307 If life is only as it first seems
In an empty pavilion outside the hospital, Ye Xiaofan looked at An Shumeng, whose eyes were red and swollen, and wanted to say something, but he didn't know how to speak.
"Mengmeng, I ......" Ye Xiaofan wanted to speak and stopped.
"Xiaofan, you don't have to explain anything, I can imagine the reason for the matter. An Shumeng opened her mouth lightly, but tears slipped down her cheeks.
Seeing An Shumeng like this, Ye Xiaofan's heart became even heavier.
"I know you won't hurt my mother, and I know that she must have said a lot of ugly things to stimulate you, but you also saw it, she almost couldn't wake up, if it really caused that irreparable consequence, how will the two of us face each other in the future?" An Shumeng glanced up at Ye Xiaofan, and his originally beautiful crescent eyes were already bloodshot.
Facing An Shumeng's gaze, Ye Xiaofan's brain had been short-circuited, Ye Xiaofan's whole body trembled uncontrollably, and he didn't know how to answer An Shumeng's question.
"Mengmeng, how is Auntie?" Ye Xiaofan asked tentatively, just not wanting things to go in the worst direction.
"The doctor said it was fine. An Shumeng opened his mouth lightly, but there was no warmth in his eyes.
Seeing An Shumeng like this, Ye Xiaofan slowly stepped forward and hugged An Shumeng, and An Shumeng was already in tears, her tears were full of too much emotion, but not a drop fell on Ye Xiaofan's hand, which would make Ye Xiaofan very painful.
An Shumeng slowly raised his head, his face was up, his eyes were full of complex emotions, such a look made Ye Xiaofan blame himself and feel distressed.
"Mengmeng, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I'm going to apologize to my aunt and ask her to forgive me. ”
"Xiaofan, I don't blame you for this, and I have never blamed you, but we actually understand that the cause of the incident is because the two of us are together, my mother is doing this, it is nothing more than using an extreme way to break us up, this time she is fine, but what about next time? An Shumeng's eyes were silent, in this matter, she still did not beat her mother after all, she had compromised, and she used her happiness to compromise.
After speaking, her hand slowly scratched the scars on Ye Xiaofan's face, which was the injury caused by Father An's to Ye Xiaofan, and these injuries made her feel distressed far more than hitting herself.
An Shumeng's collapsed voice trembled, and tears fell like a beaded curtain again.
"Xiaofan, it hurts, right?" The tear-drenched face was full of distress.
Looking at the face full of tears, Ye Xiaofan stretched out his trembling hands to gently wipe away the tears in her eyes for her, and shook her head desperately.
"It doesn't hurt, as long as I see you, it won't hurt, thank you for your understanding, but promise me, don't give up our relationship so easily, okay?" Ye Xiaofan's heart suddenly pinched together, thinking that the last time was because of An Shumeng's abandonment, the two fought coldly for a while, and his heart suddenly hung up.
"Xiaofan, do you think I have any other choice now, I thought my grandfather could persuade my mother to let her agree to us being together, but it is because of my persistence that it has brought about today's result, I dare not gamble on our love with my mother's life, I am afraid, I am really afraid, you say that I am selfish, it is okay to say that I don't love you, but this time I really have to make a choice. ”
Ye Xiaofan looked at An Shumeng, he didn't know what to do for a while, seeing An Shumeng's determination, he could almost imagine what An Shumeng was going to say next.
"Can you not say that you broke up, that sentence is too cruel, cruel to me, to yourself, to this good time since we met. ”
After all, the two have known each other for seven months, and these seven months are one of the few happy times for Ye Xiaofan, from the first time she saw An Shumeng, Ye Xiaofan was attracted by her kindness and innocence, she was like a beam of light, suddenly shining into Ye Xiaofan's life.
Ye Xiaofan's words directly pierced An Shumeng's heart, making An Shumeng, who was immersed in sadness, tremble slightly, she stared at Ye Xiaofan with those sad eyes, there was more tenderness in her eyes, but behind the tenderness was a deep helplessness.
Sometimes, people who love each other may not be destined to wait for the best ending, and love is not a word that can solve all problems.
She gently pulled herself out of Ye Xiaofan's arms, put her hand on Ye Xiaofan's chest and took two steps back, a touch of sadness flashed in her expression, and her eyes suddenly dodged.
"Xiaofan, before you fall too deep, when I am not enchanted, maybe this is the best result for us, if things really come to the moment of no return, the two of us may really not be friends in this life. An Shumeng opened his mouth lightly, but every word was filled with a burst of colic in his heart.
An Shumeng's words fell like a thunderbolt on a sunny day.
Even if he saw the determination in An Shumeng's eyes, even if he read the retreat in that look, Ye Xiaofan still deceived himself and told himself that An Shumeng would not give up this relationship easily.
