The master walked into the room, stared at the portrait of his mother for a moment, was silent, and took out a letter from a drawer.

"Kaoru-san, this is a suicide note left by your mother. ”

The owner solemnly handed over my mother's suicide note to me, and I was a little puzzled.

"Let's go, go out for a walk, we'll talk as we go. ”

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"I don't understand why I deliberately leak a flaw, when I could have done it more perfectly. ”

Zhao Zheyan asked.

"It's not to hide the truth, just to find it. ”

"So, what's the truth?"

Zhao Zheyan asked, this may be what he wants to know the most.

The master was silent for a long time, and then said slowly.

"Look at this barren land, which was everywhere a few years ago, almost without grass and starving. ”

"The country is not the country, the people are not the people, the people are not the people, the people are not the people, and the country is not the country. ”

"Born in this grassless place, living on a mountain of corpses, I, we, dare not ask for anything, have never thought of anything. ”

The master's expression was as sad as madness.

"I pride myself on serving the public, I want to save the people from the dire situation, and I dare not have an inch of selfishness. ”

Therefore, he was ordered to go to the two countries and swear to complete the mission. ”

"I never thought it would go well, and I was ready to break the boat. ”

"I wanted to take advantage of Kaoru's mother's kindness, but I didn't expect that I completely underestimated her. ”

"She said to me that it is not enough to save one person, it is not enough to save 10,000 people, and it is not enough to save 10,000 people. ”

I asked her what was enough. ”

"Ten thousand people save one person. ”

"I pondered for a moment, and then it dawned on me, like waking up from a dream, and I worshipped it. ”

Unexpectedly, she said: "Yes, it is not enough. ”

I asked again in a trance. ”

She smiled slightly, silent, and her expression was like an eternal star, bright, dazzling, and lonely. ”

"Following the affection I came into contact with her, and watching the gradual progress of my own country, I may be able to comprehend it five or six times out of ten, but there is no dazzling light, only a dead silence. ”

She also told me that the project was doomed to fail from the moment it was launched, and this is our willfulness, and perhaps it must be willful this time, and it would be good if we could help your people through its failure. ”

She doesn't need the benefits of doing this, and she doesn't care about the harm, because she knows that the direction of her heart is the clear path. ”

"Born in such a world where good and evil are difficult to distinguish, but I can do what I want and benefit the world, I can't do it, no one in the world can reach it. ”

"Maybe the world is its heart, but is the world what the universe can accommodate?"

"I went away with selfishness and returned with perfection, but I finally realized the ugliness of myself and the ugliness of the world. ”

"I, we, just roared with a righteous attitude that I deserved it, and snatched it frantically. ”

But he never thought about the meaning of everything. ”

"We denounce inequality. ”

"But I never really know why, I am only obsessed with appearances. ”

"So we're just mutilated after all, no different from the walking dead. ”

"I didn't know our true faces, so I embarked on a journey, and finally met her who knew the truth but resolutely moved forward, and knew that she could not do it. ”

"She could have gone further and farther, but she chose to stop for us and protect my weak country with her own strength. ”

"It's like saving thousands of people without doing it, and saving thousands of people, the most foolish people will make a choice. ”

"I have had vigorous ambitions, I have been far away, but I have not been able to cross what she did that day, weighing the pros and cons, and thinking about rare clues, I know that my life for the public has come to an end, and the rest of my life can only be spent in questioning myself. ”

"I can't do it, I don't have the ability, but the capable people stop for us. ”

"I am not ashamed of her sacrifice, but I despair of the suffocation that I cannot match. ”

"My public heart has stopped in the things that the people are most grateful for, and my selfishness has been satisfied in a thriving country. ”

"Today, all my mission has been accomplished. ”

"I can finally be relieved. ”

After saying that, the master stopped, stood in front of a barren slope, and gradually took out something that had been prepared from his clothes.

“E

ough！too ma

y people has go

e.” (Enough, enough people have left.) ）

When Zhao Zheyan said this, he was angry, dissatisfied, and even a little pleading.

“But I'm

ot the last o

e.” (But I won't be the last.) ）

After the master said this, he did not hesitate, as if to welcome fate, and the sound of the gun was thrilling and terrifying.

It was the first time I had heard gunshots in the real world, and it was the first time I had seen someone die in front of me, lying in a pool of blood.

