I'm Luo Yi.

The first time I met Shen Jue was in the small garden behind the Shen family's old house.

The waddling fence surrounded the blooming roses, and he wore a warm-colored plaid shirt, and sat quietly under the grape trellises, holding a copy of Tagore and reading it carefully.

The warm wind ruffled his forehead, and he stroked it carelessly, the scar behind his forehead faintly visible in the sunlight.

Almost instantly, I was sure of his identity.

appeared in the back garden of the Shen family, looking the same age as me, with a scar left by domestic violence on his forehead-

Shen Jue, the stepson that my uncle brought back two days ago.

That's right, this is not news in the Shen family. My uncle remarried two days ago.

As the eldest son of the Shen family, this may seem logical to others - but only if they don't know that my last aunt had passed away just two weeks ago.

My young cousin, Shen Zun, was forced to accept his stepmother and brother who had quickly entered the house before he even had time to digest the fact that his mother had left suddenly.

My grandfather, the head of the Shen family who has been majestic all his life, has three children in one child. My eldest uncle, the eldest son Shen Xiwen, my aunt, the second daughter Shen Xiyao, and my father, the youngest son Shen Xiyuan.

That's right, my father's surname is Shen, and my surname is Luo. But this was not surprising, especially when I had a mother surnamed Lo - although she had been dead for many years.

I never met my mother, not once.

In order to give birth to me, she exhausted herself on that cold operating table. She didn't even have time to look at me when she closed her eyes.

From a very young age, I knew better than anyone how much my father loved my mother.

He was not angry with me, nor did I comfort him. It's just that every time my birthday comes, we always reach a rare tacit understanding - tacitly not mentioning such extravagant words as "birthday".

Later, when I made my debut, my agent asked me for a specific date for my birthday, and I thought about it and filled in Shen Jue's birthday on that blank piece of paper.

Although- I know he's forgotten.

But that's okay too.

As long as I remember.

Growing up in a place like the Shen family with a strict family education is really a very boring thing.

There was a time when I was envious of my little cousin who had followed my aunt to live in England. Although he, like me, is one of the few people in this house who is not surnamed Shen, my cousin Hengzhao, who is recognized by everyone as a genius, is obviously much happier than me.

According to my aunt, my parents made a private agreement for life too early, and my mother was pregnant with me before the marriage was approved. It just so happened that my uncle and aunt were both late married, which led to the fact that zhì was obviously the father of the youngest son, but became the first to get married and have children. And this phenomenon directly led me to not find a person of the same age in the entire Shen Mansion.

My cousin Zheng Hengzhao is four years younger than me, probably because he is the same age, he has always been close to Shen Zun since he was a child. I watched Shen Zun, who had been dull in the past, gradually become cheerful under Hengzhao's teasing, and I gradually became a little envious. After all, I really thought that my youth would end hastily in the boring lessons of the tutor and the boring deep house of the Shen family.

Until-- I met him.

When I met Shen Jue, I didn't expect it. Many years later, I still remember the long-lost sense of excitement that came to my heart on the day I first met him.

Naturally, we got closer. I don't know if it's the comfort brought by a similar age, I found that in front of Shen Jue, I, who had always been reluctant to speak, seemed to have endless feelings to share with him. I am like a traveler who has been in the scorching desert for a long time, and in the tired and boring journey, I have found a cool and sweet quiet lake. Almost full of gratitude, I looked at Shen Jue beside me, and for the first time I was glad that I was born in this boring and harsh Shen family.

Probably because my concern was too obvious, Shen Jue would always be a little embarrassed to cover the scar on his forehead when he was a teenager. After we got acquainted with each other, he told me gloomily that his biological father had always had a strict tendency towards domestic violence.

I didn't know Shen Jue's mother, my new aunt. But in Shen Jie's mouth, what I heard was a good mother who was strong and optimistic, and would still smile and comfort Shen Du in the midst of her husband's frequent domestic violence.

I don't have a mom and I don't understand what it's like to have one. It's just that when he looked at Shen Jue's soft expression and described his mother in his eyes, he suddenly felt a little envious.

Shen Jue said that Shen Zun will probably never be able to accept him, I can't deny it.

Shen Jue said that I hope to see Shen Zun happy, I have nothing to do.

Shen Jue said that Shen Zun's birthday was coming and wanted to find me to celebrate Shen Zun together.

