Ji Jun hid at the bottom of a dry well, surrounded by cold and damp stone walls, what was he hiding, what was it? Ji Jun himself didn't know.

Through the mouth of the well, you can see a full moon hanging on the limited dark night. "Again...... Full moon, ......" Ji Jun's lips trembled in the face of this familiar scene, where had he seen it? He wandered at the bottom of the well, frightened, and the damp clay seemed to ooze blood, and a faint fishy smell made him even more uneasy.

He suddenly remembered something, as if there were many people chasing him, many, many people, they were going to burn themselves, Ji Jun became very afraid of death, because he knew that if he was burned to death by them, he would definitely go to Abi Hell. It was a place from which there was no escape—a never-ending pain. Why did these people burn themselves? Did they commit some unpardonable sin?

No, no, there must be something wrong, which link is wrong to cause this, what is wrong? Ji Jun looked up and saw that the full moon above the black curtain had been covered by black clouds, but the rest of the light, the light was even more dazzling. "Is it a new moon or a full moon?" Ji Jun wondered. At this time, the damp soil under Ji Jun's feet began to seep water, and the water seeped out quickly, and it didn't reach Ji Jun's ankles in a few seconds.

Ji Jun knew that he couldn't swim, even if he wasn't burned to death by the people outside, he would be drowned at the bottom of this well. Dilemma, anyway, it's a dead word. Ji Jun thought to himself, whether it was water and fire here, it represented his own dead end, if the two were combined into one, wouldn't it be the beginning of life?

No, no, no, no. What is the blending of black and white in this world? Is it a giant panda? No, from the perspective of an art student, the blending of black and white is gray, chaos, and chaos is death. At this time, the water at the bottom of the well had already flooded Ji Jun's chest, and there was also a circle of masked people around the well, constantly pouring gasoline down, trying to burn Ji Jun.

Black and white are chaos, then there is no morality in this world, because black and white have never been inseparable, they together constitute this gray world, so it is not himself who is wrong, Ji Jun thought, "The wrong is the world!"

Gasoline was burning wildly on the water, and the water had already reached Ji Jun's neck, Ji Jun opened his eyes as if he had realized it, staring at the moon at the mouth of the well and yelling at the masked people: "Hey, look at the sky, there is a giant panda on the moon!"

The moon that was covered by dark clouds became brighter and brighter, and the light reached the bottom of Ji Jun's eyes, and suddenly Ji Jun shouted, "Ah!", he opened his eyes, and there was a ceiling and fluorescent lamps in front of him.

"Wake up, wake up!" Ji Yi's voice appeared in Ji Jun's ears vaguely, and Ji Jun only felt that there were suddenly many people standing around him, which made him feel very familiar and uneasy.

Ji Jun subconsciously used his hand to block the light of the fluorescent lamp, and it took a long time to gradually adapt to the light, and then turned his brown eyes to look at the people around him, including Gao Yongxing, his brother Ji Yi, his psychiatrist, and three men he didn't know. Ji Jun's psychiatrist was the first to ask, "Can you speak?"

"Yes. Ji Jun said in a calm tone.

"Brother, you're worried about me, you've been in a coma all afternoon, I almost thought you were going to pass!" Gao Yongxing still said with a big grin.

"What's going on......" Ji Jun muttered to himself, and then his brain seemed to open the floodgates, and the corpse, bright red, and the figure fluttering in the wind ...... Then Ji Jun sat up from the bed suddenly: "What about Ling Yuanyuan......

"It's a pity...... has passed away. One of the three men he didn't know said.

Ji Jun's eyes were still very flowery, and he couldn't recognize who said it, but he didn't believe it, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, and rushed outside the ward: "I don't believe it, I must have saved her...... She's not going to die...... She's still so young......" Ji Jun burst into tears as he said that, Gao Yongxing and Ji Yi stopped Ji Jun, and Ji Jun sat on the ground sobbing.

"Why......" Ji Jun raised his head to the ceiling and asked, no one could answer him, and everyone was silent.

Ji Jun's psychiatrist pulled two of the men aside at this time and whispered: "Obviously, his current state is not suitable for your questioning, let's see his state tomorrow." ”

The two men also nodded when they saw this scene and left quickly, and the remaining man was the leader of the school, and he was relieved to see that Ji Jun was fine, and after talking to Ji Yi for a few words, the psychiatrist who accompanied Ji Jun also left.

Ji Jun sat on the ground, leaning against the wall, his eyes glazed, not knowing what he was thinking. Gao Yongxing saw this situation and asked Ji Yi to wait outside the ward for a while, and then he sat side by side against the wall on the ground like Ji Jun.

"Brother, do you want a cigarette?" Gao Yongxing said with a smile at Ji Jun with a cigarette case.