But now, all his nerves that he was struggling to support collapsed in An Shumeng's words!
Ye Xiaofan held back the sorrow in her heart, took two steps forward, and wanted to take An Shumeng's hand, but she kept retreating, just like the cowardice in her eyes.
An Shumeng didn't dare to face Ye Xiaofan, for fear that she would not be ruthless and cause deeper harm to each other in the future, she was afraid that her determination to strengthen it would collapse in an instant on Ye Xiaofan's actions.
She didn't dare to look at Ye Xiaofan, so she could only turn her gaze to the side, Ye Xiaofan's outstretched hand froze directly in mid-air, and the two of them were still and silent, as if time had suddenly frozen.
Maybe it's good that time is really frozen at this moment, at least the "reluctance" in front of you is not cruel.
And Ye Xiaofan's heart was also devastated, he originally thought that An Shumeng was his antidote, but he didn't think that in the end, he became a poison, a poison that would torture Ye Xiaofan to death.
The rain fell little by little, and the ticking sound fell down the eaves of the pavilion, everything seemed to return to the time when the two first met, quietly hiding from the rain in the rain, Ye Xiaofan was still An Shumeng's "Peppa Pig".
It's a pity that everything can't go back to the past, if life is only as first seen, what is the autumn wind sad fan.
Ye Xiaofan has changed, An Shumeng has also changed, she has become no longer simple, she has become complex, and she has no hesitation in the worldview of love.
The rain kept getting heavier, and cold winds kept blowing in, and occasionally a few drops of rain hit Ye Xiaofan's face, taking him away from his memories.
"Mengmeng, I still remember that we waited for the rain together like this, the rain didn't stop, but I waited for you. Ye Xiaofan smiled slightly, trying his best to hide the heaviness in his heart with a smile.
An Shumeng listened to Ye Xiaofan's words, laughed coldly, looked at Ye Xiaofan expressionlessly and said, "I can't go back, let it go!"
An Shumeng's words were like a sharp knife directly inserted into Ye Xiaofan's heart, and even cut off every nerve engraved with her name on Ye Xiaofan's body, leaving only those nerves that belonged to pain, Ye Xiaofan covered his heart, stunned for a few seconds, and then the corners of his mouth curved, and the smile became extremely sad.
Will he let it go?
He won't!
If love can be let go so easily, it is really just a simple game.
Ye Xiaofan looked at An Shumeng, who was constantly dodging him, stepped forward, directly took An Shumeng's hand, and kissed her lips forcibly.
This kiss was so domineering, An Shumeng wanted to push Ye Xiaofan away, but Ye Xiaofan hugged him tighter, he wanted to pry open her closed lips, but An Shumeng kept dodging and struggling, but Ye Xiaofan's arms were like pliers to wrap her around, and finally, she finally fell into Ye Xiaofan's arms.
Ye Xiaofan has always tried his best to accommodate An Shumeng, and he respects An Shumeng's opinion in everything, but this time, he knows that if he is not tough, the two may really have to separate.
So, his heart was gradually occupied by impulses, he wanted the easiest way to solve the problem, and even thought that as long as An Shumeng was completely possessed at this moment, the two would not be separated, and they could be together forever.
An Shumeng faced the crazy Ye Xiaofan and had already given up struggling, or she had already understood what Ye Xiaofan wanted to do, and silently chose to make the final compensation to Ye Xiaofan in this way.
But when Ye Xiaofan saw An Shumeng's eyes, his heart suddenly clenched, so Ye Xiaofan pulled away suddenly, turned around and rushed directly into the rain, shouting at the sky alone.
The pain in Ye Xiaofan's heart, An Shumeng saw it in her eyes, but why was she still so ruthless to Ye Xiaofan, her indifferent words made Ye Xiaofan fall into the abyss of no recovery again and again, bringing Ye Xiaofan endless blows and pain.
It's just that Ye Xiaofan's shouts directly pierced her heart, her people, and her nerves......
An Shumeng squatted on the ground, buried his face in his knees, and tears rained down.
Seeing An Shumeng like this, Ye Xiaofan turned around and ran towards An Shumeng again, he knew that he might have scared An Shumeng, so he immediately squatted down.
"Mengmeng, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, did I scare you?" Ye Xiaofan touched An Shumeng's head, with guilt in his eyes.
An Shumeng still didn't react, Ye Xiaofan held her face and asked her to look into Ye Xiaofan's eyes.
"Have you really decided, have you really forgotten what we said?" Ye Xiaofan hopes to save this relationship at the last moment.