When I lowered my head, I looked at Zhao Zheyan's expression, as if the anger had disappeared, the dissatisfaction had dissipated, and there was only sadness.

I should have felt more than Zhao Zheyan, but even when the gunshots rang out, it seemed to be far away in the sky, and my face did not change, is this also a kind of sadness?

For the first time, Zhao Zheyan took my hand, his hand trembled a little, I don't know if it was fear or something else.

He said slowly.

"We can't save his life, we can't save his heart. Let's go, we're outsiders. ”

After saying that, he led me away.

I was a little surprised, but I didn't refuse.

After walking for a long time, his mind slowly came back from a distant place, and finally he realized that he was still holding my hand, and quickly let go and apologized.

"I'm so sorry, Kaoru-san, I didn't mean to offend. ”

"It's okay, is it a little better?"

"Well, it's better, Miss Lao Xun bothered. ”

"It's fine. ”

After that, we walked back to the hotel in silence, he was not on the matter of holding hands, and I didn't really care, so there was no embarrassment between ordinary men and women doing accidental things.

Walking is different from riding in a car, and I can feel the journey here more, as if I can understand a little bit of the feeling of the man who fell in a pool of blood.

How much empathy do you have with Zhao Zheyan?

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After returning to the hotel, Zhao Zheyan sat on the chair without saying a word, as if he was in deep thought.

In such an atmosphere, I didn't like TV or play with my mobile phone or anything, and I didn't open my mouth to break the silence, so I could only pretend to think like Zhao Zheyan, but my brain seemed to be at a loss.

There are a lot of things that happen suddenly, and I don't know which one is more appropriate, and now it seems that all I can do is open my mother's letter and read it.

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Dear Xueyu,

When you read this letter, believe you already know the cause and effect of everything.

I don't know how you're doing, but I hope you're happy and blessed.

Don't grieve my departure, if you do feel sad about the rain.

I don't know if you were still the same as when you were a child, or if you had a flower and moon appearance, or if your temples were gray, although my mother would like to see such a daughter, but ...... Providence may not be violated.

Looking back on my life, it can be regarded as more beautiful than most people, this is my luck, or my sorrow, but at least, with you, I am satisfied.

I can't be an ordinary mother, but at least I'm moving in the direction of my heart, so, from the moment I made up my mind, I never hesitated, perhaps, I was a little willful.

The world is very beautiful, life is very short, and I can do my best to light up a small world with this small life.

I wanted to talk to Xueyu a lot, a lot, but I couldn't understand my mood anymore, and I couldn't control the pen in my hand.

The words can't express the apologies in our hearts, and the tears can't erase the real sadness, so let everything turn into a trickle of Juanjuan and stay in our memories of each other, and all we have left is memories.

Life is endless, and I can't witness your wonderfulness, so let those who can witness it.

The direction of the heart is the end, and when it reaches the end, it is even if it really exists in this world.

Maybe it's fate that is over, we can't be together again after all.

If you could turn back the clock, let it stop forever in the past.

There is no banquet in the world, let's put away our thousands of thoughts and face each other's reality.

Love you Yunxi.

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Is the direction of the heart the end? If only I could perceive it like you, Mother.

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"When?"

A hoarse whisper came from the side.

"It seems to be night. ”

"Well, stay one more night, and fly out tomorrow. ”

"Hmm. ”

I went to the restaurant and had a hasty dinner, and then went back to my room to take a shower and wash up.

In the end, I went to bed early.

Through the window, you can see the beautiful night outside, and the sky here is not seriously polluted, and you can clearly see the stars in the sky.

A twinkle of light is as faint as every human being's life.

I leaned sideways and asked Zhao Zheyan, who was sleeping by the window.

"What are you thinking?"

"There are too many, when you can count the stars in the sky, you will be able to sort out your thoughts. ”

"Tired?"

"Thinking that there are people who are more tired than this, they are not tired. ”

"It's kind of like my mother. ”

"Xun Yunxi stands at the extreme of the way of man, and I can't reach it, but our way is different after all. ”

"That's right. ”

"Where's yours? ”

"Mine? Maybe I'll be glad I can find out in my life. ”

"Huh. ”

"Hee-hee. ”

"Sleep, there's a flight tomorrow morning. ”

"Hmm. ”

"Is it a blessing or a sorrow not to think about it?"

Maybe it's neither, because it doesn't seem to perceive anything, and the sentence is not spoken.