Chapter 42: I can't go back to the past

Yan Zhengxi didn't come back that night, and she sat alone on the big bed in a daze, her empty and lonely eyes were even more bleak in the dark, and she recalled the bits and pieces with Yan Chengqian, she found that he had never had such a sad expression that made her heart ache, even if she was desperate to die that time, his sadness and sadness were not as violent as this time, she really stepped on his sincerity on the ground in front of him this time, ravaged it fiercely, and suddenly found that she was really a terrible and hateful woman.

She didn't like him at the beginning, it was his warmth and thoughtfulness that slowly pulled out the thorns on her body, and his tolerance and understanding made her know that no one in this world would treat her like this, so she fell and gave him a complete heart, but now they can no longer love each other, how deep the love is, how much the heart hurts......

And now she has to withdraw the warmth he once gave her from her body little by little, her heart is cold and uncomfortable, and the cold is taking the opportunity to invade her body little by little, maybe she won't feel pain if she freezes her heart and body, and she no longer feels how painful it is to leave his love!

Unwilling, she was really unwilling, suddenly there was a strong hatred in her eyes, remembering that his eyes were always sneering, mocking, contemptuous and disdainful, which made her extremely disgusted, in, everything he did was so despicable and shameful, cruel and ruthless.

Since this is what he wants, let her go to hell with him!

A cold and a hot made her heart beat very unusually, clenching her fists tightly and biting her lip, hating that she and him began, and it would be their end......

The morning sun is very dazzling, especially in this early summer season, the sun is even more unscrupulous through the gauze curtain, raging on her face, Qianqian thought all night last night, fell asleep at more than 6 o'clock in the morning, and now is awakened by the sun's rays, holding her bewildered eyes, looking at everything that has not changed, sure enough, everything in the dream is beautiful, but the reality is always so cruel to remind her that she is no longer the Luo Qianqian she used to be...... There's no going back.

Yan Zhengxi still didn't appear, and Qianqian didn't bother to care whether he appeared or not, it was best not to appear in front of her again for the rest of her life, and she didn't want to go out after washing and dressing, so she quietly went to his study, took a book to read and kill the time when she was in a panic, but she didn't expect that the books he read were quite miscellaneous, economic, medical, psychological, and life philosophy, and couldn't help but make her ridicule him for reading so many books, why is his psychology still so abnormal?

Although the loss of his sister was a big blow to him, ...... Well, she also knows the pain of losing a loved one, and she doesn't even know who killed her adoptive parents?

But if that person really wasn't him, would her hatred still be so deep?

The doorbell rang suddenly, and she suddenly came back to her senses, quickly put the book away, and then tidied up the countertop and ran to open the door, thinking that she would see the face she hated, but what she didn't expect was the waiter in the hotel.

"Miss, this is what we always asked me to hand over to you. I saw the waiter put a suitcase in front of her, she naturally lowered her eyes and looked at the familiar suitcase, her face instantly froze, her heart was cut open like a knife, and she felt a faint pain, and then she stabilized her mood a little and took the heavy suitcase from the waiter's hand, and after thanking her, the waiter handed her a letter, and she took it without doubt.

After closing the door, she took the envelope to her eyes with trembling hands, and stroked the sexually flamboyant handwriting on it with one hand, Yan Chengqian's three words burned her fingers like fire, and she suddenly withdrew her hand and put it on her chest, she didn't dare to open it to see, for fear of seeing some words that shook her, she knew that they would never go back to before, so let them end it in this way......