Gu Jincheng thought that he would die for a while, maybe he would die of illness, old age, or a car accident, but he didn't guess that he would die by suicide!

At the moment of making up your mind, you can accept the impact of reality more often, because of guilt, because it is too painful, and death is a relief.

When did you fall in love with Xiyue? When I first met her, she was just an ignorant girl, with a bookish face, and at that time, he had no feelings for her, and it was completely for the sake of exploitation!

Even if she was drunk and lying in his arms, he was indifferent, and later in the same place, on the top floor of the Golden Feather Building, when she jumped down because she was misunderstood, because of his set-up, at that moment, his heart began to sprout!

What kind of girl is it? What kind of girl will use death to prove her innocence, what kind of girl will love someone wholeheartedly, and know that she will be hurt without hesitation, what kind of girl is it, simple and kind to the point of being like a cluster?

His life has always been dark, and every step has been like walking on thin ice, and his heart is like a heart to live well! He is as desperate and gloomy as he lives in the gutter, until she appears.

She, like him, is a low-level figure in society, his mood has changed at his age, he knows how to play tricks, knows how to be tactful, but she doesn't, under any circumstances, she appears like a warm sun!

It was ironic that she had brought light to his life! But he found out too late, and when he began to understand his heart, she was back with another man!

Later, he also thought about perfection, perfection is a virtue, respect is a kind of free and easy! He also did it, so he silently stayed by her side, and it was not bad to be a knight!

But when did he change? When she was hurt three times and still didn't look back at him, then her pride ached like a pinprick!

He wasn't very clear-headed, otherwise he couldn't believe why he did such a thing! He felt that he was a little more disgusting than a beast.

During that time, he didn't dare to look in the mirror, and when he saw his own face, he would feel disgusted! so disgusting that he wanted to destroy it.

In Hechuan, he originally wanted to redeem and erase the unhappiness between them by giving with all his heart, but things always went unexpectedly, and he made things worse!

He was glad that he had blocked a few bullets for her, which meant that he felt a little less uneasy in his heart!

Later, after lying in the hospital for a long time, he successfully recovered his health, he heard that Xiyue still did not get better, he felt that his heart was dripping blood, he was like a ghost, he couldn't live under his eyes!

So he decided not to go out anymore, he locked himself in Huayuan, the room full of her shadows, looking at her, he felt that he was still alive!

During that time, he had insomnia every day, tears would flow when he closed his eyes, his mind became clearer the deeper the night, his whole brain was occupied by the shadow of the setting moon, he was losing weight at a speed visible to the naked eye, people were crazy about him, he wished he was crazy.

So, he tried to drive himself crazy, at least not too normal, so that he could live in peace, but no matter what method he used, he couldn't do mental abnormality.

So, he decided to face the reality bravely, he dressed himself up very energetically, went to the hospital to see Xiyue, it was good to see her, all the restlessness some time ago has been found at this moment, and he finally understood what he should do next.

When he returned, he began his normal life, eating and sleeping on time, occasionally reading, praying quietly, waiting quietly, waiting for the one when she would fully recover.

If she died, he would follow her, and if she came back, he would apologize for her death and never appear in her presence again, and this was his way.

Hearing that she was discharged from the hospital, he felt more relaxed than ever, because he was about to leave this world, he felt that there was nothing to be afraid of, nothing to hate, and he even gave blessings, wishing Xiyue and Qi He a lifetime of happiness!

Until the moment the bullet passed through his chest, he wondered if he would have been with her if he hadn't had for Saiga, and would she have fallen in love with him if he had met her in college earlier?

The answer is no longer the answer! What he has been chasing all his life is just a dreamlike bubble. But he still has good expectations, they will definitely be able to love each other in the next life, right?

He thought it would be good to die like this, probably because he had done too many bad things and didn't want to make him feel better!

He stayed alone in the hospital for many months, and occasionally heard the voices of doctors and nurses, but there was no one he imagined!

If he could have a little strength, he would have pulled out the oxygen mask and finished himself, but he didn't! He could only lie half-dead in this place even more terrible than the coming hell, waiting for death!

He only had his last breath left, how much he wished he could swallow it, the doctor he still had expectations, so he couldn't die, what did he expect?

The night before she came, he had a dream in which he was reincarnated into an ordinary family after his death, and he had little money, but he lived happily!

When he was eighteen years old, he met a girl, she was really, simple, elegant, beautiful and lovely, and before he could open his mouth, she made her love him!

He looked at the familiar appearance in front of him and was surprised and delighted, he asked her name, she was called Xiyue in her last life, and she came here to reunite with him in this life!

The next morning, he woke up from a sweet dream, and for the first time in this hospital, it wasn't that bad!

He thought that if he died, no one would shed tears for himself, but he was wrong, and there were still people who would shed tears for him, even though he was a bastard.

The moment he saw her, all the pain disappeared, and the pain kept haunting him and didn't let go, but he ran away when she came!

He hadn't opened his mouth for a long time, but in front of her, he still wanted to be a hero, and he tried to make a mellow voice to tell her that he was okay, however, he couldn't.

He could only use all his strength to think weakly, in fact, he thought too much, but he never came out again, his eyelids were too heavy, his whole body suddenly lost his feeling, and his heart slowly stopped beating.

He tried to open his eyes and look at her again, but it was getting darker and darker, and then he heard a cry for help from the ground, and it was Yuzuki who was calling his name over and over again.

How much he wanted to tell her that he was okay, that he was fine!

He foresaw his own death, the moment he fell in love with her!