Sisters (short story) Zhang Baotong 2016.4.26

4. One evening, when my sister went to work, my sister entrusted the child to an acquaintance to help take care of it, and followed her sister from a distance. My sister walked out of the village, walked down the road to a suburban street, and soon entered a building in a residential complex. She saw a light on one of the windows on the third floor, and knew that her sister was in that house. However, she knew that she could not enter the house, and that she would not be allowed to enter, so she asked a woman who was going upstairs who lived in the house. The woman sued her that she was a middle-aged man who had been single for many years.

When my sister heard this, she felt as if her heart had been taken away, as if she had lost consciousness of the qiē around her. She can be tolerant of everything, but she can't figure it out except for this kind of thing. Because in her mind, her sister has always been an idol she reveres and trusts. But now, the idol has suddenly collapsed.

My sister still came back late, and when she came back, she was still very tired, and she had to go to bed without saying anything. At this time, my sister asked in a very calm but strict tone, "What are you doing?" My sister couldn't help but be a little surprised, because my sister had never asked her in such a tone, so she said, "Didn't I tell you, to be a nanny for others." My sister said, don't lie to me, the family you went to is a single man. My sister's head was lowered, and she didn't say anything more.

That night, the two sisters tossed and turned, tossing and turning, and stayed awake all night, and it was as if the two had suddenly formed a deep hatred, and neither of them paid attention to the other. I stayed up until dawn was approaching, and my sister fell asleep. When the child cried and wanted to feed, the younger sister woke up from the dream and found that her sister was no longer around. When I looked again, my sister's backpack and clothes were gone, but I saw a hundred yuan and a slip on the table. The note read: I'm leaving, I'll come back when I'm done with my family. Sister.

When her sister is gone, it seems that her soul has been taken away, making every day of her life feel unreal and unreal. In the days without my sister, time seems to have lost the light of hope and attachment. The sun rises from the bright sky and sets over the gray twilight. There was not even a little bit of brightness in the day.

This was the first time in her life that she was living celibate away from home. She always felt a strangeness and panic in her heart about being in a remote wilderness. When my sister was there, there was still laughter and anger in the house, but now, all day long, it was shrouded in dull anxiety.

The house she lives in is the owner's old home. There are also two other tenants living in the courtyard, both of whom are farmers who have gone to the city to work. I go out before dawn in the morning, and I don't go back to the house until dark, so it's hard to see each other a few times. So, she spends most of the day sitting in front of the door with her baby in her arms, watching the pretentious locals pretentiously walk back and forth in front of the door, or shouting loudly. These locals made a fortune by selling their land, so they were idle and bored all day long, doing nothing, except for playing cards in a group, or twisting their ****** and swaggering around the city with a loud voice. She never wanted to get acquainted with these people, and she felt contempt in her heart.

Even though time is always so dull and boring, it is still flowing endlessly. Every day that time passed, she had to pay for a day's food and housing, as well as electricity and water. She doesn't know when her sister will be able to return, so she always pays close attention to the budget. However, if there is only money in the house, and there is no money in the house, then you will not have to spend any amount of money. I bought a bag of flour and a basket of carrots, paid for the room and water and electricity bills for another month, and after that, I also saw the child once, and in a blink of an eye, the money left by my sister was spent.

The city is not like the countryside, where you can't live without money. She waited all day long for her sister to come back soon, otherwise, how would she live in the future! However, I don't know if the family affairs have not been settled, or if my sister is still holding a grudge against herself, and my sister still hasn't come back. She regrets it now when she thinks about it: she actually has the least right to blame her sister, if it weren't for her and the child, how could her sister do that kind of thing?

Just when she was looking forward to seeing it and was impatient, her sister wrote to her that her relationship with her brother-in-law was very stiff, and it was not easy to come out in the near future. Come back after the solar calendar year. There is still a month to go until the solar calendar year, but she is now penniless and empty-handed. For the whole day, her mind was buzzing, and her eyes were pitch black, as if she had been sentenced to life imprisonment and sitting in prison.

But no matter what, life has to go on, and you have to continue to hide here. Because her ex-husband has been looking for her everywhere and wants to force her to remarry, otherwise he will snatch the child away. At this point, she had to live on debt. In the evening, after waiting for the man on the tricycle next door to come back, she came to visit the door as if she was idle, and when she left, she said that she had no money to buy noodles and coal, and wanted to borrow him some money, and pay him back when her sister came. The man asked her how much she wanted to borrow. She said it's just two hundred dollars. The man said he only had a hundred dollars. She said a hundred would be fine.

The noodles were bought last month, and the rent was owed first, and with this 100 yuan, she still struggled to live the solar calendar year. However, my sister wrote again that the family was busy, and I was afraid that I would not be able to get out until the New Year. She couldn't help but feel dizzy, and she just wanted to plant herself on the ground and never wake up. Because there is still a month and a half between the solar calendar year and the new year, I don't know if she and her child can live to that time. Besides, lately, when the man who lived next door saw her, he asked her when her sister would come back, and she always replied that she would come in the Gregorian year, but now that she was asked again, how would she answer?

Because the Chinese New Year is approaching, people who work outside have to bring money home to buy New Year's goods. So, this is the least time to borrow money. In desperation, she had to borrow money from the big fat woman who opened a small shop opposite. The big fat woman sometimes went to the toilet, so she asked her to help guard the store, and often made a wish to her that if she wanted to use the money, she would just ask. But she doesn't know the locals, don't look at them twisting their ****** on weekdays, pulling their loud voices to show their wealth, and boasting about Haikou. But when you do borrow money from them, it's like cutting their flesh with a knife. As soon as the big fat woman heard that she had come to borrow money, her face suddenly drooped, and she first cited the case of a peasant from another county who borrowed 200 yuan from the landlord and fled with his family overnight, and then discussed the views that it is better to borrow money from outside than to keep it in the bank. The final conclusion is that only fools lend money out.

She thinks this person is really hateful, you don't borrow money and just say it, why do you say so many things that don't eat food. She tried to leave the door several times, but she endured it. Therefore, when the big fat woman opened the drawer with the key and took out a hundred yuan and handed it to her, not only did she not appreciate it at all, but even wanted to scold the big fat woman happily.

Having tasted the humiliation of borrowing money, she wanted to eat less and use less than borrow money from others. The New Year is a celebration of the year. At this time, people are willing to spend money, buy this and that, and prepare for the New Year. Those half-dead businesses on weekdays have also begun to slowly become popular, and prices have been soaring all the way, almost expensive to buy. Therefore, for people who are short of money, the New Year is really a difficult pass.

In order to avoid spending money, she does not go to the market or even the yard. But no matter whether you spend money or not, the New Year is the New Year after all, and the people in the mountains have to eat meat for three days no matter how hard and poor they are, otherwise there seems to be no atmosphere and feeling for the New Year, and there is no grand expectation for the coming year. Although she thought the same way, her waist bag was already empty. Moreover, the bottom of the noodle bag has already been seen, and there are only about a dozen pieces of coal left. However, my sister still has no time to return. So, for days, she has been worrying about who to borrow money from. Everyone knows that she is a farmer from other places, with a child less than half a year old, who can neither go out to work, nor have any hope to rely on, for fear that she will not be able to repay the borrowed money. And when she thought of the low voice when she borrowed money from the court, the humiliation and despicability of aggrieved and begging for life, she felt that life was worse than death, and she was ashamed of herself. Besides, who should I borrow money from?