Chapter 19 Li Ji is worried Master solves his doubts
The old monk exclaimed, "Who are the other disciples?"
Meng Fan said: "The disciple doesn't dare to say it, for fear that the master will blame." ”
The old monk said seriously: "It's okay, I don't blame you, let's hear it." ”
Mengfan looked around, quietly approached the old monk, and said in a low voice, "It's Senior Brother Mengkong!"
When the old monk heard the word 'dream empty', he also whispered and asked, "What's the matter? What are you gossiping about behind your back?"
Meng Fan said: "Master, it's not gossiping, it's just that his thoughts are different from those of his disciples. ”
The old monk said, "What is that idea? How do you know what he thinks?" ”
Mengfan said: "The disciple usually listens to the master's lectures, but also recites the scriptures and recites the Buddha, and sometimes helps the teachers and brothers to work. I never had time to talk to others, let alone propose anything. Even if there is anything, it is all up to the master to decide, and he dares to talk about it behind his back. The day before yesterday, I was fetching water at the old well, and I happened to meet Senior Brother Mengkong who was also fetching water. Feel free to chat a few words to solidify the brotherhood. I never thought that Senior Brother Mengkong would complain, and he said it. The disciple didn't dare to stay for a long time, so he hurried back to avoid it. In the past two days, I have been trapped in this matter for a long time, and I can't sleep and eat, and every time I listen to the master's recitation and teachings, my heart is full of mixed feelings, and I can't bear the master's resentment, so I specially explain one or two to the master. ”
The old monk said solemnly: "So, you came this time specifically to explain this matter to me?"
Mengkong said: "Exactly. When the disciple didn't talk about it, he always felt that he didn't want to go, and he was afraid that the master would blame him in the future. ”
The old monk smiled and said, "After that, how can the master blame you." Your actions are not in vain for the teacher to respect you. ”
Meng Fan understood and smiled slightly.
He knelt down in the ear of his master and whispered. The day before yesterday, Li Ji said what he said, back and forth, all in detail.
He also said, "What does he mean is that he is trapped in the temple and cannot help himself." Master arranged, I didn't dare to ask more, for fear of causing trouble, lest Master blame. The implication is that he is dissatisfied with the master. ”
After hearing this, the old monk closed his eyes and frowned, and said, "Amitabha." ”
Meng Fan said again: "I have only told Master about this matter, and no one else knows about it. When the time comes, Master must not say that I said it. ”
The old monk said, "Go back, I will make up my mind on this matter." ”
Meng Fan said: "That disciple retired first, so as not to disturb the master's rest." ”
The old monk still closed his eyes and said, "Go, go." ”
Meng Fan retreated out of the room, leaving only the old master who stood quietly there to meditate and think.
The old monk couldn't help but be a little disappointed, in his opinion, Mengkong was honest and conscientious, how could there be a discussion behind his back. And by doing this, I also want to train him as always. Exercise is practice, and only by sharpening the quality of perseverance and perseverance can we make a difference, make a difference, and be entrusted with important tasks.
As the saying goes, the hardships you endure are the only ones who are superior. Without experience, how can you shoulder heavy responsibilities.
But now, when he came to this step of the field, such a situation appeared, which couldn't help but make the old master a little sad and depressed.
But on second thought, no matter what, it is necessary to ask Yumekong for verification, to understand his situation, to know his true thoughts.
Besides, this Mengfan seems to be deliberately avoiding Li Ji. The two haven't seen each other since the last time they separated. The two of them did not live in the same monk's room, and the order of fasting and eating was staggered, and they each had something to do, so they forgot about it.
When Li Ji came back from carrying water from the old well, he forgot what he said to Mengfan. In his opinion, it is not a big deal to simply say a complaint or two, and it is not something that is offensive to morals and treacherous and harmful. Besides, he told his junior brother Mengfan never to say anything about waiting with others, so he didn't worry about one thing.
Every day, as usual, or sweeping the yard, hitting the water and hitting the bell, working hard, and not knowing anything about what happened.
A few days later, another junior brother came over to spread the word, saying that the elder had something to look for him and asked him to come over.
When Li Ji saw that other junior disciples came to him and passed on a message to him, he would not think of talking to Mengfan. I was still happy in my heart, thinking that there was something good to find him.
Normally, the master will not find someone easily, unless there is some task, something important, and he has not committed anything, so he must have some task or good thing to find him.
Thinking about it like this, I was so happy that I was going to fart.
As soon as I entered the room where the master lived, I saw the master with his eyes closed, kneeling on the mat, twisting the Buddhist beads in his hand, and chanting in his mouth.
When the old monk heard the sound of the door opening, he knew that someone had come in, and he didn't open his eyes, but still twisted the Buddha beads. He asked, "Is it a dream that came in?"
Li Jidao: "Master, the disciple is Mengkong. ”
The old monk said, "Oh, it's you." Have a seat. ”
Li Jidao: "The disciple doesn't dare. ”
The old monk said: "It's okay, it's okay." Sit down and say. ”
Li Jidao: "The disciple listens attentively. He didn't sit still, he didn't sit still.
The old monk said, "Do you know what to do with you?"
Li Jidao: "The disciple doesn't know, please make it clear to the master." ”
The old monk said, "How long have you been in the monastery?"
Li Jidao: "It's been three years since I returned to Master's words. ”
The old monk opened his eyes and said, "Oh, it's been three years. Neither long nor short. ”
Li Jidao: "Yes, it's been three years. ”
The old monk said again: "Time flies so fast. I want you to come to my Lingyuan Temple alone from more than 120 miles of land. It is said that I have received wisdom and moved my meditation mind, so that I can take ordination with you, and I am determined to take refuge in my Buddha, so that I will no longer be trapped in earthly disputes. It's been three years now. What have you been doing in the past three years?"
Li Ji said seriously: "The disciple is thanks to the great grace of the master, so that he can devote himself to studying Buddhism in the temple. In the past three years, the disciples have swept the floor and the courtyard every day, hitting the water and hitting the bell, and they have been very happy. In the spare time, I can listen to the Dharma in front of the verandah of the hall, listen to the chanting of the Buddha, which is enough to be grateful. ”
The old monk said, "Oh, I see. Have you ever thought about going home in the past three years, have you ever thought about going home?"
When Li Ji heard what the master said, his heart was shocked. The implication was that the master seemed to be driving him down the mountain.
He hurriedly said, "Master, don't drive the disciple down the mountain, if there is anything wrong with the disciple, I hope the master will forgive me." Don't hide it from the master that the disciple did think about the family. However, the disciple was grateful to the Master and was determined to take refuge in my Buddha, and he was absolutely unselfish. I hope that Master will recite in the face of the Buddha, and don't drive me down the mountain. ”
The old monk got up and said, "Amitabha." There, there. I'm not trying to drive you down the mountain. If you are really homesick, you can go back and have a look, and Master will not blame you for being selfish or unselfish. ”