The Woman in the Mountains (novella) Zhang Baotong

I listened to her story and asked, "What happened then?" she shook her head sadly and said, "I wrote back to him that no one in my family agreed to my divorce, so he forgot about me and stopped writing to me, because the letter would be seen and torn apart." After that, he never wrote to me again. ”

I said to her, "Life is like this, the people you love and the people who love you often can't love and be with you. The person you're with is just the one who happens to be in front of you at some point. But you and your husband were forcibly pulled together by your father. So, your marriage is even more unhappy. "Of course I know that the more unloved people are, the more they crave love, and this extreme desire for love can easily make her cheat.

In our memory, joy always flashes like a flash in the pan and disappears in an instant. Sorrow and sorrow can take deep root in the heart. Our hearts are as weak as water, sentimental and sad, and those feelings of tranquility, warmth, loneliness and loneliness often wander in our hearts, making us think innocently and obsessively, and persistently inquire, as if we want to crack the code of life.

She suddenly asked me, "You must love your wife very much, don't you?" I shook my head and said, "We've been divorced for several years, but she doesn't agree. When she heard this, she was surprised and asked, "Why?" I said with a sigh, "because at first she thought that I was the child of an ordinary worker's family, and her brothers and sisters were looking for the object of the cadre family." So, she asked me for a divorce, and just as we were about to get a divorce, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. She said she wanted to get a divorce after the surgery. However, after the surgery, she changed her mind and refused to divorce again. She said that what she was thinking about now was not a divorce, but to save her life. Therefore, in order to save her life, I didn't dare to force her to divorce. However, next year, it will be a safe period of five years for her surgery, and she said that by then she will agree to divorce me. ”

She glanced at me and said to me in a sympathetic tone, "I didn't expect you to be a miserable person. As he spoke, he kissed me infinitely tenderly. I felt that she was so delicate and charming in the bright and gorgeous sun, so I took her in my arms and kissed her hard.

She indulged in my arms for a while, then came out of my arms and said, "It would be nice if we could both live together!" I shook my head and said, "It can only be a good wish, because divorce is easy to say, but hard to do." ”

We sat on the grassy slope full of flowers, watching the flowers bloom warmly in the sun, listening to the time flowing silently in front of us like air. It feels like you're in a dream, and it's like time suddenly stands still in front of you. The warm time is always infinitely beautiful in the imagination, but in reality it is so plain and calm. Yes, romantic times are very wonderful and fleeting for everyone, and once lost, they are out of reach.

So, I said to Qiao Ling, "This kind of scene and feeling is so beautiful, I will cherish it in my heart and make it a good memory for my life." When she heard this, she asked, "Didn't you say you'd come back next year?" I nodded, and said, "I'll come again, but I'm afraid that then I don't know what will happen to me again, and whether I can go back to the time we have now." "As long as we want to, we can." I said, "I hope so." ”

In this unvisited wilderness, there is the simplicity and beauty of the wilderness, but once we step out of this land, it is the real world, but we don't want to return to the real world immediately, so the two of us have been hugging each other tightly, not saying anything, not doing anything, just quietly watching the beautiful scenery in front of us, and savoring the wonderful warmth of feelings when they blend with each other.

No matter where we are, no matter what, we will grow old, but our hearts will not grow old, our feelings and love will not grow old, and our dignity and ideals will not grow old. This is a necessary belief for us to be human beings and to live happily. At this moment, I only feel that there is a kind of sincerity and love that nourishes life, purifies the soul, and poetizes emotions. Let us be indifferent to fame and fortune, aim high, see through the red dust, and live calmly. We don't need to have a lot or give a lot, just air, sun, rain and mutual love are enough. What could be more beautiful than two people in love?

I know Qiao Ling's background, she desperately longs for love because of her lack of love. But I'm not like that? I've been divorcing my wife. But his wife remained ill. Once two people get divorced, it is difficult for them to love each other again. And two people who don't love each other live together, except for resentment, there is no love at all. I haven't had love and love for almost many years. My desire for love and love is no less than that of Qiao Ling. So, two people who are desperate for love and love are like two magnets that are attracted to each other. If we can both get a divorce, I'm more than willing to take her away and keep her by my side all the time. However, I can't say this to her, make such wishes, and I can't induce her to divorce her husband until I get divorced. All I can say is that I will come here again next year. Qiao Ling said that she would accompany me to see the scenery.

It wasn't until the sun turned to the west that Qiao Ling said to me, "Let's go back." "It's already past lunchtime. Because the time for lunch in the mountains is around two o'clock. And now it's at least three o'clock. We had breakfast at eight or nine o'clock in the morning, and now we were really hungry, so we got up from the grass and walked down the path towards the village.

Back in the house, we fetch water together and start cooking. After dinner, it was four o'clock. One more thing that I didn't think about was to untie the big hands. Originally, I wanted to solve my big hand in the morning, but I never found the toilet, so I didn't solve it. Although I saw Qiao Ling going to the back of the house every time it was convenient, the back of her house was only half a meter wide from the hillside, and I didn't see a toilet between the back of the house and the hillside, so I didn't go inside. In fact, many homes in the mountains do not have toilets. In the past, I only knew that many cities in India did not have toilets, and men urinated on the side of the road. But I never knew that people in the mountains didn't have toilets. Two years ago, I went to an acquaintance's house in Changwu, where there was no toilet, and when I defecated, I was in someone's sheepfold. But there is not even a sheepfold in this mountain. So, I had to follow the path towards the top of the hill to find a place, just like looking for a toilet when I was holding my urine at night. I went all the way up to the top of the mountain. At the top of the hill was a forest that was not dense, so I looked around and went into the woods.