An Shumeng's eyes were red, there was still no expression in his eyes, but his eyes were full of firmness, and he said categorically, "Xiaofan, you haven't done anything wrong in this matter, if you really want to investigate right and wrong, the fault is all mine, but I really can't stubbornly insist, do you understand?"
After listening to An Shumeng's words, Ye Xiaofan's heart was completely dead, but Ye Xiaofan still tried his best to hide the sadness in his heart.
From the time An's mother had always objected to the two being together, Ye Xiaofan knew that An Shumeng was under pressure in the cracks, and if he was stubbornly insisting, it would only make An Shumeng more and more difficult.
He knew that this time was different from the past, and Mother An was expressing her determination to An Shumeng in this way, and she was kidnapping An Shumeng's filial piety to her.
"Mengmeng, don't cry, I respect your choice, just let me be with you for a while, even if it's just a second longer. Ye Xiaofan squeezed out a smile and tried not to let himself collapse.
Looking at the pair of crescent eyes wet with tears, it is still so beautiful, but this beauty makes people feel heartache and even heartbreak......
Ye Xiaofan didn't want to let his love become a burden to An Shumeng, even if he didn't want to face the choice, but he couldn't cruelly leave An Shumeng behind after all.
Even if he stubbornly insisted, it will only make An Shumeng more painful, just like An Shumeng said, next time, who can guarantee what An's mother will do?
Just when Ye Xiaofan was thinking wildly, An Shumeng spoke softly.
"It's not too early, I'm going back, you should go back to Jiangcheng as soon as possible, pay attention to safety on the road." An Shumeng was still expressionless, as if she was saying these words mechanically.
It's just that her voice is very hoarse, and it sounds very heart-wrenching, which makes people feel very distressed.
Ye Xiaofan looked at An Shumeng and turned around slowly, and suddenly his eyes became hazy, he didn't know if the two of them would be strangers when they parted this time.
Looking at An Shumeng's slowly departing figure, it was like pulling an invisible thread between her footsteps and her heart, and with every step, Ye Xiaofan's heart was torn to a pain.
He wanted to stop An Shumeng, but he knew that he couldn't do it, just after An Shumeng walked a few meters away, she suddenly turned around and rushed back, hugging Ye Xiaofan tightly, at that moment, tears were already falling on her face......
Even if she is pretending to be decisive, but her tears and heart can't deceive herself, An Shumeng knows that she loves Ye Xiaofan and loves everything about her, starting from the "Peppa Pig" who ran in the heavy rain, only increasing.
Ye Xiaofan slowly lowered his head, gently stroked An Shumeng's hair, a thousand words were like a fish in his throat, some words were said out, but it was far more difficult than swallowing.
Ye Xiaofan held An Shumeng's paper-white face, and his whole heart had been completely shattered, as shattered as dust under his feet.
He never imagined that when you love someone too much, that love can turn into a hurt.
It was obviously happiness in each other's eyes, but in the end it turned into endless pain.
"Xiaofan, I'm leaving, I'm going back to the capital with my grandfather. An Shumeng suddenly spoke.
Ye Xiaofan's heart trembled again, tears hung in his eyes, and he held on......
"How long are you going?"
"I don't know, maybe we'll stay over there in the future, maybe we'll never see each other again. An Shumeng's voice sank.
An Shumeng's tone was hateful and sad when she said these words, so she could only use a kind of silence to cover up the thousands of sores in her heart, and to hide the emotions that would be uncontrollable if she had a slight attack.
An Shumeng looked at Ye Xiaofan for a few seconds, and there was more tenderness in her eyes again, and then she gently kissed Ye Xiaofan's forehead, and slowly slid down to Ye Xiaofan's lips.
Turn around and run into the rain......
Looking at the figure running towards the rain, all of Ye Xiaofan's supports collapsed at this moment.
He knew that An Shumeng's last kiss was a kiss goodbye, a kind of severance between the emotions of the two, and she used the simplest way to escape the feelings of the two.
The person who left may be relaxed, but what about the person who stays?
Whenever he walks on the streets of Jiangcheng and walks past a place where he has good memories with An Shumeng, the feeling of his heart being cut like a knife will not be easily forgotten.
All beautiful fantasies have been ravaged by the cruelty of reality after all.
Ye Xiaofan looked at the figure that disappeared from sight, the strength of his whole body was finally drained again, and the tears hanging in his eyes finally couldn't help but roll down.
The beautiful and the cruel reversed too quickly in one day, like a nightmare without warning, in the pouring rain, in the biting cold wind, as a broken heart gradually shrouded in despair.
Ye Xiaofan knelt on the ground, as if he had been abandoned by the whole world for a moment, until a burst of light footsteps sounded, gently helping Ye Xiaofan up, wiping away the mud and tears on his face for him, and there was a distressed look in his cold eyes.
"Let's go, it's time to go back!"