You may also be unable to conceive, this sentence echoed in Anxin's ears for a long time.

She held Su Jiarui's hand back, "Did you hear me......?"

Su Jiarui heard it, and she was also very embarrassed, but this child came at an inopportune time.

He shouldn't have come out at this time.

"Peace of mind, you can think clearly, there is nothing ...... if you don't have children in the future" Su Jiarui herself is weak-hearted, but the situation is stronger than people, and now Anxin can't raise children at all, can't afford to raise them, can't even move her hukou.

Anxin was also a little hesitant to be said, and she remembered her mother who was still lying on the hospital bed.

If she keeps this child, she will not be able to work for a long time, she will have no money, the mother's medical expenses will be cut off, and the child will not be able to take good care of him after birth.

An Xin hesitated all night, and when Su Jiarui came to see her the next day, she saw that her eyes were blue and black.

Su Jiarui was a little distressed, obviously Anxin was only in her early twenties, but she had to bear so much at her age.

She went over and brought out the food she had brought, "Eat some." ”

Anxin drank the porridge one bite at a time, even if she didn't have the slightest appetite, it felt like chewing wax in her mouth, but she had to eat it.

She can't collapse her body, she still has to support a family. She also has to feed her mother to shelter from the wind and rain.

"Jiarui, I've decided. ”

Su Jiarui's hand peeling the apple paused, and she couldn't guess the answer for a while, she asked seemingly calmly: "What, do you stay or fight?"

"I decided to knock it out. ”

Anxin's eyes were slightly red, and he bit his lip gently.

Her lips were a little peeled, because of thirst, Su Jiarui poured her a glass of water, and she didn't know why she had the urge to cry.

"I'll go to the doctor and make arrangements for you. ”

Anxin's dream since childhood was to become a doctor, and now he is on the operating table.

There is no bloodshed but it seems to have experienced a war, the operating table is her battlefield, the scalpel is her weapon, and her mission of war is to save lives and fight against the disease.

This belief and one day fell on her little heart, and in the years that followed, it quickly took root and became the belief of her study career.

It's just that she didn't expect that before she could fight the disease, her mother was pushed into the operating table first, and then herself.

Unlike her mother, she is now lying on the operating table, waiting for the end of an innocent life.

The chandelier above her head blurred her vision, and she felt as if she had seen an innocent child and beckoned to her.

He's still so young, two months old, almost in rudiments.

Anxin's ears recalled the doctor's words mixed with sighs, if she lost this child, she might not be able to have children in the future.

She is a doctor herself, and she always knows that doctors will always speak very tactfully, and the meaning of what the doctor says is a sign that she may not be able to conceive.

After losing this child, she will never have a child again, and after she loses this child, she will forever lose her qualification to be a mother.

Anxin grabbed the fabric she received, she regretted it, she was reluctant, she couldn't bear it.

The tragic scenes of the future and the child's face crossed in my mind.

I closed my eyes with peace of mind, life is going to go on after all, why is it a big deal.

When she opened her eyes again, her eyes were already firm, and the well-prepared doctor calmly asked her, "Are you ready......?"

Anxin looked at her, with the desire to survive in her eyes, and for the child to survive, she said firmly: "No, I want to go down, I won't fight this child." ”

The doctor didn't force it, took the tools, and let people go back with peace of mind.

It made Su Jiarui, who was anxiously waiting outside the ward, startled.

"Won't fight?"

"Jiarui, I may be this one child in this life, I want to keep him. ”

An Xin held Su Jiarui's arm, and his eyes were full of determined brilliance.

This brilliance has almost forgotten the hardships she suffered during this time, and returned to the original tenacity and bright years.

Su Jiarui was moved by her firmness, and without saying a word, the tears came down first, she wiped it and said okay.

"I'll be this child's godmother from now on. ”

"If you want to be beautiful, you can kiss your aunt. ”

Anxin snorted and laughed.

Su Jiarui also burst into tears and laughed.

Anxin packed up her things and followed Su Jiarui home, she wanted to do more work and save some money while the child was still young, but she couldn't do those dirty jobs anymore due to physical reasons, which was really sad.

Fortunately, the salary given by Chu Louming is quite large, barely enough to make ends meet, but it is still not enough to pay for the medical expenses.

And when she is pregnant for a long time, she should quit the job, and the contract she signed at the beginning is not long-term.

"Jiarui, you know about my pregnancy, don't tell anyone. ”

Su Jiarui was helping Anxin on the Internet to see what work she had at this time, and when she heard this, she glared at her: "Look at what you said, who else can I tell you." ”

"I'm upset, I'm always afraid of ......"

"Oops, you're just too sensitive. ”

Su Jiarui peeled an orange for him in the past, "It is said that pregnant women are sensitive and sentimental, I think it's true, look at what happened to you now, bad premonition to convert to metaphysics?"

Anxin snorted at her, and the sweet taste of oranges exploded in her mouth, making her mood quite wonderful.

"By the way, isn't there an event in the mall tomorrow? Do you have something to do tomorrow?

Su Jiarui's work is relatively lively, and after the design draft is completed, she can sit and die in the office to work.

"It's nothing, let's go together. ”

The new mall is huge, with six floors and everything you need to eat, drink and have fun.

There are a lot of people who have just opened, and Anxin and Su Jiarui dressed up as a teddy bear and Pikachu and took photos with the children who came and went.

The security measures in the mall are good, there are many people and there is no chaos, peace of mind is not good, but it is also fun to play with the children, especially when she thinks that her children will grow up so big in the future, so bouncing and jumping, very cute.

Thinking about it at ease, the whole person was unconsciously gentle, and the children loved to play with her even more.

Anxin was playing an old-fashioned magic trick with a child, and saw a child standing not far away crying from a distance.

Hurriedly walked over, took off the bear's head by the way, and squatted beside the child.

"What's wrong with you, kid, why are you crying?"

"Xiaotian, why did you run here. ”

The two voices came out at the same time, and Xiao Zhuoran was also stunned.

"Why are you here?"

The fourth floor of the mall is the food city, and now in the café on the fourth floor, there are two people, a man and a woman.

"Don't worry, why didn't you tell me about something like this?"

“...... I. ”

Anxin didn't know what to say, so he simply didn't say it.