After eating, I was about to go back to my room, and I saw Mr. Li give Jiang Nan a look, and Jiang Nan ignored his mother without seeing it.

I looked at him and I understand his mood very well now. I tapped him on the shoulder, said, "Good night!" and went back to my room.

I now understand who I am, but I don't understand why this is happening.

I touched the scar on my neck, it was a memorial left by Su Li for Jiang Nan's block, and she hadn't thought about erasing it all these years.

I now remember that she once told me that it was because of that incident and that knife that she and An Xu really came together.

She loves An Xu so much, she naturally regards this scar as the most beautiful testimony.

But this scar also created a bad relationship, and Jiang Nan has had the strongest possessiveness towards Su Li since that incident.

Thinking of these past events, I am more sure of my own identity, I am not Su Li, I am Su Mo.

My feelings for An Xu and Jiang Nan are only derived because I think I am Su Li.

I love my children more than Anxu. What hurts me more is the guilt of Su Li, rather than the joy of being alive.

However, why did I live in Su Li's body? "She" must be my sister Su Li, Su Li's primordial spirit.

Su Li's Yuan Shen is still in her own body, why did I squeeze in to join in the fun?

I watched her die, and now I was sharing her body with her, why did I make mistakes again and again?

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" I curled up and hid in the quilt and cried secretly, "Su Li, I'm sorry ......"

How can I leave and give this body back to "her" completely?

The moment I leave this body should be the time when I say goodbye to this world forever, right?

But I still have nostalgia and concern, and I can't bear my children. Even if I were to hug their soft little bodies again, I would be content.

I want to see them now, and I shouldn't have left them today.

But now that it's the dead of night, the children must have fallen asleep, right?

The thoughts and worries about the children tormented me to the core. I don't want to leave, I want to be with them and watch them grow up!

The thought of saying goodbye to them soon made my heart ache and pain.

Could it be that it is this inseparable separation of flesh and blood that makes me have an obsession with life, so as to occupy my sister's body?

If I occupy Su Li's body like this, Su Li's Yuan Shen will not be able to return to its place normally, what is the difference between this and death? It should be more painful than dying, right?

I know very well what it feels like, that I can't speak, that I can't control my body, and that I can only be a rigid bystander.

That's the cruelest of all beings.

If I had been like that, I would have been worse off than dead all the time.

This body doesn't belong to me, and I can't just pretend to be confused.

I made up my mind to play with the children all day tomorrow and go to Yu Zecheng the day after tomorrow.

He must have a way to return Su Li's primordial spirit and drive me out of Su Li's body!

Then I'm going to be gone, right? It's not terrible to die, it's terrible to never see the children again, and I can't grow up with them.

How pitiful it must be for children to be without their mothers! The more I thought about it, the more heartbroken I felt, and tears flowed uncontrollably.

But I have to return my body to Su Li, I can't occupy her body in order to survive!

Su Li, I'm sorry! Kids, I'm sorry!

I'm not a good sister or a good mother, I don't do anything......

I kept feeling sad and blaming myself, but suddenly I heard myself say, "Then let's work hard from now on!"

I was stunned for a moment, and immediately lifted the quilt and sat up. "Su Li, is that you? It must be you!"

I spoke into the air in the room, impatient. But I knew that "she" was with me in this physical exam, not next to me.

But no matter how much I called, "she" never reappeared. The phrase "she" said, "You just work hard from now on!", has been hovering in my mind.

I sat on the bed in a daze, sleepless. Suddenly my bedroom door was opened and Gangnam walked in.

He spotted me sitting on the bed in a daze and asked me, "What's wrong with you?

The light of the night light of the people in the room was hazy and gentle, but the vision was not good, and I couldn't see the expression on Jiangnan's face clearly.

I said, "I'm fine, I just can't sleep and sit for a while......"

Jiang Nan sat next to me and faced me, and said, "I can't sleep either, so I tried your door and came in without locking." ”

Yes, as soon as he said this, I realized that since the arrival of Sister Wang, she has always done such a small thing as the chain door for me.

Dependence on a person is invisible. I also seem to owe a lot to Sister Wang.

I am using Su Li's money and enjoying the meticulous care of Sister Wang!

I can't!

Jiang Nan kept looking at me, and although the bedroom was dimly lit, his eyes seemed to be able to see through me easily.

He took my hand and sighed inaudibly. He said: "Anxin wait for me to come back, I must first go to find An Xu, my uncle's family is this bloodline, I can't let him wander outside alone......"

"If he's still alive, then why doesn't he come back, even if it's safe!" I don't know An Xu, I only know that his relationship with Su Li is inseparable.

I haven't even met An Xu a few times, and my knowledge of him is through other people's descriptions, especially Su Li's mouth.

Su Li's favorite thing to mention to his family is An Xu, and seven or eight out of ten sentences are related to An Xu.

She has always been passive to Jiangnan, and she always has a kind of helpless acceptance, because Teacher Li played an irresistible role in the middle.

Jiang Nan is now going to look for An Xu, and he is also going with his mother, indicating that he has received the exact news that An Xu is still alive.

"If Su Li knew that An Xu was really alive, he would definitely be overjoyed......" I muttered to myself.

Yes, Su Li will definitely be ecstatic. Since An Xu's death, she has been as lost as a corpse.

Jiang Nan looked at me and let go of my hand. "Do you really think you're Sumo?"

I smiled and said, "Jiangnan, I'm Su Mo, I'm not Su Li!"

Jiang Nan hesitated for a moment, and then seemed to have the courage to ask me: "You have identified you as Su Mo, so you tell me, who is Su Mo's lover?"