Also known as "Marriage is the Grave of Love" Zhang Baotong 2016.7.4

The superhuman, unruly Abelard brought down one idol after another with merciless arguments, especially after defeating his teachers Anselm of Lyon and William of Tempus, who became the pre-eminent authority on logic in Paris, and had no more close rivals. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 InfoAt the age of 38, Abelard was already a theological teacher at the Church Seminary. Tall and slender, with a delicate face, well-dressed, personable, slightly curly hair, deep sunken eye sockets, a straight nose, and a smile at the corners of his mouth always with a hint of casual contempt.

His lectures, like his arguments, are full of quotations, humor, and eloquence. In addition to logical arguments, he could also write poems, compose music, and sing on his own, and he often recited beautiful verses. One can imagine how the innocent and sentimental Eloise would look at this idol from the podium, but Eloise did not know that her talent and appearance were already attracting her idol.

Yes, Abelard, who is in full swing, has almost become an idol for the students. The students respected him very much. Young people from all over France came to his tutelage to study and apprentice. Because knowledge itself is characterized by arrogance and arrogance, the self-satisfied Abelard seems to have decided to abandon the self-discipline and restraint of "careful but firm restraint of indulgence" that he had pursued in his pursuit of success, and could not help but taste the joy of lust, for he felt that there was a temptation he could not resist.

Yes, as a man, who has struggled for many years and achieved fame, how can he not want to taste the taste of this success? He is a noble and handsome man, with a reputation throughout Paris and even in the whole of France. Moreover, every day there were many ladies and ladies around him, and as long as he gestured to any of the beauties, those beauties would be flattered and undesirable. However, he didn't want these women to affect his fame, and he was embarrassed to refuse the affection of those beauties. Therefore, this ambivalent mentality makes him look left and right and hesitate.

However, a Parisian girl named Eloise fell into extreme lovesickness. The youngest and most beautiful schoolgirl was only sixteen years old, but she was more talented in Latin and rhetoric than all the others. If she is just pretty and good-looking, it is not enough to attract him and will not attract his attention, because among his students there are many beautiful and good-looking girls. What really impressed him was her intelligence and knowledge, her diligence and eagerness to learn.

Lately, he has been paying close attention to the beautiful girl who is listening carefully under the podium. I pay attention to her every move and every expression all the time. Because from her expression, he could feel whether his lecture was wonderful and moving, whether it could move people's hearts. Sometimes, he felt like he was just lecturing to her. Moreover, he only has such a student. At night, lying in bed, I can't help but think of her, think of her beautiful appearance, think of her compelling aura, and think of her brilliant mind. In his heart, she seemed to be a goddess! such a beautiful and intelligent goddess!

That morning, he gave a lecture on theology to his students. Theology is a combination of the Greek words "God" and "Word," which means the doctrine of man's correct understanding of God. In today's lesson, he focuses on Augustine's Confessions and his ethical thoughts. He was a great admirer of Augustine's theology and made it a major course he taught in the ecclesiastical seminary. And this course has also received great interest from students. The students' enthusiasm for learning also makes his lectures rich and fulfilling. In particular, he was greatly moved by the concentration and soaring demeanor of the innocent and beautiful girl when she listened to the lecture, and he felt that his lecture was more and more eloquent and endless.

He said, "Augustine combined the religious concept of God's creation of the world with Plato's theory of ideas, established an ethical doctrine, and reduced the good and evil of morality to man's relationship with God, thus changing the direction of ethical research in the ancient Greek tradition and becoming one of the main sources of Christian morality in the Middle Ages." ”

Augustine believed that earth and heaven are absolute opposites, that man has a tendency to be selfish and inclined to evil because of Adam's original sin, and that only by faith, love, and obedience to God can man save himself from original sin. Therefore, he believed that happiness is the happiness of serving God and serving God, and that the ultimate goal of life is to get out of the "city of earth" of earthly sin and enter the "city of God" of happiness."

At this point, he glanced at his classmates and watched as their eyes were focused on him. He loved the focused gaze. Finally, he stopped his gaze on the face of the girl he loved. Ah, he couldn't help but marvel in his heart: what a beauty, what a beautiful countenance! the most perfect woman God had given to the planet! But when he saw that she was waiting for his lecture with that hungry and impatient expression, he began to speak again.

Augustine believed that the force that drives human action is not reason, but love. There are two kinds of love he speaks of, one is the love for oneself, that is, self-love, which makes people selfish, proud, depraved, and sin away from God, and the other is the love of God, that is, charity, which makes people charitable, humble, obedient, and constantly close to God to reach the highest good. Therefore, love for God is the highest principle of morality, love for God is the highest virtue, and all other virtues have no value unless they are filled with love for God. ”

At this point, he began to say in an explanatory tone, "Man has lost his freedom due to original sin, but because of God's mercy, man has the freedom of will given by God, so man has the will and ability to choose good and evil, and as long as man is willing to do it, he has the ability to choose good and eliminate evil." In Augustine's view, ability and will are also consistent, and will is will, that is, action. Augustine placed special emphasis on the inner struggle of the individual and the role of conscience. He believed that only the inner storm of 'I struggle with myself' can expose myself naked to God, accept the condemnation of conscience and punish one's sins through repentance and introspection, and only 'I fight with me' can restrain the depraved lusts of the flesh, break free from the chains of lust that bind the will, purify the self of the soul, and achieve poverty, gentleness, sorrow, hunger and thirst for righteousness, kindness, purity, and peace. ”

When he finished his lecture, the applause of his classmates lasted for a long time. He greeted the students and expressed his gratitude. Then, hurried back to his office, drank a small glass of white wine, and prepared for a second class. However, an inexplicable feeling suddenly flooded into his heart. He didn't want to go to class anymore. It's strange to say that just now he was warmly praised by his classmates, but how could he have such a boredom now? This is too different from the excitement he used to feel as soon as he stepped onto the podium. What the hell is going on?, he let his heart calm down slowly, and then he felt dejected that the bright and beautiful goddess would not appear again in his second lesson, for she had already gone home from the lesson. He was now used to her being in his classes, because all his classes were taught to her, and when she wasn't there, would his lectures still be meaningful?