Liu Zhengkun stretched out his hand and pointed, "Give the sea some medicine, bandage it simply, my shoulder is injured." ”

"Hey. Xiaoguang replied.

"The sea, what's going on?!" Liu Zhengkun yelled a little angrily.

Qin Shanhai glanced at Liu Zhengkun aggrievedly, and then at Xiaoguang.

"Sleeves, sleeves off. Xiaoguang said with gauze.

Qin Shanhai didn't speak, and silently took off the sleeves of his clothes.

Liu Zhengkun sat on a chair, and a few minutes later, the wound was medicated and wrapped with gauze.

"Xiaoguang, go ahead, the door is closed. ”

"Hey. ”

After Xiaoguang left, Liu Zhengkun sat in front of Qin Shanhai and said: "I went to your house yesterday, I know the situation at home, and I don't know what happened to you, but I, as your leader and your elder, should tell me what is in your heart." ”

Qin Shanhai's throat was like a stone, and he struggled to adjust his mood, and after a long time, he slowly spoke: "Xiaojuan and I are high school classmates, in our town, we are very good when we go to school, we study together, eat canteen together, and the past three years of memory should be the happiest time I have lived until now." At that time, I was young, and my thinking was relatively simple, and I always felt that it was good to meet every day, and the days would go on like this forever, my family was poor, and I couldn't afford to eat meat and vegetables, every time I cooked, Xiaojuan picked the meat in her bowl to me, in fact, I knew in my heart that she didn't like to eat, she just wanted me to eat some meat, I was very grateful at that time, but I didn't think there was anything wrong, because most of the students' families were not rich, and everyone lived like this, so I didn't pay too much attention to it, and the days went on day by day, until one day……”

Liu Zhengkun listened with a solemn expression, but Qin Shanhai suddenly fell silent, and asked softly, "What happened later?" ”

"That day was on the way out of school, I and Xiaojuan together, just out of the school gate, I saw someone call her, we both stopped, that was also the first time I saw such a high-end car, black body, the sun shines, reflecting a dazzling light, and then I chatted with Xiaojuan, she inadvertently told me that the car is called Santana, worth more than 200,000 yuan, a sentence choked me for a long time speechless, because at that time my family's monthly living expenses were only more than 100, how many pigs did my mother raise, in order to sell more than 200,000? It seems that he does not dare to think about it, and he does not dare to answer...... The one who drove a car to pick up Xiaojuan was her father Guan Kai. Qin Shanhai frowned and fell into memory,

"Guan Kai, I know this person, in the early nineties, was a celebrity in our town, a big entrepreneur. Liu Zhengkun nodded, as if he had guessed Qin Shanhai's suffering.

These words have been hidden in his heart for a long time, Qin Shanhai has never said them to anyone, and today he finally has someone to talk to, and the conversation box is opened, just like a floodgate, and he can't accept it.

"When I was in school, I was ahead of the grades, and I often took the first place in the high school exam, my father praised me for my good studies, and there was no problem in being admitted to college, and people in the neighborhood knew that Shanghe Village was going to produce a college student, so I was under a lot of pressure, Xiaojuan was smart, but the effort under study was not big, because there was no pressure, so I was not as good as me in grades, but it was not bad, the college entrance examination was approaching, we agreed to take the university entrance examination together, go out together, she was also full of confidence in me, if she was not admitted, let his father spend a high fee to have a school with me, good luck, just in time for the expansion of college enrollment, so I had great hopes at that time, During that time, I hurried to review, worked hard all night, I didn't expect the day before the exam, I fell ill, the high fever did not go away, reluctantly entered the examination room, and finally only took a junior college, this blow is not small for me, now think about it, this seems to be a trick of fate, after going home, my parents did not blame me, which made me even more sad and blamed, closed at home, unable to get out of this corner, it was at this time, I saw Xiaojuan's father Guan Kai on the black and white TV at home, wearing a big red flower, the leader shook hands with him, and also issued a certificate of encouragement, which was a news on the county TV station, the theme was to commend outstanding private entrepreneurs。 It was from that moment that I understood that Xiaojuan and I were people of two worlds. I was depressed for many days, and then I heard that the town was recruiting soldiers, so I signed up to join the army, and the fast-paced life in the army seemed to make me forget these things, but every time I received Xiaojuan's letter, I was extremely entangled, and I didn't go back, and I didn't go back. It was so entangled until demobilization. After I came back, it was also the arrangement of fate, which made me become a policeman, established confidence, and accepted Xiaojuan's feelings, and I couldn't bear to refuse again, but after being a policeman for three days, I was dismissed, at that moment I felt that the sky was falling, I squatted on the side of the mountain road, and I thought, I am a man, if I want to live a good life, I have to hold up my chest, fate will always favor me once, right? I went to work in the lumber mill in the town, and I thought about it again when I worked in the past few days, even if I was not fired, I worked as a policeman, what about it? With a salary of five hundred and eighty-four yuan a month, I want Xiaojuan to sit on Santana, or eat or drink to save for forty years, since I can't give her the life she already has, it is better to separate as soon as possible, the two people in the province are getting deeper and deeper, and it will be more painful when the time comes, her family introduced her to a guy with very good conditions, and she can also give her a very good material life, marrying him, she will definitely be happier than marrying me, and now she will be miserable for a while when we break up, but she will not be happy with me for the rest of her life, to put it bluntly, my family has a heavy burden, my father was retired and only received a basic salary, and there is a younger brother with low intelligence, I can't give her a happy lifeIn the end, I told her to wait for me for three years, and if I became famous in these three years, I would marry her. ”

