go, he, doesn't he like this little girl—"

I waited for an opportunity to push him away, but was dragged back before I ran half a meter away.

In the moment I faced him, I forgot what to do even something as simple as breathing.

"What the hell are you going to do!"

There was silence again, and this was the point that I couldn't stand him the most, and I didn't even dare to say what I wanted to say when I was drunk.

But essentially, we're all the same, aren't we?

I hate him like this, and I hate myself like this.

He drew closer, his warm snort spraying down my neck, and the cold wind coming in from time to time.

I don't think we're so close, the invisible distance between us is getting farther and farther.

The sound of whizzing cars crosses the road, and the intermittent wind from the traffic blows the green belt along the fence.

"I, like you Su Ke. ”

The moment I heard these words, the emotions I thought I had suppressed exploded like fireworks that had been dumb for many years.

"Open, are you kidding, Lu Xiangnan?"

Why didn't you say it sooner...... Why do you pretend to be indifferent in front of me every time?

He was full of fatigue, pulled out a smile at me, and said helplessly: "I also drank wine to strengthen my courage...... Finally spoke up. ”

"So why didn't you say it sooner?" I grabbed his clothes with all my might, what the hell was that!

Lu Xiangnan...... Since when?"

"High school, the first time you were in a class, you put a note in my book, do you remember?"

It was a love letter, and the day after I gave it to him, I took it back from his textbook with regret.

It turned out that he saw it.

In those forgotten times, while I was looking at him, he was also looking at me.

Is he watching me too?

I choked up, all the grievances and unhappiness mixed with tears, and big drops rolled down my cheeks.

"Do you know that the way you talk to other girls is really annoying, the way you look at their expressions is no different from the expression you look at me, and the tone you talk to them is no different from the tone you used to tease me when I didn't do well in the exam, you do this to everyone!"

So I thought that it was just me, only myself who had been watching your back, me and them..... Nothing different.

"Lu Xiangnan, do you know where I started to want to stay away from you?"

Not wanting to take his feelings into account, I continued to growl.

"Do you know that I had the opportunity to repeat my studies again, because you said that we can be closer to college, so I came to Z College, because I knew that I would not be able to reach the level of Z University for two more years, so I came to Z College...... So I suffered a lot of white eyes, you know?"

The sourness in my heart entangled the tear ducts, and I cried louder and louder.

"What time did I not come to you, you never looked for me, and even what I said when I was hospitalized was not salty or light...... Do you know that Liu Ruoning's expression is really annoying! Do you know that she called you Brother Nan, and I really responded after hearing it! Do you know that you never showed up when I wanted to see you!"

"Su Ke..... What can you do to relieve your anger?" he cupped my face and wiped the tears from my face little by little with his slightly rough hand.

I turned my head away, and after catharsis, my body had no strength at all.

"I have a boyfriend. He gulped and didn't want the tears to come down again.

He turned my face to look at him, frowned and asked, "Are you still angry, why are you making such a joke?"

"No kidding. ”

Obviously, I controlled it very well just now, but somehow, even the tears were falling down when I looked up.

That's not what you just said. Don't play such jokes with me. ”

"How many times do you want me to say it, I like Zhao Yilun, and he also likes me. "Taking a deep breath, I couldn't stand anymore, and I squatted on the ground.

"And what did you just say?"

"Can't you just get drunk and watch me go crazy!"

"Suco ......"

"If I wasn't with anyone else, wouldn't you ever tell me what you thought!"

"Lu Xiangnan, I'm too tired to like you. ”

Really tired.

I admit that I am the best at waiting, but I have been slow to get a response in the pretending to be deaf and dumb...... Whoever it is, I can't help but turn around.

The phone lying on the ground was vibrating eagerly, and the shattered screen was showing, Xu Wei.

But when it's so uncomfortable, I have to go to the board to report.

Lu Xiangnan was still standing in place, he didn't say anything.

Yes and me..... Is it just as uncomfortable?

I didn't have the courage to look at him again, and I knew I couldn't see the look on my face.

I picked up my phone and stood up.

For the first time in my life, I said what I wanted to say the most, and although I stabbed the person I used to care about the most, what I wanted to express should have been expressed clearly.

None of us owe anyone anything, and emotionally, no matter how hard we try, the regret for those who were lost in the past is irreparable.

"Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll give you back the glasses, and then you can give me the washed picture. ”

The owner of the stationery store was waving at me.

Before he could answer, I ran straight into the stationery store.

When I returned to school with a pile of paint, my eyes were swollen when I stood on the ladder to draw the starry sky.

Fortunately, it was at night, and I kept facing the wall and no one could notice.

It's uncomfortable, it's still uncomfortable.

Treating black as plain blue, the whole painting was almost ruined.

I remember that Mr. Ai said in a joke, 'No matter how uncomfortable it is, you must do what you have to do, because no one will do it for you.' ’

yes, no one is going to do it for me.

I picked up the rag, gently sucked some of the paint off and waited for it to dry up, and then reapplied the plain blue.