The love of teachers and students (United States) is translated by Swen Trana and Zhang Bao

Those who read this story may think that I did something wrong, and I know that, but that didn't stop me from falling in love with one of my students.

I was 25 years old when I started teaching in high school. I teach Ukrainian. It was my first year of teaching in high school, and I was still a little nervous. When I applied for the job, they told me that I was too young and inexperienced. However, because they were in great need of teachers, they hired me.

On the first day of class, a group of boys walked into the classroom, laughing loudly and high-fived each other. I stood at the front of the classroom and waited for everyone to arrive, and twice asked them to take their seats quickly. When I asked them to sit for the third time, one of the guys started staring at me with his eyes, and he kept staring at me. His face was full of surprise. Then he looked at the other boys and told them to hurry up and take their seats. The way he looked at me made me feel a little embarrassed.

Later, I found out that his name was Langdon. He is a senior and must take a foreign language to graduate. Langdon is the captain of the men's swimming team and is very handsome. So, the girls are obsessed with him.

In my first week at the school, I felt that I was different from him and other students. Although the girls in the class paid attention to him, he turned a blind eye to them and took his lessons very seriously, which surprised me.

Time passed quickly, and when I was teaching for about 2 months, the class had an exam, but instead of taking the exam, he took a makeup test. After school, I let him take the test alone. He sat quietly in his seat and finished the exam paper in about 15 minutes. After that, he just sat there staring at me. I asked him what was wrong, and he startled me with his answer.

"Teacher, did those boys make you uncomfortable talking to you in that way?" I didn't know how to answer for about a minute. And I said, "How?"

"They joke about you. ”

The boys in the class always joked that I was a little too beautiful as a teacher. I wouldn't say that I'm really beautiful about this, but I can say that I'm charismatic and very different from other teachers. Not only was I the youngest teacher in the school, but I also wore different clothes from other teachers, and my clothes and fashions were made to order by the tailors specifically for my work in the school.

I replied, "They didn't mean it, and I don't mind." I know they're just joking. ”

We continued to talk for a while, until I realized it was time for him to finish the question, and I said, "It's done? ”

Langdon laughed and said, "I'm done." ”

"Really?" I asked, surprised. But I don't have to worry because he got a perfect score.

After that day, he began to stay at school after school and asked for more help, saying he needed more help to complete his studies. He was always the last to leave the school, so we often walked together to the parking lot. We talk a lot about things and often joke about it. From that day on, his classmates stopped joking with me.

After some time, one day I received a call from the office. They told me they had some of my stuff and asked me if I had one or two students pick them up for me. I said okay, and let a guy and a girl pick it up for me. The girl came back a few minutes later and smiled at me to close my eyes.

I refused at first, but finally closed my eyes. And I heard, "Get it." Then she said to me, "Open your eyes." "When I opened my eyes, I saw a large bouquet of red roses. At the time, I thought there were about 50 roses in the bouquet. However, I later found out that there were only 26 sticks because it was my twenty-sixth birthday. There was an envelope on it, and when I opened it, I immediately recognized it as Langdon's handwriting. I blushed and when I looked at him, he smiled and winked at me.

After class, he stayed behind and congratulated me, saying, "Teacher, I wish you a happy birthday." ”

My face turned red again and I said, "Why are you doing this?"

"Because today is your birthday. ”

When he walked to the door, I asked him, "Why in school?"

He looked around, smiled smugly at me, and said, "I want the other guys to understand that someone is already in your life." With that, he left the room.

Time was ticking, and he would come to me as soon as he got out of class. We sat together and talked. I know it's wrong, but I can't stop myself. When I said to him, "Don't come again, because you don't need any extra help." ”

But he said, "But I need you." ”

He somehow got his hands on my cell phone number and started texting me. He would sometimes text me in class. Once, he sent me some funny text messages. I couldn't help but laugh out loud, causing the students to look at me with bewildered eyes.

After that, he asked me to go on a date with him, and I said yes. We went out of town to skate, and he kissed me for the first time. However, these wonderful pleasures did not last long.

