In the bathroom, it was foggy, chaotic and difficult to see. Qin Fengyan was tired of soaking in the hazy room in the bathtub, only the cigarette in his hand was flickering ghostly...

【Memories】

A year ago, Qin Fengyan Villa.

Time passed inexorably, and the sky in the United States gradually showed the color of dawn, but the darkness before dawn was still so cold, so cold that the lingering people on the bed hugged each other tightly to warm each other's bodies and minds.

When the passion subsided, Wanqiu leaned on Qin Fengyan's shoulder contentedly, holding him tightly with both hands, as if he would disappear as soon as she let go.

Maybe I was too happy last night, but there was an inexplicable fear lingering in my heart, and I couldn't get rid of it.

However, when she thought of the lingering last night, Qin Fengyan's lips ran over every inch of her skin, from gentle rubbing to delicate biting. She'll go from blushing to the base of her neck, last night... It was her first time, it hurt, but it was very happy...

Last night, his excessive demands had exhausted her physical strength, and at the last second when she lost consciousness, she could still feel hot tears slipping from the corners of her eyes, and at that moment, she really felt that it didn't matter if she died immediately!

The transparent light shone down, and the late autumn raised her head gently, seeing that the sunlight illuminated Qin Fengyan's handsome face little by little, she couldn't suppress her heart that loved him, lowered her head, and kissed his sleeping face lightly, she was attached to his body fragrance, the smell of cologne, that was the taste engraved in her soul.

Late autumn's movements were very light and soft, but they still woke Qin Fengyan up.

"Why did you wake up so early?" Qin Fengyan's voice was very hoarse, presumably the result of last night's indulgence.

Late autumn leaned on his shoulder again, and the sweetness in her heart was infinite: "It's the first time two people sleep in the same bed, and I'm a little unaccustomed." ”

Qin Fengyan rubbed her long black waterfall-like hair, her eyes were deep and complicated: "You... Will you regret it?"

Late Autumn's heart tightened, she raised her head suddenly, and asked in a trembling voice, "... What do you mean by that? You... Do you regret it?"

Qin Fengyan looked at the late autumn deeply, with pity, guilt, contradictions, and even more reluctance and worry in his eyes.

"I don't regret it!" Qin Fengyan outlined her eyebrows, her eyes, and her clean and sweet face with her fingertips: "I'm just afraid that you will regret it... Late autumn... One day you'll find out how mean I am... I know I can't afford to give you what you want... But he selfishly took possession of you..."

"I don't want anything. In late autumn, who couldn't understand the meaning of Qin Fengyan's words, seeing that Qin Fengyan didn't hate herself, her good mood immediately returned, she buried herself in Qin Fengyan's arms, and said with a happy face: "... So don't be afraid to give me anything, as long as you are happy, I will never regret what happened last night, I am willing to give everything I have, as long as you are happy, even if in the end I will face endless darkness, I don't care. ”

"Is it worth it?" Qin Fengyan's hoarse voice choked slightly.

Wanqiu nodded lightly in the crook of his arm: "It's worth it, Brother Fengyan, do you know? You are a dream of mine, a dream that I long for but cannot reach, since the first time I saw you at the age of fourteen, you have been firmly rooted in my heart, last night, I felt so happy, so happy that I felt that everything last night was just a dream of mine, and when I woke up the next day, it was just an empty one, so, last night, I have been praying to God, if this is really just a dream, then let me never wake up." ”

"What if I can't give you a future?"

"What?"

"I took possession of you last night in a moment, but maybe, the person I will marry in the future is not you, even so, do you still think it is worth it?"

"It's worth it!" replied Late Autumn almost without hesitation, "As long as what you think in your heart at that moment is that I am worth it." ”

"Last night... In your heart... The one who thought... Is it me?" Late Autumn suddenly asked with little confidence.

Qin Fengyan's heart suddenly ached so much that he couldn't breathe, and he tried his best to barely squeeze out one word: "Yes!"

"That's good!" Late Autumn smiled sweetly: "As long as at that moment, what you think about me in your heart is enough!"

Late Autumn seemed to think of something, suddenly raised her head, looked at Qin Fengyan, and said very seriously: "... Brother Fengyan, if one day you get bored of me, or if you meet someone you really like and want to marry her, you must tell me, no matter how reluctant I am, I will definitely leave, I will not haunt you, let alone threaten you with this kind of thing, so you don't feel sorry for me, and you don't need to promise me anything, everything that happened last night was something I was willing. ”

"Of course, before you get tired of me or fall in love with someone else, I will try to make you fall in love with me first. Late Autumn Lotte added.

Qin Fengyan felt as if his internal organs had been dug out, completely misplaced, he didn't understand, how could there be such a stupid girl in the world.

"What if... I married someone else... But I still hope you can stay with me... Will you stay?" After saying these words that had been brewing in his heart for a long time, his originally numb heart began to ache faintly again.

"No!" said in a resolute tone, without a hint of hesitation.

“... Why...?" Qin Feng couldn't help but hug her tightly, and he heard a broken voice somewhere in his heart.

After tossing all night, Wanqiu suddenly felt a little sleepy, she yawned, lazily snuggled in Qin Fengyan's arms, and said casually: "What's the reason, you can not love me, you can not want me, but you can't look down on me, don't think that I was born to be someone else's mistress because my mother was someone else's mistress." ”

"So... If there really is such a day... Will you leave?" Qin Fengyan suddenly realized that breathing could also be a kind of torture.

"Well, if there really is such a day..."Wanqiu pillowed Qin Fengyan's shoulder and said in a daze: "I will definitely stay away from you... Definitely won't come to disturb your life. ”

After speaking intermittently in late autumn, he couldn't resist the call of Duke Zhou and fell asleep.

[End of memory]

It was late at night, and the water in Qin Fengyan's bathtub was already cold, but he was still immersed in the memories of the past, unaware.

In fact, love is a habit, and when you get used to all the details of her little bits and pieces in your life, you will find that losing her will be a kind of despair.