Translated by Zhang Bao

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That's what she said to me. I couldn't trust my eyes. I couldn't help but be in a trance. I don't even feel like that's what she said to me. She sent me a message on my phone. So, is that really the case? Is this message going to end all our love?

She was my first and only love. She excites and makes me so happy. It gave me a whole new experience and feeling. Love, it feels like you have it all. She's like my whole world. However, if this feeling is not mutual to each other, things can be very different.

The reason for our breakup, she explained, was due to frequent misunderstandings, her study blockage and family pressure. Family stress is not a direct cause. She thinks too much. She eventually told me that her parents would definitely not accept me. But, in fact, will she be able to accept me herself?

This is really incomprehensible and incomprehensible. How can a person's feelings change so suddenly? Love is so short-lived, only a few days? This is really beyond my comprehension and imagination.

She was always deliberately hiding our relationship from her friends, classmates, and even everyone, fearing that if we broke up, she would have to explain a lot to them, but she really didn't want to. I guess she was thinking about breaking up with me all the time, maybe at every moment. Am I just a test subject in her love lab? This answer hurts me deeply. I even wondered if she had ever truly loved me, or if she was just playing with me.

So, that's me and her, everything between us.

No matter how much I confessed, I couldn't change her decision. In fact, she had mostly insulted me for letting me leave him, and I insisted on stubbornly asking her to leave me.

Love can be a dangerous trick to play with feelings. It makes people distort their eyes, feel lost, and blind to the reality in front of them. And I was like that, so, I was almost on the verge of collapse. I fell from the sky of love and fell sharply to the surface of the earth. I could feel the feeling when I touched the Earth, at least she wouldn't let me fall too hard, she would pick me up and let me land slowly and safely. I'd love someone to see the worst of these moments.

However, this is not the love I need. This may be what others need. My love has been lost.

Do I love her, or should I love myself? Even though she has put all the problems here, I can't let her leave me, I can't help but think about her. It would be better for her to forget about me, but then I wondered, can I forget her, will I miss her more than she misses me, will my own happiness be more important than making her happy? These questions are really hard for me to answer.

I suddenly felt that I was the unluckiest person in the world, or I was overly complex, and I was too sensitive? I had a lot of free time every day, but I couldn't find something to keep me busy and fulfilling.

So, what is love? is it an emotion and a feeling, or is it just some **** chemical? does it make me feel?

More than two months have passed, but I still can't restrain my thoughts about her. Does this feeling still haunt me?

I really miss her.

I've come to think that love isn't about love at first sight, it's not making promises of love to each other, it's not sweet talk, it's not even how much time two people have to spend together. Love is integrated in the minutes and moments of life.

True happiness is that innocent moment. When I held her hand for the first time, when I caressed her moon-beautiful face, when I touched her cheek with my fingers...... When her lips kissed on my lips...... The moment of our first kiss. I cherish these moments more than I love her and myself. I want to relive these moments and good feelings...... Even in the last seconds of my life.

I longed to turn back time and bring her back to me. I longed for her to be more than anything else in the world. Maybe she'd forgotten about me, maybe she'd been touched by it, maybe I'd be standing there alone like a fool.

Love is a kind of tolerance and selflessness, without any constraints. Unlike marriage, which is bound by commitments and rules. It's not a Facebook state and social relationship. It seeks its own way. Maybe that's what it was meant to be. Maybe that's all the love I deserve in my life. I wish I could get more love than I deserved, and that would be wonderful. Think about how lucky I would be if I could find her again. Without her, I don't know what it means to love and be loved, however, it's just an unreal fantasy.

Love is not a mystery after all. One can only look at it from the right perspective. When we fall in love, we spend too much time on others. Try to make this person our own forever. As a result, we will be defeated by love.

Why is this happening? Why do we go out of our way to impress others? Because we want to be reciprocated by love. But we can't see that love never leaves us, it is always with us.

This is the life insight that I dedicate to my readers. Don't waste time trying to make promises to others that won't tie your love together. Even if it could bind your love together, it wouldn't be the kind of love you hoped for. The relationship in life is changing every moment, and many things are also changing in daily life, either you are changing, or she is changing, and problems and troubles will always appear. But when love comes, we enjoy the joy in love, through the time in front of us, without thinking about the future of love. We only have one chance at a time, unless you stop to pay attention and enjoy the few seconds of heavenly love that surrounds your busy life every day, perhaps it has just been lost from you or you never know what the future of life has stored for you.

So, do I love her or do I love myself? I think I've finally found the answer to my question. Maybe it's not. But I like that we're together, more or less that's enough.

I'm still dreaming of her, and every breath feels like calling her name. Will I ever be able to go back to that wonderful, carefree life?

I started thinking about this kind of thing, but it made my life a mess. Suddenly, I realized how happy she must have been because she couldn't bear the pain of being with me anymore. Maybe it's selfish, but not everyone can put themselves in the shoes of others with a kind mind.

So, every now and then I could hear a faint laugh coming from far away, and it was her wonderful, carefree laughter. I closed my eyes, forgot all my sorrows, and listened. At this point, I could feel my heart smiling warmly and happily.