My mom came to my rental house in the city and smiled at the first sight of me, almost me off!

How can you still laugh at such a time?

That's good, she said.

I almost closed my breath again, and asked angrily, what is it?

She said, "You think you can leave me when your wings are stiff?"

I said, do you want to take care of me until I die.

She immediately slapped me, shut up, don't talk nonsense!

I almost shut up forever, and I was slapped in the face by my mom, no, my little sister, and I almost burped!

After a while, she smiled again, "It's good."

I asked angrily, how could it be so good.

She said, it's good that you're home.

I was in bed for a year, and no one came to see me except my mom for that year.

At first I was sad, I thought I had made a few close friends, but now it seems to be my delusion.

Then I looked away, and I wasn't sad! I didn't care!

My mom decorates my room with life. She raised a lot of green plants, succulents, and goldfish...... There are also naturally born, known in summer, cockroaches in autumn, rats in winter, geckos crawling on walls and spiders hanging themselves in spring, and of course, cute little dogs.

My mom said, these are your friends! The whole nature, the whole world is your friend!

She's right, I'm so rich, I care about human beings!

We give these little creatures names, arrange birthdays, look for their zodiac signs, tell them stories, hold story conferences, and even invite them to dinner.

There were no birds in the room and we didn't want to keep them in cages, but the birds often flew to my windowsill on their own to sing. We all agreed that it was better.

Every day, from the time I open my eyes to the time I close them, I can feel the burst of life.

As for my mother, she seems to be in her 20s, and she has endless energy every day, but she is no longer in her 20s.

After all, she is a 51-year-old person, because of hard work, her back is not straight, her waist is not straight, her skin is no longer tight, her face is full of wrinkles, and her hands are full of calluses.

The aunts who danced with her back then are now much younger and more beautiful than her.

I don't know since when, they haven't praised her for being beautiful.

They still go to square dance every day, often passing by the door of the house, calling my mother to go with them.

But my mom is gone, she can't carry me anymore. Even if I was in a wheelchair, she couldn't get me downstairs.

She sang and danced at home, like a lark in a cage, and sang all day.

This little widow, oh no, is an old widow now, and a lovely woman.

Her cuteness is still there.

♪♪ Tomorrow is like chocolate candy in a box / What a taste / full of imagination / disappointment is an occasional phone number that can't be dialed / try a few more times / always answer ♪♪

On this day, she started singing again.

I said to her, stop singing, I'm going to vomit.

She said, let's sing together, you sing so well, now you can't move your body, you can't move your neck, you can only talk and sing. You see, God is urging you to sing. So that you can only sing and nothing else.

I said, oh my God, it's so hard to serve, I don't want to sing to it right now, I just want to swear!

My mom immediately stopped singing and didn't persuade me to sing. She grabbed one from the stacks of books in the room and began to tell the story of an old man who fights a giant marlin.

I said, don't read it, I'm going to vomit. The old man's opponent is a fish, and my opponent is a thief, there is no comparison!

My mom pinched my face and said, "Since it's showing its claws to you, you're going to make a grimace at it."

I said, I'd better pee on it.

My mom praised the idea and said she was going to read it to me with a peeing book.

I said, don't change it, I can recite this room full of books and tapes.

She opened a small book and video store, which was full of super inspirational books and records, full of positive energy. The name of the store is also very atmospheric, called "My Ideal", but it is actually small and broken. Just like my name, Li Xiang, in fact, I have no ideals since I was a child, I dare not have ideals, and I wait for death to eat.

The two of us live on this small shop, and it's really hard work.

I was silent for a long time and said, give up on me.

She said, you want to be beaten up, don't you!

I said, Mom, don't do this, we're all so tired......

She interrupted me, don't say anything! I can't leave early if I buy a ticket!

I said, Mom, I'll tell you a story.

My mother wiped her eyes and said, "I don't want to hear it!"

I said, I didn't even say it, you don't listen to it, can you give me some encouragement.

She said that the stories you tell to Xiao Hei every day are very negative.

Little Black is a small goldfish with a black phoenix butterfly, which is my tree hole.

I said, Mom, you......

My mom said that there would be no little Ding Ding if I talked about it again.

Although I wasn't afraid of death, I was afraid that there would be no little Dingding, so I didn't talk about it.

There's no need to talk about it.

Four days later, in the dark, I felt that my end was near, that my time of death was near, and an indescribable feeling welled up in my heart.

My mom pushed me all over the house, from the balcony to the hallway, from the kitchen to the bedroom, from the living room to the bathroom...... A puppy running around with Bringbling at his feet.

I spread my hands as if I had gone back to the moment when my mom pushed me down the slope when I was 18 years old!

Perhaps, that's what it feels like to run, maybe, that's what it feels like to fly!

Run!!!" I shouted at my feet.

My mom was pushing me and yelling at me to run!

Wangwang~ Shishi is also shouting.

I'm in a trance......

The cold wind came to me, the lightning of terminal illness came to me, the frenzy of disease came to me, the cold operating table came to me, the masked doctors and nurses came to me, countless red, green, and green pills came to me, dense needles came to me, and my father who had never met me called me, the wolves who maliciously mocked me, the hazy sneer of first love called me, the poor and rich life came to me, the kind and ugly legs came to me, the feeling of confinement lying in bed and unable to move came to me, and the laughter of my mother came to me......

Run~ Li wants to run!~

Behind me, a woman's hoarse voice came to me—

Run! Li wants to run fast !! run for the rest of my life!! I will use the rest of my life to roar.

A crippled me called another healthy me—

I want to break through the shackles! My deformed legs can't support my body, so I will crawl forward and move forward firmly! I will never stop! I will never compromise! Regardless of everything!

I can't move my hands, my body can't move, my neck can't move, just let the wolves in the forest eat me, you take it one by one, take away my eyes, take away my ears, take my heart away, take my flesh and blood to the four corners of the forest, and run wild in this tragic way~

At the age of 26, just after the Spring Festival, on the romantic night of Valentine's Day, the bell of nine o'clock came from the People's Square where my mother used to dance, and I closed my eyes forever and finally died.

I thought I was going to go, but I didn't.

In the last moment, I missed my mom so much.

That lovely woman who is silly and happy every day, what will she do in the future.

......

My bones hurt, thunder was thundering in the sky, raindrops were falling on my bones, the wind was blowing through the secluded forest, as if it had been silent for tens of thousands of years, and finally a voice called me from afar.

Li Xiang ~ Li Xiang ~

Li Xiang opened his heavy eyes and saw the light, the doctors and nurses in white coats, the cold and shining needles, and the mother who called him affectionately.

Outside, there were showers of rain and thunder.

Li Xiang woke up from a dream and burst into tears.