When these words came out, Qin Shanhai let out a sigh of relief, and the boredom in his chest was slightly reduced, but Liu Zhengkun frowned more and more when he listened, got up and pointed at Qin Shanhai's chest and shouted: "You are wrong enough! I thought that you were a responsible and responsible guy, let you do this, I am worried when I hear it! The girl is dead set on you, but you don't do it, you ...... Are you hurting her alone?!You're hurting her and yourself by doing this!Xiao Qin, how can you let me say hello?!What will it be like in three years, no one can say!" He walked back and forth angrily as he spoke.

Qin Shanhai drooped his head, his face turned red and he didn't speak.

Liu Zhengkun walked to the desk, hurriedly took out a box of cigarettes, lit one, and said angrily: "I had quit, I made you angry......

As he spoke, he took a sharp puff, choked and coughed, came to Qin Shanhai and sat down, smoking in silence, and neither of them spoke.

Five minutes later, Liu Zhengkun calmed down, put out the cigarette, and said softly: "When my generation was young, there were many people who didn't know what love was, at that time, there was a shortage of materials, it was good to be able to eat, and they were more conservative about talking about marriage, and there were many people who didn't even fall in love and got married and had children. Revolutionary comrades', the organization introduces the object, the two meet, both sides feel the same, this thing is done, so, I may not be able to feel your feelings and pain, my lover and I are introduced to meet in the organization, two people work together, study together, talk about life and ideals, there is no vigor, let alone death and life, after marriage, diligent, life is not rich but very happy. Now the times are different, since the reform and opening up, few people can't eat, but there is also a gap between the rich and the poor, so now people, pay attention to the right family, which is not wrong in itself, parents hope that their children will live happily in the future...... In fact, I can't judge whether this decision you made is right or wrong, but I am sure that you will regret it for the rest of your life! You also said that the girls are beautiful and the family conditions are good, and the two of you can get along, and the most important thing is not that you can get along? People also know your family and your personal situation, and they are still willing to follow you, and this has nothing to do with whether you can get into college or not, whether you are a policeman or not! From the girl's point of view, I want to say that this is a blessing from the previous life!"

When Qin Shanhai heard these words, he was silent for a long time, then raised his head and said, "Liu Suo, I understand what you said, but I can't watch her suffer with me?"

After saying this, Qin Shanhai kept rubbing his face with both hands, and his expression was very tormented.

Liu Zhengkun sighed and said: "Alas, when we first met, you gave me the impression that you were quite energetic, a young man, I really didn't expect you to have so much pain suppressed in your heart." By the way, as far as I know, your father used to be a middle school teacher, and he is not too old, so what is the reason for his retirement?"

"I heard my mother say that she is not in good health and is not qualified for the job of teaching, and now she is watching the gate of the middle school in the town and receiving a basic salary of 200 yuan. Our family's expenses, except for those few acres of land, depend on my father's salary. ”

"Hey, your family is not having a good time, by the way, there is another matter, I will go to the leaders of the town these days, your brother Xiaohe's affairs should be taken care of by the policy, see if you can help anything?" Liu Zhengkun said.

"Liu Suo, thank you, you are a good leader, over the years, I have held back my stomach, and I don't know who to say, thank you for listening to my heart, saying it, I feel much better. Because it's been suppressed for too long, I know that if I can come back and continue to work as a police officer this time, you must have done a lot of work. At that time, I was really impulsive, Erliang talked about my father and my brother, at that moment I didn't know what was wrong, I suddenly lost my mind, although I didn't do it in the end, I did want to do it, I studied the police system during the exam, I know that this kind of thing is strictly forbidden, so no matter how to deal with me, I have nothing to say, but you let me come back to work, I know you must have spent a lot of time in the middle, so I am grateful from the bottom of my heart, and I don't know how to repay. ”