Soon, the students started talking about us.

Someone said to me, "You don't treat Langdon the same way you treat us. ”

More and more rumors began to spread on campus. We felt very uncomfortable during that time, and I told the principal about it.

She said to me, "That's what I've been worried about from the beginning. I don't want to hire you, not because you're inexperienced, but because you're too young. She went on to add, "There may be a solution to this problem." ”

Langdon was transferred out of my class. The whole school and his guys were looking at me with a smile on their faces. Guan Deng wanted to talk to me, but this would give rise to more rumors. I don't know what to do. The school held a board meeting for this, and the board asked me to resign. I made a statement to the board for about 5 minutes that I was willing to resign, and although the school could not find a suitable person to replace me, leaving the school was the best option for me.

They were relieved by my resignation, and they happily assured me that they would soon find a replacement for me. I'm looking forward to someone coming to replace me. I was about to leave school, and some of my colleagues said goodbye to me with tears. I want to cry too. The principal, as a good friend, gave me a good suggestion to start in junior high school and then work my way up to high school. I just smiled at her. She hugged me and started crying. She went on to say how unfair life is.

Two weeks later, I moved out. Langdon tried to contact me. He left me some notes, but I felt like a dead man, and I tore them apart. I didn't want to read those notes and refused to see him again. After I left, the landlord called me and said I had a letter in my mailbox. I gave her my new address so she could send me that letter. I received the letter within 3 days. The letter was written by Langdon. When I opened the envelope and saw the letter, my hands began to tremble. He wrote in the letter that he loved me and that he would never love another person as much as he loved me, because his heart would always be with me. He apologized for the trouble he caused me and a picture of us smiling in happy times. I cried for days. I took a long sabbatical the following year, and the following year I started working at a new middle school.

A few years have passed. I wouldn't want to date him even though there were a lot of people interested in me. I've become a cold person. Four years have passed, and an old friend from Random School is about to get married. She asked me to go back and be her bridesmaid. The thought of meeting Langdon scares me. However, I went anyway. I was shopping for clothes for the wedding when a girl in her early 20s asked if we needed help. I took a closer look at her and recognized her as one of my former students. When I looked at her, I tried to remember her name, and she said to me, "Are you my teacher?"

I laughed and said, "Yes." ”

We started talking about her life, and I told her a few things about myself. But when she asked, "Don't you want to know about Langdon?" I felt a little embarrassed as she said this, and immediately fell silent, just looking at her. But she continued, "When he was transferred out of your class, he was distressed and wanted to talk to you, and kept asking us to help him deliver the letter to you. However, you took two days off and then we heard that you quit. When he heard that you were at school,

He ran to your classroom, but he didn't find you, so he ran to the office to look for you, but that was in vain. The look of pain and disappointment on his face as he stood in the office, I don't think I'll ever forget. After that, he began to skip school frequently. One day he heard people speaking ill of you, and he pounced on them and beat them badly. He was terrible. After a fight, he was expelled from the swimming team. After that, he didn't do anything more, and the only thing that saved him was the excellent results he had achieved before. We graduated and heard that he joined the army. In the summer before he enlisted in the army, he went to a very hard party and became a playboy. Half a year ago, it was reported that he died in Iraq, became a member of the army, and made a career. His funeral was so solemn that everyone present cried and said it was hard to believe that he had left like this. Someone talked about the two of you. A friend of his said that Langdon had said that you were his first and last love, and that was true.

After telling the story, the girl began to cry. By this point, I was in tears. I cried for days on end, and my mood was gloomy and depressed for weeks on end. My friend helped me a little bit by letting me go and be a bridesmaid for another bride and gave me a lot of comfort and support.

I've known that girl for two years. I'm sitting there alone right now, with 26 red roses in my hand and a picture of Langdon and me. I wanted to cry, but I didn't have any tears. I deeply regret not fighting for my love and not trying to protect it like Langdon did. I just abandoned him and abandoned our love. Tears kept streaming down my cheeks because I knew I wasn't going to love anyone like Ellendon anymore.