Xiang Siluo was nineteen years old that year, and at that time he had not lost his baby fat, round face, and comfortable facial features.

After graduating from high school, it was impossible for her parents to support her in college.

This home is not yet indifferent to her, just deeply hidden in her flesh and blood.

Since kindergarten, she has been in a state where she can't go to school at any time.

And to be honest, if Miss Siluo really wants to go out and sell herself to make money, the family will definitely not stop her, and her mother will agree without hesitation.

Every corner of this family will shout at any time: I need money, I need a lot of money, as long as I have money, I can do it.

And her mother would tell her to find a rich man and let her take care of her for a long time, because no matter what way she used, she had to think of getting some money for the family.

In fact, every child in the family is like a fart out of the mother's womb, not loved.

Like a sow giving birth to a litter of cubs, just give them food is very good, about education is a luxury, even the most basic is out of reach.

There are really a lot of them in coastal cities, and they don't read much and come out to do business, some succeed and some fail.

Good or bad, in Fuzhou, a city that makes people happy and stupid, it is how much money you make.

However, every child in the family still wants to leave this home one day and go to another city to work, earn money, live in a clean house, and take a good shower.

Her father said, "You don't have to read so many books, you should have come out and mingle with society a long time ago." ”

He nagged this mantra to the child every time.

"I love to read, and I want to read. As soon as Siluo heard her father's words, she was extremely disgusted, and the surging tears blocked her throat.

"Then you figure it out yourself, where does the family get the money?"

My father replied to her like this every time, no matter what difficulties she encountered, all she got was this sentence.

Siluo didn't talk back, she didn't have the guts, she really wanted to lose her temper in front of her father, just like her daughter's coquettish little temper.

However, her father would not buy her account, and the father and daughter were very estranged, but in the end, they chose to forgive and tolerate their father.

Day or night, their parents always make them feel unwarm.

There are three children in the family, Siluo is the eldest, and she has a younger brother and a younger sister, so she has to take on more.

She is also the only one in the family who reads, and her temper is not like her parents.

In fact, the moment she received the notice from Fuzhou University for the first time, she knew that her family would not support her to continue studying.

Every time she got the first place in the exam or got a reward, her mother would always say that what was the use of her reading so well, not how much money a piece of paper could sell.

Tell Siluo to try to stretch his face to the society, this is a laughing society.

The mother just glanced at her suddenly, revealing an annoying and unforgettable look, and her annunciation could only be done.

When she heard these words, she thought that she would be the first to run away from home.

But it will have to wait a few years for her parents to lose her daughter.

She wants to learn well and go out to find a job, she wants to be a good example to show her parents, and let them see what noble and civilized things are.

She had known that one day she would have to leave, leave this home forever, and she didn't want to come back.

But this kind of thing is thought in her heart, and over time she will still choose to understand her parents.

She couldn't be so ruthless, she knew she was this kind of character.

Her father, her mother, was so unbearable...... They quarrel three hundred and sixty-five days a year, and they fight many times.

Her mother had never read a book, and she would often suddenly say some foul words to murder the children, and also treat the children as outsiders, telling them all to get out every day, saying that she did not give birth to them.

Her mother had such an explosive temper almost every day, yelling at her child when she was upset.

The food she cooks also tastes strange, and she often doesn't know where to run halfway through cooking, and when she comes back, the food and the pot are all burned together.

Her parents quarreled and scolded each other on the street without any scruples, thinking that they were lucky to be reincarnated, and when they met such a pair of desperate parents, the despair was so complete.

There are also happy things in life, no matter how strong they are, what comes out of the mother's mouth changes, and from her gloomy face it makes people unappetizing.

Siluo has never understood why her parents are like this, she would rather stay in the school forever and read a book alone in an empty dormitory during the holidays than go home.

What she didn't understand was the nature of the blow her mother had suffered, which made her completely lose faith in life.

I'm afraid my mother herself doesn't know this. Could it be because she also comes from an unhappy family?

Or is she herself never exposed to culture, life pressures, doubts about her husband's abilities, doubts about these children?

This kind of sickness of the mother is really not found, and it is difficult to find one among thousands of women, all say that only the mother is good in the world, she has not experienced it, never has been.

People say that a woman marries the right man and is happy for a lifetime, and a man marries the right woman for several lifetimes, marries a good woman for three generations, marries a declining woman for six generations, and the mother is the latter.

