Chapter 443, think too much!

She's used to her parents dying!

She's used to being alone!

She's used to being wronged!

She is used to all doom and disaster!

However, she was worried that Fang Yan was not used to it.

When a person suffers many hardships and hardships, when a person suffers too much pain and too much loss, her heart will become hard and her body will become strong. She shields herself from the wind and rain, and she welcomes the morning glow and the stars for herself.

It's like a flower on a cliff, after all, it is more arrogant and independent than the wildflowers and weeds at the foot of the mountain.

Lu Chaoge is a flower on the cliff, and Fang Yan in the past is a flower in the greenhouse.

The flowers on the cliff will eventually have some worries and some pity when they see the flowers in the greenhouse. The wind outside is so heavy and the snow is so wild, can his thin body withstand it?

Lu Chaoge knew that Fang Yan was suffering from unimaginable sadness, just as she had endured when she was a child. However, she gritted her teeth and stubbornly survived. It was a tearing pain, as if I was awake to pluck an organ from my body.

Father, which organ of the body should he correspond to?

I'm afraid you're not used to it!

Hearing Lu Chaoge's answer, Fang Yan was stunned for a moment.

He looked at Lu Chaoge's pretty face full of concern, and said softly: "The place where I was born has a very bad habit----- men there like to talk about heroic words like valuing love and righteousness over life and death. Public and private feelings, righteousness and small righteousness, for these at the expense of their lives. ”

"So, every year someone leaves. Someone was buried in the strange and dangerous North Sea, and he couldn't even pick up his bones. Some people died in the scorching heat of the Gobi, and their bodies were submerged in quicksand, where they remained forever. Some people die in battle, some die of illness, and some people die in pursuit of martial arts---- sometimes they receive news of the death of distant relatives on a spring morning, sometimes they receive a funeral call on a summer night, sometimes it is the Double Ninth Festival, and sometimes it is the Great Chinese New Year's Eve----- can choose the day of birth, who can choose the day of death?"

Fang Yan held the rice bowl and filled himself with a bowl of fresh fish soup, and then took a small sip.

"For something like this, I thought I was already looking at it with ease. Even sometimes my mind is hot, and I think I can do what others can do-----" Fang Yan laughed self-deprecatingly and said, "It turns out that I can't do it." I'm not brave, I'm a bit cowardly. ”

"You're not cowardly. Lu Chaoge comforted softly: "You just attach too much importance to your feelings." ”

Fang Yan shook his head and said, "When I was alive, I didn't talk to him well once, I drank wine once, what is the point of waiting for a long time after I die? This kind of expression can't be called heavy feelings ---- it, right?"

"I'm just so guilty. When he was alive, I didn't take a good look at the paintings he painted, I didn't appreciate his writing, I knew he was busy with his own art exhibition, I didn't even go over to say hello if it was going well or not, if I needed help---- he lived in his world, I lived in my world. Although we are a family, I always felt that he didn't understand me, and I didn't know him. ”

"So, this time I stayed in Swallow Dock for three years, and I read all the paintings he had painted before, and even the manuscript paper under the bookcase did not fall. I have carefully studied every word and poem he wrote, and even the misspellings have been sorted out. Some of the words are very well written, which proves that he was in a good mood at that time. Some of the handwriting was very poor, and he was probably very irritable at that time, right?"

"Then I found out a secret. When he writes beautiful words, there will be something that makes him happy that day. For example, I won the title of outstanding graduate of the school, for example, my kung fu has made him satisfied---- day I first felt the heart of Tai Chi, he painted a "Morning Exercise Picture of a Teenager", a teenager practiced boxing diligently under the morning light, and the red sun in the painting was dyed very red by him, which proved that he must have been very excited at that time----

Fang Yan couldn't go on anymore and lowered his head to drink the soup.

With the warm and delicious fish soup in his stomach, Fang Yan's depressed mood was a little lighter.

"There's nothing you can't get used to, it's just that you're not willing to give up. Fang Yan said with a smile: "I just can't bear him." So much for. ”

Lu Chaoge looked at Fang Yan, there was deep worry in his beautiful eyes, and said, "Fang Yan, why did you come to Flower City?"

