Comfort Women's Japanese Aberdeen (novella) Zhang Baotong 2017.12.22

How much money was spent and how many medicines were taken, Wei Shaolan still did not get pregnant. And the boy named Luo Shanxue slowly grew to 7 years old unconsciously. The child is very sensitive from an early age, knowing that he is not his father's biological son, and also knowing that his father does not like him. This feeling has been vague since he was 4 years old, and he has the impression that his father has a straight face and looks sad and unhappy all day long, even if he smokes the hookah all day long, he will not look at him, and he has never seen his father smile at him except for reprimanding, scolding and glaring. He never smiled merrily at his father. Because every time he saw his father's face, he felt that he had done something wrong again, which made his father feel unhappy. Therefore, when he saw his father, he always felt nervous and timid, showing a frightened and cautious look, and he did not dare to gasp for breath, how could he dare to laugh. Although his grandmother was good to him, he had the impression that all he said and did all the time was to let his mother get pregnant early so that she could have another child of her own. And the mother is also trying hard to get pregnant, so that she can give birth to a child for the Luo family, so that the Luo family can be happy. Therefore, this environment made him feel a lot of coldness and sadness inadvertently.

He didn't feel happy at home, so he always liked to run to the threshing floor in front of the village. The threshing floor is a large flat land surrounded by several stacks of rice stalks. The children of the village love to run here to play. He was envious of the boys and girls who were running and dancing and having fun on the threshing floor, and went up to them to play with them, but before he could get to him, someone shouted to him, "Get out of here, stay away from here." He watched the others play with great amusement as he walked away from the threshing floor and returned to his own home.

At this time, my mother was making clothes in the back room, and my grandmother was cooking in the kitchen. He sat on the threshold and stared blankly at the mountains in the distance. On the other side of the mountains was a place of confusion, and there was some faint sadness. He put his little hands on his cheeks, kept blinking his eyes, and thought about the question that he didn't know how many times he had thought about: other children were treasures of the family, and let their fathers carry them on their shoulders and ride on their necks, and they bought delicious and fun things, and their hearts were as distressed as if they were treasures, but why did he make his father so annoyed and hateful? He knew that this was because he was not his father's biological son, and his father was not his own father. But why didn't he have his own father, and where was his real father? But the question is like a mystery that will never be solved.

After a while, his father came back from his work in the fields, stepped over the threshold, and scolded him, "Why are you sitting here? He was so frightened by his father's yelling that he hurried up from the threshold, sat down on a small stool under the eaves, and continued to look into the distance.

The sun was about to set, and the wilderness in front of the door was shining brightly. The light flashed in his heart, and he seemed to understand something. He wondered if his own father was dead, or he wouldn't have left him alone or not.

At this time, the grandmother, who was cooking, came over and shouted to him, "Good boy, go and get soy sauce." He immediately stood up, took the dime and the soy sauce bottle that his grandmother had given him, and ran barefoot to the small shop. The small shop is at the entrance of the village, and there is a mile away. He ran as fast as he could, but in only a decade or two, he fetched the soy sauce and brought it to the kitchen, and then walked towards the door. The mother came out of the back room and shouted to him, "Don't run any further, it's time to eat." "My father was sitting at a small table in the hall and smoking. He didn't want to stay under his father's nose, so he stayed in the open space in front of the door, catching small insects in the grass.

However, as soon as he played for a while, his father stood in front of the house and shouted to him, "It's dead, and it's not dirty." Can't eat?" the child hurried into the house. His mother said to him, "Go and wash your hands." So he ran to the kitchen, scooped a scoop of water from the large water tank, and poured it into the small wooden basin to wash his hands. After washing his hands, he came to the hall, and his father and grandfather had already begun to eat. His mother sat him down and served him a bowl of rice.

He ate and looked at the two dishes on the small table. The big plate is rape, and the small plate is fried leeks with eggs. He knew that the big plate of dishes was for everyone to eat, and the small plate of dishes was for his mother's body, because his father and grandmother wanted his mother to have another little brother. However, the plate of fried leeks with eggs was so fragrant that he couldn't help but want to eat it. However, he did not dare to move because he was afraid that his father would scold him. However, when he saw how fragrant the yellow eggs were, he wanted to eat them very much. So, while his father was not paying attention, he hurriedly took a piece of egg from the small plate and put it in his mouth.

When Grandma saw him in a hurry, she said to him, "Good man, don't be so anxious and get stuck in your throat." However, as soon as he said this, he attracted the attention of his father, who saw at a glance that he was stealing eggs, so he tapped his chopsticks on his head and scolded, "I don't know anything about tutoring." Being knocked by his father with chopsticks like this, Xiao Shanxue cried. When the mother saw this, she immediately threw the bowl on the table, and protested to the father, "What are you doing? The child is not wrong, why did you beat him?"

However, when the father saw that his wife lost her temper, he also became annoyed, so he scolded loudly, "All this is not your fault, if you hadn't done that thing, how would you have made such a mess of the house, and I still have nowhere to get out of my belly, and I have wronged you very much." Listening to my father's menacing scolding, the mother always sobbed silently and did not answer. Moreover, every time Dad and Mom quarrel or get angry, Dad has to yell at Mom with this kind of words, and, listening to this, Mom will suddenly become weak and never say anything again. This made Xiao Shanxue wonder if his mother owed his father something and what handle he had in his father's hands. He felt that his mother was very pitiful and helpless.

When the grandmother saw that his father and mother were having a quarrel, she reprimanded her son, "The child knows how to eat eggs, let him eat eggs well, why do you beat him?" Grandpa said to everyone, "Forget it, don't quarrel, a little thing is like turning the sky upside down." Seeing that everyone was silent, Xiao Shanxue didn't dare to cry anymore, and after eating silently, he went to the threshing floor.

By this time, it was already dark and the children had gone home, so there was no one on the threshing floor, and it was very quiet. He sat on a pile of straw in the threshing floor to calm himself. Only at this time did he feel that the world in front of him belonged to him, no one quarreled with him and scolded him, no one cared about him and beat him. He sat on the haystack and looked at the stars and the moon in the sky. The stars were blinking at him, and the moon was smiling at him. He winked and smiled at them. This feeling is really very comfortable and comfortable, and it makes him feel free and free.

After a while, his mother came looking for him, and he hurriedly got up from the haystack and walked in front of her. Mom touched his head with her hand and asked if he was still in pain. He said it didn't hurt anymore. At this time, he saw that his mother was still crying. This made him feel that his mother still loved him very much. However, he knew that his mother was also in pain and often cried alone. However, he didn't understand why his mother was unhappy and unhappy. Even though the mother-in-law and the father want to give the mother good food, it is because they want the mother to give them a son, and they want the mother to have a son because he is not their biological child, they don't like him, and they hope to have their own child. In fact, he can feel that his father doesn't love his mother very much, and often quarrels and scolds with his mother, and even yells at his mother, of course, most of the reasons for their quarrels and scolding are because of him. Dad doesn't like him, and he annoys him at every turn, but Mom wants to protect him, so the two have to quarrel and scold each other. Therefore, he often feels that he and his mother are not from this family.

He took his mother's hand and said, "Mom, Daddy is not good to us, let's go." His mother asked him, "Where are we going?" Xiao Shanxue said, "Let's go to Grandma's house." "Because he knows that everyone in his grandmother's family is nicer to him and his mother. But my mother shook her head and said, "But this is our home." ”