It is precisely because of her temper that her father is often reluctant to go home, and he can't do anything well.

Everyone in the family was in a mess, and she didn't know what the reason was, she was confused and confused to death.

However, even if her family does not support Siluo's reading, such a poor family, she still fantasizes about the world of words, and there is really no way to study while working.

She was also prepared for the worst, and she had to enter society as a last resort.

Family always affects her mood, and she has always envied her female classmates for being carefree and studying.

She was the only one, and she felt that her physique was not as good as that of every classmate, and she was both sad and ashamed, and the situation was really terrible.

At the end of her three-year high school career, she had to return to that home that didn't feel like home.

Siluo's figure is very slender, and her breasts under her slender jade neck are still full, and they all say that this kind of girl was born in the wrong family, excellent and hard-working, but her parents trampled her under her shoes like a grass.

She has understood the situation at home since she was a child, and for her, everything about her parents is in her eyes, and everything is already in her eyes.

Her father was a bun shop, and he used to love gambling and owed a lot of debts, and debt collectors always came to urge him to repay the money.

It's too tight, so a family of five is directly squeezed into a bun shop of 30 square meters.

During the day, the shop normally sells steamed buns, and at night they spread straw mats on the floor, and the children beg to sleep like this, and such days will pass for several years.

There is a private space in the bun shop, and a small place is separated by old wooden boards.

The planks were picked out of the garbage by her father, and there was only enough space for a small single bed, the smallest of which was the smallest, and her parents slept there.

At night, when Siluo couldn't sleep and sat on the straw mat, he could hear the "squeak" sound of his parents' wire single bed.

Siluo hated it, hated that there was no toilet, eating, drinking and lazar were all in the same space, and it was inconvenient to take a bath.

She hopes to leave early, and she also hopes that her younger siblings will grow up and leave as soon as possible.

She couldn't bear it, so she left.

The rats and cockroaches entered the house and went away crying.

It's true, cockroaches sleep next to her at night, and they crawl into her ears.

Sometimes she has itchy ears on weekdays, and she is afraid that the cockroaches are still there, or that there are baby cockroaches in them?

Fortunately, she loves to laugh, and life is not so bad.

In the summer, after the bun shop closes at nine o'clock at night, the people in the family will take turns to scoop a small basin of water for a bath.

His father pulled it, his vest was soaked in sweat, and then he baked the buns, like a dead plaster, and there was a "sizzle" sound, as if the buns had just come out of the cage and smoked.

Even his parents, his younger siblings, Siluo felt that this kind of getting along was very annoying, embarrassing and terrible.

She was always the last to wash, scooping a bucket of water and resting it in front of the roller shutter, turning off the lights, and just undressing.

I heard someone outside the door saying, "This shop can be used as a bathhouse." When you buy steamed buns tomorrow, smell the steamed buns first, is it a woman's taste or what?"

"Then you still like to buy and eat every day. Another stranger said.

In the past, Siluo would "wow" in his voice and shout a stream of blood, and his eyes were as big as opening his mouth.

She clenched her hands in a panic, and heard the laughter of the outsider.

Later, she got used to it, and there was no way to get used to it, the environment couldn't be changed, so she could only take her own bath quietly.

She crouched down on the bucket of water, carefully dipping her cup in the water, trying not to make a sound.

My father and brother were behind the planks, and my mother and sister were outside, because the small space between them was only big enough to hide two people.

"What are you doing badly about asking for so much water to wash?" her mother told her to wash quickly, and she was going to sleep.

This was not something that people could listen to at all, and she didn't understand what it meant, so she ignored her mother and simply let go of her hands and feet.

I imagined how comfortable it was to bathe in the stream and listen to the sound of flowing water.

The opposite side of the steamed bun shop is the construction site, so there are more people on the construction site who come to buy the buns.

There are also some men who come to buy steamed buns to see Siluo.

So the men on the construction site would meet Siluo every day, and when people didn't get close, there were voices screaming at her.

He always greeted her, but Siluo nodded shyly every time.

Siluo's eyes are clear and simple, and he doesn't talk much, always keeping his head down crampedly.

There was always a small car parked on the side of the road, and there was a man in it who was looking at Siluo, who had been watching her for a long time, yes, for a long time.