Ji Jun turned his head blankly, looked at Gao Yongxing, mechanically took out a cigarette from his cigarette case and put it to his mouth, and then continued to remain silent and sluggish.

"Really good, you, you still want me to light a cigarette for you, I, Gao Yongxing, have always been others who light cigarettes for me outside, and today I will make an exception for my brother and light a cigarette for you!" said Gao Yongxing took a lighter to light a cigarette for Ji Jun, but Ji Jun didn't smoke at all, and lit the cigarette three or four times before lighting it.

"It's so hard!" Gao Yongxing complained, and then ordered one for himself, "Do you remember the Japanese restaurant we went to earlier?"

Gao Yongxing looked at Ji Jun, who had not reacted at all, and continued: "I heard that it is going to be changed to a barber shop, and the boss is going to settle in Japan all the year round, and we won't be able to eat such delicious Japanese food in the future, so let's go eat again this weekend while it's not closed! I'll treat you this time! You let go and eat!"

Ji Jun still didn't react.

Gao Yongxing knew that it no longer made sense for Ji Jun to say this, so he took a deep puff of cigarette and said, "Ling Yuanyuan's body has been taken back by her parents. ”

Ji Jun reacted a little at this time, he turned his head blankly, nodded at Gao Yongxing, the ash of the cigarette on his mouth fell off his body, and Gao Yongxing hurriedly helped him dust it off.

"Do you know, the corners of Ling Yuanyuan's mouth were smiling when she died, at least it means that she was very happy at the last moment, she was finally able to see her child. Gao Yongxing took another deep puff of the cigarette, and then slammed the cigarette butt on the ground and extinguished it.

"But......" Ji Jun said suddenly, and then burst into tears, "I couldn't save her...... I was the only one who could have saved her, and I didn't do it...... I ......" Speaking of this, Ji Jun's voice was choked, and his body began to numb.

Gao Yongxing hurriedly began to rub Ji Jun's arms and thighs: "I said brother, death is not a good thing, at least for some people, it is a relief." ”

Ji Jun looked at Gao Yongxing with tears in his eyes and asked, "What if...... If one day I die, please don't grieve like I do. ”

"What kind of are you talking about!" Gao Yongxing slapped Ji Jun on the head, "You are my brother, I must be sad if you die." ”

The two were silent for a while, Gao Yongxing lit two more cigarettes, gave Ji Jun one, smoked for a while, and then said: "There is a good thing, Li Cheng is wanted by the police, abducted a minor to have sex and caused him to become pregnant, and those photos were also sent by him, there is a suspicion of intentional homicide, this will really make him unable to escape, and sure enough, to judge others, you still have to use the law." ”

"The law didn't save me, and I didn't have time to save Ling Yuanyuan. Ji Jun returned to normal, but his eyes were still blank.

"But you can't deny that the law is about to sanction Li Cheng, the punishment that the wicked deserve. Gao Yongxing bit the cigarette butt on his mouth and said viciously.

"Has anyone been caught?" asked Ji Jun.

"No, that kid is very smart, he fled overnight the night we arrested him, the police have started his want, he can't escape!" Gao Yongxing said fiercely.

"So, everything we do is in vain, what should happen or happens, what should be punished or what should be punished will be punished, so what's the point of what we do?" Ji Jun seemed to have more doubts about life. At this moment, all actions no longer have meaning in his eyes. Where is the meaning of life? Where is the meaning of one's existence? If he didn't sign any inexplicable contract, I'm afraid Ling Yuanyuan wouldn't have died, maybe he single-handedly caused Ling Yuanyuan's death.

Thinking of this, Ji Jun became in pain, this was substantial pain, because his body was also suffering greatly. He thought, if he didn't go to Li Cheng and Ling Yuanyuan, maybe he wouldn't have caused today's situation, it turned out that everything he did was meaningless, even his own existence was meaningless, he should die, if he continued to stay in the world, he would only harm more people, but if he died, more people would die, why! Why did he have to be forced to this point!

At this time, there was a black crow standing outside the window of the ward, and it was holding a white flower in its mouth, and I saw it bounce back and forth on the window edge a few times, gently put the white flower down, and then fluttered its black wings and flew to an unknown place. The white flowers lay quietly on the edge of the window, there was no wind, so it seemed very quiet, it was the time when the sun was setting, and the afterglow of dusk shone on the white flowers, piercing Ji Jun's eyes like a devil seeking his life.

"I smell it, it's heather. Gao Yongxing said.

"That's right. ”

"Are you here to pay tribute to Ling Yuanyuan......?

"No, it's here to pay tribute to my ......," Ji Jun looked at the devilish heather and said lightly.

"The afterglow of twilight shines on everyone, and people are bathed in the luster of light—erosion, corruption. Like a disgusting heather, it devours everyone's soul, allowing them to live in this sad world, hurting each other and deceiving each other. Ji Jun wrote in his last death diary.