I jumped off the stone bench and rushed back to my room as if I had run away, under the pretext that the governess was waiting for me.

About that extravagant word.

I can't listen, I can't think.

If you listen to it, you will have extravagant expectations. Those who have witnessed others can't help but fantasize.

After all, I don't have a birthday.

On the day I was born, my mother was bleeding and my father was crying. I was greeted by the silence of black and white, and the large white chrysanthemums.

Yes, I have understood since I was a child.

I can't have anything to do with birthdays, anytime.

Someone was knocking on my door, soft, but calm.

I heard Shen Jue shouting outside the door, Ah Luo, Ah Luo, I have something to say to you.

I patted my cheek and opened the door pretending to be calm, and then I froze in place.

I saw Shen Jue standing outside my door. And in his arms, he held a cake box steadily.

Red cake box with yellow floral fonts. Those four words in bold lace almost burned my eyes.

Happy birthday.

I wanted to kick him out, I wanted to hide, I wanted to push those four words out of my head...... But this qiē was broken up by Shen Jue's next sentence-

"Arlo, actually...... Today is my birthday. ”

Shen Jue in front of me was obviously trying to smile at me, but I suddenly felt sad.

I should have thought of it.

When the whole Shen family was happily preparing a birthday banquet for Shen Zun, Shen Jie's birthday was so logically forgotten.

I wanted to say something, only to realize that I had no experience in this area. As if seeing my chagrin, Shen Jue suddenly laughed. I looked at him in amazement, and before I could ask, I heard his voice suddenly lowered.

"Arlo, in fact, no one remembers, I'm still a little sad. ”

"But, I've got a good idea......

His eyes brightened as he looked at me, and his expression gradually became more and more serious.

"Arlo, I'...... I want to give you a birthday, would you?"

"That way, you will remember me, and I will remember you. That way, no matter what happens, our birthday won't be forgotten by everyone......"

"Every year after that, our birthday was on this day. We said we'd like to celebrate together forever, okay?"

At that time, he looked at me with a warm smile in the corner of his eyes.

His voice was soft, but with a serious tone.

But as far as I'm concerned, it's almost deafening.

I've forgotten how embarrassed I was.

Maybe it was tears, or maybe it was hugging him tightly.

I've never had the luxury of asking for it.

One day, in my gray life, I can meet such a person.

He said that he was willing to give me his most precious birthday.

Even if I understood his intentions, it might not be as simple as he said.

But at that time, I was more sure than anyone else.

I was sure that Shen would do this, neither because of charity nor out of sympathy.

Because I saw it. I saw it very clearly.

At that time, there was only warmth in his eyes when he looked at me.

Warm as the warmth of spring.

Shen Jue and I quickly got closer. Later, when I looked back on that short time, I suddenly realized that at that time, we could only be described as intimate.

And at the same time that I was getting closer and closer to Shen Jie, Shen Zun's symptoms were becoming more and more severe day by day.

The doctor said that Shen Zun suffered from autism.

This news sent my uncle into an endless panic. He solicited treatments that were said to be effective, and even called my aunt who was far away in England back in order for Shen Zun to speak as soon as possible. He almost self-hypnotized pinned his hopes on the still immature Heng Zhao, hoping that Heng Zhao of the same age could untie Shen Zun's heart knot and make him smile.

Shen Jue fell into deep self-blame because of this incident. Even though I tried my best to comfort him every day, it didn't seem to have much effect. He was almost paranoid that it was his arrival that broke Shen Zun's originally smooth life. Until the aunt returned to the Shen family with her son, the situation still did not improve.

Returning to China with her aunt and Heng Zhao, there is also a psychologist invited by her aunt from the UK. After Heng Zhao and Shen Zun communicated to no avail, the expert came to a conclusion. She said that it was necessary to change all the environments that Shen Zun had closed.

The aunt proposed to take Shen Zun to the UK, but the expert and the uncle unanimously refused. Although their goals were completely different - it was clear that Shen Zun would not be the one to go abroad. But what is a change in this way?

At the time, I didn't understand what kind of changes that expert would bring to my life. It wasn't until because of her conclusion that Shen Jue went to the UK with Heng Zhao and finished college there in one go, that I finally understood-

Some people may seem unrelated to you. But the incredible thing is that maybe one day a certain sentence of that person will inadvertently drag the trajectory of your life away until you can never return to the original state.

My dear friend Shen Jue followed my aunt's family silently and went to the ocean without looking back.

