I was born with Zhang Baotong 2016.4.27

When I was young, I didn't believe in talent, I always felt that where there is a will, there is a way, as long as you put in a lot of effort, God will pay off. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info However, later, after experiencing many things, I found that many things were not what I imagined in the past. People sometimes can't help but believe in destiny. Destiny is sometimes inviolable.

Destiny is inviolable, and our talents should be used to the fullest. Because this talent and resource is the best gift that God has given us. And this gift is born with me. For example, there are things that are considered difficult by ordinary people, but you can do them well without much effort. And some things that are regarded as very ordinary by ordinary people, you have worked hard but the results are not good. Because our talent is higher in some areas and worse in others. In addition to being directly related to innate factors, the level of our talent is more closely related to our life experience and growth environment. Recognizing our gifts is very important for our life circumstances and life shaping. It is the fundamental reason why we can go smoothly and successfully in life. Moreover, I have deep feelings and lessons in this regard.

My father died in the line of duty when I was four years old, so I never had the impression of a father in my life, and I never received a father's love. My mother was a housewife and had no education, so it was very difficult for us to live. I have been very withdrawn since I was a child, timid and afraid, rarely talking, and I don't know how to fight back when others beat me. But I have an aura in my heart, and I can see a lot of things at a glance.

I've been playing all the way since I was a kid, but every time I got the best test scores in my class. As long as I want to learn, I will always learn it. For example, I almost never learned chess, and I don't know how to defeat many adults who play chess every day. There was also the flute and harmonica, I didn't know the score, but as soon as I heard a song, I could play it quickly. Another example is photography, how many people have been learning for a long time, and they can't even grasp the basic composition. But the first time I took a photo, I didn't even know how to operate, so I asked someone to open the camera for me, I took the camera to a teacher and a student, and gave me a picture of a teacher's advanced deeds, and the picture was quickly published in the provincial newspaper. As for writing, I submitted a short novel I tried to write called "Naming" to "Chang'an" at that time, and it was adopted. Later, I tried to submit an article to the supplement of the Xi'an Evening News, and it was the first article that was adopted by the newspaper. Another time, I saw a prose poem out of nowhere, and I thought that this style of writing was like prose and poetry, and the artistic conception was very beautiful, so I wrote a short essay "The Scenery is Picturesque Here" according to this style, which was not only published in the "Xi'an Evening News", but also recommended for publication in the front line of the "Reader". Later, I was transferred to the Party Office of the Education Center of the Xi'an Railway Branch to be in charge of news reporting, and before that, I didn't know what news and character communication were, but on the day I arrived at the Education Center, I wrote two news articles and a character story, both of which were published in the newspaper. Before I came to the education center, the news report assessment here was zero every quarter, and I had not completed the assessment task assigned by the railway branch for two consecutive years, but since I came, I have exceeded the task by four to five times the number each time, and I have been ranked first in the assessment team for many years.

However, in some areas, my talent is very low. For example, learning English. In a final exam in high school, I was the first in all 9 subjects except English and chemistry. Because I don't like English at all, and I don't want to learn English, I always barely pass my English grades. However, when I went to university, I chose to major in English. Because the country was engaged in reform and opening up at that time, English was a popular subject and was more valued. Moreover, I also misestimated myself. I always feel that I have never worked my studies in the past, but I have been practicing table tennis all day long, and my academic performance is always at the top of my class, and if I put more effort into learning English, I will definitely be able to learn English very well.

In fact, this is not very much the case. It took me almost 16 years from '78 to '94 to learn English well. It's the most time and effort I've ever put into learning one thing in my life. During the three years I was an English major, I woke up at 4 o'clock in the morning almost every day, went through the bathroom window of the teaching building, and then entered the classroom to study. By the time my classmates entered the classroom in the morning, I had been studying for two or three hours. At that time, a classmate in my Chinese class who stayed up late to write a novel was the hardest working student in the school. However, my English scores hovered between the top five and ten in my class, and I never made it to the top four. One is that many of my classmates love English, and their English skills are very solid, and it is really difficult for me to learn English on my own.

Since I was a child, I liked to concentrate on playing and didn't like to talk, so I was very independent thinker and hands-on, but my verbal expression was relatively poor. So, it's been a problem for almost the rest of my life. Later, I often wondered if I had chosen to be a journalist, a composer or a doctor instead of a teacher or a secretary in my profession and work. I think I'll do a great job and I'll have a lot less regrets.

During my junior and undergraduate years, I was selected by my teachers to participate in the school's English speech contest several times because of my outstanding English writing performance. But my speech was almost a recitation, not a speech, so I only won the second prize, but never the first prize. Later, when I became a teacher, I still had problems with this. I participated in the teaching observation competition at the district and municipal level several times, but because the classroom atmosphere was not warm enough and lacked passion, I could only win the second and third prizes. Including when I later came to the school as a secretary, my eloquence almost became a big shortcoming of mine. Before each speech, I have to be fully prepared, but as soon as I get to the podium, I forget what I have prepared. Therefore, when I speak to faculty and staff, I basically have to make a speech in advance. However, when there is a script, the speech is too rigid and not lively, and the faculty and staff sound very dull. Therefore, I usually resolutely refuse to say anything that I can not say in a meeting, so as not to make everyone feel that I don't like to hear it.

In fact, the most frustrating thing in my life is my position. I have worked diligently in the Education Center of the West Rail Branch for nearly ten years, with outstanding results and the highest satisfaction with the public evaluation, but my position has not been promoted twice. And the little apprentice who was recommended by me to be transferred from the mountain school was a primary school teacher, and they all jumped two levels in a row and rose above me. For this reason, the party secretary at that time later said two words to me. One was to ask me why I didn't write him advanced deeds material. The second sentence is that people are working with 20% of their energy and 80% of their energy is used to deal with people, but I am the opposite. These two sentences are to explain why he refused to promote me at that time. I wasn't to blame for the first sentence, because no one told me at the time to write him story material. At that time, I only knew that his deeds were written by the head of our department, but because they were not well written, they were not published. If I had been smarter and asked him for it, maybe it would have been different. But I'm not alive. The leader let the things he did run fast, and he didn't even think about what the leader didn't say. I always think that as long as you work diligently and steadfastly, the leader will see it, so I never realized that I should go to the leader's house during the New Year's festival or the time of celebration and mourning, and contact the leader to get in touch with the feelings. On the contrary, they feel that it is an unhealthy trend, and it is not good for others to see it. It's not like some people who are busy running in line to buy tickets for leaders all day long, helping leaders pick up people and give them away, and giving money and gifts to leaders' families. So, for a long time after that, I was obsessed with the leader's indebtedness, because without my vigorous publicity, he might not have been able to be promoted. However, now that I think about it, I feel that I can't blame the leader for not appreciating you, but only myself. Because I have no father since I was a child, my mother is a woman from the countryside, and I don't know much about many things except housework, and my brother has been studying in other places since he was a child, and I have only been with him for a short time. Since I was fifteen years old, I have left home and have been living alone, so no one has ever told me about these awareness and skills in dealing with people, and I have never been instructed or instructed. Even now, I'm not very good at it.

Our talents are multifaceted, some are higher and some are poor. We should try our best to play the high aspects, and carefully avoid the bad aspects. Don't believe the adage that where there's a will, there's a way, and spend your time and energy on things you may never be able to do. It is necessary to avoid using my own weaknesses to compete with the strengths of others, which is not only time-consuming and laborious, but also appears to be less capable. If we can do this, we may be able to avoid many detours, and life will be easier and smoother, and our achievements will be more prominent.

Our talent is our natural talent.