"There's so much to do that we can't keep waiting. Fang Yan replied, "Besides, those students before me---- they are also waiting for me." ”

"Fang Yan, don't you think this is too risky?" Lu Chaoge didn't believe Fang Yan's explanation, and said loudly: "I know you, I know what kind of man you are. You've been waiting for three years at Swallow Dock, and you've been waiting for three years. You thought those people were still going to show up, you thought they were going to do something to you---- but they didn't come out for a long time, as if they had disappeared from this world. ”

"So, you left Yanziwu, left Yanjing, and came to the most dangerous and weakest Huacheng---- you want to use your life to lure the snake out of the hole? Fang Yan, this is too dangerous. Go back, back to Swallow Dock. That's the safest place to be. They can do anything-----"

Fang Yan's eyes were filled with a terrifying red light, the whites of his eyes were covered with mottled red bloodshots, and he looked at Lu Chaoge and said calmly: "However, contradictions always have to be resolved------ they killed my father, just let me kill their whole family." You see, that's not too much to ask, isn't it?"

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Fang Yan saw Lu Chaoge's surprised expression and asked, "Aren't you used to it?" If I had such a problem, I would put it another way----- I would tell you that I was a pacifist, and then I would kill their whole family behind their backs. That's my style, isn't it?"

Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "Indeed, that's your style---- I hope you are still the same as before." At that time, although you had a vicious mouth, you were very kind-hearted. Very willing to think about others. ”

"No, I can't. Fang Yan patted his heart and said, "Every night is like being burned by fire, and it makes people unable to sleep. When the fire is extinguished, I will be able to become what I used to be. ”

"Then let's take our time. Don't be in a hurry. Lu Chaoge said. "What are you doing in Suzaku? Are you going back to be a teacher?"

"Don't be a teacher. Fang Yan said: "My current mentality is not suitable for being a teacher. I'm afraid I won't be able to control my emotions. ”

"Being a teacher is what you're good at. What would you like to do if you weren't a teacher?"

"Be a school security guard. Fang Yan said.

"Security?" the fish soup in Lu Chaoge's mouth almost squirted out. If it weren't for maintaining an elegant posture, she thought it would be difficult for her to control this kind of thing.

At that time, a rising education star in the education industry in Huacheng just wanted to be a security guard in the school---- is this contrast too strong?

"I used to love educating people, but now---- I just want to protect people. Fang Yan looked at Lu Chaoge and said, in an unprecedentedly serious tone. "Later I learned that being alive is the most important thing. I hope none of the people I care about are harmed in any way. ”

"It's too tiring to do that. ”

"It's tiring if you don't do it. Fang Yan said. "I hadn't done that before, so I'm so tired now. ”

Lu Chaoge sighed softly and said, "What can I help you?"

"Help me do a good job of Chaoyan. Fang Yan said. "I'm going to need money in the future, a lot of money. I need resources, all kinds of resources----- I don't just want one person to be strong, I need a family to be strong. Only then will I be able to go head-to-head with the conspirators who are hiding behind me. I was able to cut off their dirty hands and pierce their filthy hearts. ”

Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "You have been filial piety in Yanziwu for three years, I haven't visited you for three years---- I have put all my time and energy on the development of Chaoyan Technology." I know there will be such a day, I hope that when you come out, Chaoyan Technology can be your strongest backing----- I think, Miss Qin thinks the same way. ”

After Fang Yixing's funeral was over, Qin Yitian left immediately.

She became her mother's assistant and one of the decision-making figures in the Qin family's business.

Her eyes have been fixed on Chaoyan Technology, and she uses the resources and connections of the Qin family to escort Chaoyan's development.

If it weren't for Qin Yitian's support, if it weren't for the support of the Qin family, Chaoyan Technology, which was as fragile as a toddler and had infinite potential, would have been torn into pieces and swallowed into the stomach by those careerists.

It can be said that if Lu Chaoge had not stood on the bright side to attract artillery fire, and if Qin Yitian had not stood behind him to exert thunder, the two small flames of Chaoyan Technology would have been extinguished long ago.

"I owe you so much. Fang Yan said in a deep voice.

He didn't say thank you, because those two words were too weak to express his mood at the moment.

Lu Chaoge smiled silently, began to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, and said, "You go to watch TV for a while, and you can live with me in the future." ”

"-------" Fang Yan had a feeling of being restless.

He felt that he was in a bad mood right now, and it was not suitable to think about things between men and women.

Moreover, there is still a lack of some emotional condiments between him and Lu Chaoge, he feels that he is not ready---- if he sleeps together rashly, it is not suitable, right?

Fang Yan was in a dilemma, not knowing what kind of reason he should use, that is, to be able to refuse Lu Chaoge's invitation without hurting the woman's proud self-esteem.

Because he rarely spoke in the past three years, he felt that his language skills had deteriorated severely.

"I've cleaned up the room for you. Lu Chaoge walked into the kitchen with dishes and chopsticks.

"-------" Fang Yan realized that he was thinking too much.

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