I didn't go to see him the day before I left.

I stood outside the door of his room and heard him clearly say to his uncle that he was willing.

As a young man, I stood outside the door in a daze, and it was not until I heard footsteps inside that I picked up my legs and fled silently.

His smiling face flashed to my mind, and I slammed the door shut, leaning against it and gasping for breath.

He said that every year in the future, we will celebrate together.

He said, Arlo, it's good to have you by my side.

I didn't go to see him off the day he left.

I can't tell if I can't forgive him for running away, or if I can't forgive myself for being so selfish.

In this way, I grew up alone in the lonely house of the Shen family.

Drifting away from childhood memories is also the relationship between me and Shen Jie.

Between us, it seems, there is only distance left.

Later, I made my debut and signed a contract with Qixing under my father's arrangement.

I gritted my teeth and walked to the top step by step. When I was named the god of songs, standing on the highest stage, I looked at my shadow stretched by the light, and suddenly felt that in fact, all these years, I was the only one left with me.

The fans in the audience were shouting loudly, Happy Birthday Arlo.

For a moment, I wanted to laugh inexplicably.

yes, happy birthday.

Me and yours, birthdays.

Who is happier?

Over the years, I have been up and down in this circle a few degrees. What about you, how are you doing?

A few months later, my cousin Zheng Hengzhao returned to China.

Sitting in my lounge, he smiled as sly as he had been a child. I asked him what he was doing when he came back, and he said he was back for college.

I rolled my eyes.

Even though my father had just been promoted to the current principal of A-University, I had no reason to believe that my father's school was so attractive to my gifted cousin.

Not to mention that my cousin Zheng, who is recognized as a genius, skipped a grade in a row a few years ago, and was successfully admitted to the famous and scary university in the United Kingdom, and graduated smoothly. I really don't understand sometimes, it's so interesting to go to college twice?

And now this genius was sitting in front of me, sitting across from me with his legs crossed. His eyebrows were slightly raised, the corners of his lips were lightly raised, and there was a light in his eyes that could not be ignored.

"I'm going to run an entertainment company, will you come?"

When I heard him say that, I understood why he came back.

This devil, who has been full of ghost ideas since he was a child, suddenly returned to China, this is to disturb the troubled waters in the circle.

"Don't, it's troublesome, the formalities will be annoying. ”

It could be seen that he was not surprised by my choice. Relieved, I leaned back in my chair and thought back to all these years of being at Dawn Star.

That's right, I've been at Enlighten for many years.

Qixing's treatment is good, I occasionally have some friction with the media, and they are willing to help with the aftermath. Even though my contract is about to expire now, I don't really have any intention of changing places.

Although I don't have any intention of helping this little cousin in my selfish heart, but after thinking about it, for a genius like him who can't do anything, even if he doesn't have me, it probably won't be much worse.

The most important thing is that I really don't bother to deal with the tedious signing procedures and the gossip of the media. It's more tiring for me than a concert.

"Well, I knew you were afraid of trouble, so I came prepared-" As if he had already guessed my thoughts, Heng Zhao shrugged his shoulders and pushed over a contract with a smile, "I know your contract is about to expire, if you want to come, it's not too late to wait until then." This also saves you penalty...... Well, as for the contract—"

I wanted to tell him that he didn't have to lure me into taking the bait in vain, but when I heard his next sentence, I froze in place.

“...... This time, Shen Jue came back with me, and he will be the general manager of my company. If you don't want to deal with something, you can leave it to him......"

Heng Zhao in front of me was still slowly saying something, but I couldn't listen to a word. Looking down at the contract in my hand, I stood up, walked to the desk in Hengzhao's surprised eyes, grabbed a pen, and neatly signed my name.

"Needless to say, I'll go. ”

I guess I've always wanted to meet him.

The man he hadn't met in a long time.

Actually, not long ago, I heard my aunt talk about it.

She laughed and talked to me about the fact that during the time she was studying in England, she seemed to have gradually changed her temperament, becoming more capable and calm.

Later, I personally verified this conjecture.

The first time I met him at SG, I was almost convinced.

He probably doesn't remember that anymore.

He was surprised for a moment when he saw me, and then smiled at me detachedly.

He said, Roselle, long time no see.

I nodded, and as I passed by, I caught a glimpse of his clenched fingers.

At that moment, I finally understood.

There are some things that have probably never been forgotten.

It's just that there's no going back.